Do not look forward to what may happen tomorrow. The same everlasting
Father who cares for you today will take care of you tomorrow, and every day. Either He will shield you from suffering, or
He will give you unfailing strength to bear it. Be at peace, then, put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginations.
- Frances do Sales
What Are We Doing?
When I was a teenager
I was under the impression that I would live until I was 90 like my grandparents. I had lots of time to live life to
the fullest and enjoy it. And my faith? It could wait to grow until I was older, married, with children. I wasted
away so many years I could have been a witness to others. Worse yet, I believe the way I talked and lived deterred people
from investigating the Christian faith.
When I turned 30, I really
started to think about how quickly time passes. The parable of the servants and the talents in Matthew 25 began to haunt
me. I grew up in a good Christian home. I was taught biblical principals and good values. Yet I've wasted
so many years pleasing myself. I thought by getting married my life would change in that I'd no longer be lonely and
down, and would actively serve God with a partner at my side, but do you know what? No human being, no circumstance will change
who you are and what you chase after. Only YOU can make the decision that the things of the world are not worth pursuing
compared to what you could accomplish by helping others. Everything I chase after and achieve for myself comes and goes.
There is still the emptiness, the longing. If you've ever bought a homeless person a coffee, you would understand how
a few minutes of your time, and a few dollars greatly surpasses any happiness that buying new clothes, a new cell phone, mp3
player, and for some cars, recreation vehicles, and trips could ever bring you. The excitement quickly fades and you're
left seeking the bigger and better thing that will fulfill you.
My greatest fear is that
when I stand before God I will be the servant who buried the talent in the ground and did nothing with it. God judges
us based on the measure he has given us. He has given me so much and I have done so little with it. So many times
I can remember myself crying and in despair over a seemingly impossible situation, pleading with him for his help. He
has been so faithful, but no sooner is the trial over do I go back to depending on myself and chasing my own desires.
I don't believe in prosperity
gospel but I do believe God blesses those who serve him faithfully. For some it is in this life, for others it will
be in the afterlife.
NOTHING in this life has
given me lasting fulfillment. We can go for nice dinners, take trips, etc. but it doesn't last. No sooner do you
walk out of that nail salon after dropping $40 on a pedicure are you looking for something else to fill that hole.
When talking with people
who aren't Christians, the most popular question seems to be "If God is a loving God, why do people continue to suffer from
starvation, poverty, etc.?" I used to be stumped by this one and the whole, "God is all knowing and the God of the universe,
we cannot understand why bad things happen" doesn't cut it. As true as it is, it doesn't make Christianity for someone
who doesn't know God very attractive. The answer I use is this: "God has blessed you - what are you doing?" Even
if time is limited, you can always give something - donations, money or other. It's a tough economy but I have found
when I am most faithful in my tithing does the business pour in and I have more than I need.
I look at all the ridiculous
things I've spent my money on. A nice dinner out could feed, clothe and school a child in Bolivia for a MONTH! It could
support a pastor in a communist country who lives only to tell people about Jesus.
I look back on my life
and want to cry. If I had become a Christian at 30 it would be a different story. God has always been in my life
yet I've passed by so many opportunities to live my faith and tell others about Jesus, I will have to answer for that.
But the great thing about
God is that it's never too late to make a change. Like a parent of a dysfunctional child he is always waiting with his
arms open. If he can bring joy and fulfillment to a group of students in an underground bible school in China, who exist
on 500 calories a day and study the bible non-stop for 6 months so that they can share with others, he can bring joy to me,
and to you.
Most of us aren't cut
out to live on the run in communist countries, preaching to others. But we can help. We can pray, and we can give.
Over the years I've come across outstanding missions who utilize every dollar you give them to tell others about the good
news of Jesus Christ. One person being given hope and eternal life is by far the better return for your dollar than
a meal out, new clothes, or whatever you need to buy to fulfill you temporarily. Thousands are coming to Jesus every
day, but we will never hear about it unless we get involved.
If you ask my husband,
my friends, and my family, they will all say I express myself far better in writing than verbally. When I try to talk
to people about God I get tongue-tied and self-conscious. My mind goes blank when I'm asked important questions.
Not everyone can speak like Josh McDowell, Lee Stroebel, or John McArthur. We aren't expected to. But what we
can do is live our lives to glorify God, so that when people look at us they don't have to wonder what the difference is between
believers and non-believers.
There is an old church
saying to give till it hurts - but I believe you give till it stops hurting. And God will honor that. All he asks
for is 10% of what he's already blessed you with. And he's not asking you to fork it out to anyone wearing the Christian
badge, like a loud-mouthed televangelist. We're also asked to be good stewards, meaning we give our money where it will
be best utilized.
I encourage you to please
look into the following missions/charities I list below. Some of them I have supported for years and take comfort in
the fact that what I give brings joy and hope to the people they reach.
I was first introduced
to Compassion in 2005 at a Christian conference. My husband and I now support four children for only $38 each.
My first child was four when I started supporting him and through letters from his mother, pictures he has drawn, and recently,
letters he's learned to write on his own, I've been able to watch him grow. A letter from Luis makes my entire day because
I know that he appreciates every penny he receives. On birthdays and Christmas we receive photos of the children proudly
displaying the gifts they were able to buy themselves whether it is school supplies, a new outfit, toys, etc. They deeply
appreciate everything they receive.
I was reminded how effective
Compassion is when I watched a video at a recent Jeremy Camp concert. Four of the individuals in the video had been
young children in war-torn countries, who, through Compassion received sponsors who literally saved their lives. The
sponsors were not rich, in fact, most were teenagers. But their $30+ a month helped pull these kids out of poverty and
abuse and dramatically change their lives.
This organization sends
shoeboxes, packed by you with toys, hygiene items, and school supplies to the age/gender of the child you designate on the
outside of the box. The most heart breaking video I ever saw by this organization was a little girl in a third world
country who received a box. She took only one item out and handed the box back. She didn't realize that everything
in that box was hers! I encourage you this year to take a bit of time and fill a box or two to drop off at a local church
that is sponsoring this. You have no idea how much a shoe box filled with items most kids take for granted, would mean
to one of these little kids. Most toys and items can be bought at the local dollar store for less than $10 but would
make a world of difference to one of these kids.
This is also listed in
my Missions page but I want to strongly encourage you to check this one out. Out of all missions I've
looked into, this one has impressed me the most. Their pastors wake up each day knowing that it may be their last -
that they could be arrested, tortured, murdered, and their families as well, for preaching the gospel. But they keep
doing it, and they need out help. For the cost of a trip to the theater with popcorn and soda, you could feed and support
one pastor. Some countries are a bit more expensive, but you can designate your funds to area with the greatest need.
The last I checked, it was Ethiopia.
is another excellent one
along the same lines as Worldserve. A dear friend has made them the beneficiary of her $1,000,000.00 life insurance
policy!
There is SO much need
out there. I was first inspired to sponsor a child when I realized, to my shame, that for the cost of a new shirt for
me, it could feed and clothe a little child for a MONTH!
The sad thing is, martyrs
in communist countries feel sorry for US! Why? Because we have so many distractions keeping us from an intimate walk with
Jesus. They would rather serve God although it could cost them their freedom or their lives, than become wrapped up
in the cares of the world.
If you are a Christian,
or even if you're not sure, are searching, etc. I strongly encourage you to make a difference in some way for someone.
Even if you're not in a position to be spending $30 a month to support a mission, or don't have the time to volunteer.
There are many things you can do to show love and kindness to others...sometimes it's just asking "How are you?" and being
willing to really listen if they tell you the truth, and the truth isn't so nice. The more you pray for others, the
more your concerns for yourself will fade.
I am the first one to
step forward and admit I have wasted a good portion of my life away. What about you?
Pressing on Toward the Goal
"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for
which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it, but one thing I
do: Forgetting what is behind and straining to what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which
God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
Phillipians 3:12-14
Over the past few months it's become more and more apparent to me how short life really is. As a child or teenager
it seems like eternity. But there comes a time when we stop and look back at our lives - what we've accomplished and
what we've squandered. We remember difficult times and recall how once, what we were going through seemed like the end
of the world, but over time, we see how insignificant it was unless there was a valuable lesson or personal growth we took
from it.
Most people have the same goals - get an education, a career, get married, have children, travel, etc. There is
nothing wrong with wanting those things out of life or even obtaining them. God gives them to us as a gift.
However, there is something wrong when we, as Christians put those things before Christ.
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apartfrom me you can do nothing."
John 15:5
We might be able to get away with it for a little while. We may live most of our lives for ourselves and/or for
our families and seem to do okay. But one day we are going to stand before Christ and explain to him what we did on
earth to further his kingdom.
Life is short, for some shorter than others. Compared to eternity it isn't even a blink of an eye. So why
are the things of this world so important when they could be gone tomorrow, next week, in a few years? The job positions we
strive for will be filled when we go. The things that we work hard to get - cars, boats, cottages, etc. will be sold
and divided up among family when we die.
The reason this weighs so heavy on my heart is because I am as guilty of this as anyone. I was saved as a child
yet my teens and early adulthood did not honor God at all. Very few coworkers or acquaintances could honestly say that
my life reflected the faith I professed to have. I could go to church and bible study, maybe even have a good spiritual
conversation or share a bit with an unsaved friend, and feel pretty good about myself. But what else?
"For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Luke 6:38
I've had glimpses into my own selfishness over the past ten years ago, but only when I turned thirty a sense of urgency
set in that it was time to change so that God can start to really work in my life. Sure I've always tithed - giving
money away is easy. You write a check or sign up for automatic deductions and barely notice it coming out of your account.
But that is the bare minimum of what I can do as Christian.
My younger brother has shown tremendous growth over the past few years. God has blessed him with a good business
sense and a sucessful
company. Recently, he started giving away thousands to missions where he felt it would best be utilized. Because
of him, hundreds of pastors will be able to eat, live, and minister in communist countries to people that crave the gospel.
My husband works with children from broken homes and/or with substance abusing or abusive family members, guardians,
etc. Many of the kids live in neighborhoods where they can't safely walk a few blocks. They have behavioral and
mental problems, addictions, and so many other things kids growing up in middle class or privileged homes will never know
about.
A child he worked with years ago is now a young adult. He has kept in touch over the years, and last week he called
again. He had been staying with various people he knew until his welcome ran out. He found a family to stay with
in a rougher area; however, they couldn't afford to feed him, too.
I looked in our fridge that contained more food than we knew what do with. Some of it even gets thrown out because
it's started to spoil.
We brought this young man several home cooked meals to keep him going for the next while. I got the privilege of
meeting him, and he is an example of someone who truly has nothing. He had the clothes on his back and that's about
it - no family, no real friends, no food, no home.
"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not
do for me.'
Matthew 25:45
I've observed that the life of an average Christian includes church on Sunday, maybe even an evening service. They
go to work and maybe have a chance to witness to someone. Maybe. Maybe they even follow through. They might
get together with church friends for a mid-week bible study. They may drop change in the Salvation Army bucket, give
a ride to an elderly neighbor, or donate food to the food bank. Perhaps at Thanksgiving the neighborhood or church group
will even do a dinner for the homeless.
If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical
needs, what good is it?
James 2:16
We have so much, and give back so little. At church it's estimated that about 8% of the congregation tithe! Has
God provided for them? Yes. Has he blessed them? Yes. No one is crashing at random friend's places with one set
of clothes and not knowing where their next meal is coming from. God asks for 10% of what he has blessed us with
yet many of us can't bring ourselves to give that up.
The wonderful thing about putting God first, and what he wants, is the fact that he will direct our paths. We can
chase our tails around trying to find the right job, right spouse, right home, right car or we can start focusing on what
he wants. Many bemoan the fact that they want to know what God's plan is for their lives and what his will is, but I
wonder if they are really taking the time to find out, through prayer, his word, and wise counsel. When we fill our
minds with TV, movies, the internet, magazines, even church and social activities we can't hear his voice and therefore, he
will not direct our steps.
Instead of saying, "I can't do this" and "I can't do that" acknowledge WHY you feel you can't. Everyone has weaknesses,
but we have strengths, too. So for every "can't" there is some sort of solution.
"I can't witness at work, it's inappropriate and I could get in trouble."
You can witness by living a life of honesty, integrity, kindness, and mercy. You can show others you
are different instead of trying to tell them you are. Pray for open doors, so that even if you are at a place of business
that you will meet those who are looking for answers and you can meet with them elsewhere, and make the time to do that.
"I can't afford to give money to missions."
Do you think God would have commanded us to give if he knew we couldn't? He provides for our needs and will bless us
when we follow his commands.
"I can't witness to others because I get nervous/tongue tied/may not have answers to people's questions."
This was a big one for me. That's part of why I started this website. I've always been better at writing
than talking. There are many ways to tell others about Jesus without winning debates. Simple acts of kindness,
things many people wouldn't take the time to do, are wonderful ways to show God's love. Visiting an elderly neighbor
who has no family, gathering clothing and food for the unfortunate, even taking the time to invite a homeless person for a
meal with you, talking with them, and really listening.
List what your strengths are and how you can use them, or rather, how God can work through you.
I know of a lady who was ill and confined to her home. Every Halloween, instead of handing out treats, she handed
out invitations to Sunday School. She may never know what kind of impact she made in the lives of those children, but
she made the effort. God does the rest. And that is the best form of witness, when we are unable to take credit
for something we did.
There is not a lot of time, but it's never too late to start. If you were diagnosed with Cancer tomorrow and given
6 months to live, could you look back on your life and say in all honesty that you made the most of all opportunities? Would
you scramble to start really living for him for the last 6 months of your life.
I can answer "no" to the first question, and "yes" to the second.
What about you?
Spiritual Drought
Show me your ways, O LORD, teach
me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all
day long.
Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.
Remember not the sins of my youth and
my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD.
Psalm 25:4-7
At the beginning of this year I received a reading plan to assist in reading through
the entire bible in one year.The above passage really touched my heart, as I
have been so caught up in the things I’ve done, said, and thought that are displeasing to God.I’ve asked God’s forgiveness yet haven’t been able to let go of the past and this has
greatly hindered my growing in Christ.
I can tell you from experience that if you are a Christian and your wholesome thoughts,
values, and habits are deteriorating and being replaced with harmful ones, it is time to get a hold of it now.You may not even realize you are slipping away because it happens so gradually.The devil knows you aren’t going to wake up one day and jump into sin with both feet so he subtly
chips away at our character.And it is a double-edged sword.He knows where our weaknesses lie and uses every opportunity to expose them.Then, when we are immersed in sin he uses guilt and shame to ensure we can’t or won’t dig ourselves
out of the pit.
God gives us very clear rules to protect us.If you came across a very slow gas leak you would not see how close you could get to it with a match.You would turn around and run.That is how we are supposed
to handle temptation.Yet because we cannot (or will not) see an immediate threat,
we play with fire.Some get burned worse than others but it is inevitable that
in one way or the other - you, me, and anyone who closes their eyes to their convictions – will get burned.
My spiritual life really suffered last year, so when the New Year approached I looked
forward to making some changes.I had gotten lazy and basically stopped going
to church.I read the bible and prayed only when I felt anxious and alone.I knew I had to reconnect with God but I just felt so dead inside, I didn’t
know where to start.I couldn’t beg God to change me because much of the
change I needed to make depended on my will.
Late last year I got the opportunity to catch up with an old friend who I thought
had long since forgotten about me.I bought her a very belated baby gift and
used that as an excuse to visit her church.Still, it took a couple weeks before
I finally went.Even that day I woke up, having slept in, and told myself it
was too late to go.But I just did it.I got up, I made it on time, and it completely changed my day.Had I stayed
home as usual that day I would be restless and down the rest of the day.
It is amazing what a simple decision can do for your frame of mind.I knew all along what was missing in my life, I just wouldn’t go out and get it.Yes, many will say that you don’t have to go to church to be religious, but I know for myself, I
do.I can tell myself that I will just stay home on Sunday and read the bible,
and even if I follow through it doesn’t come close to being in the house of God, surrounded by other believers.
Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.
He guides the humble in what is right
and teaches them his way.
All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful
for those who keep the demands of his covenant.
For the sake of your name, O LORD,
forgive my iniquity, though it is great.
Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD
? He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.
He will spend his days in prosperity,
and his descendants will inherit the land.
The LORD confides in those who fear him;
he makes his covenant known to them.
My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.
Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.
The troubles of my heart have multiplied;
free me from my anguish.
Look upon my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.
This passage really hit home for me today, as the words David is saying have been
my prayer many times.David made a lot of terrible decisions and as a result
brought a lot of trouble on himself.Yet the thing that remained consistent with
him was his love for God and desire to follow him.Despite all the sins he committed
God still found him to be a man after his own heart (Acts 13:22).This should
give you new hope that whatever you’ve done, whatever you’re doing, God doesn’t want you to hide from him.He will not end your spiritual drought unless you ask him, and are willing to do whatever
you can to be restored to him.
And it doesn’t end there.There
will be failures.I have got up on my feet many times only to fall again and
again.But that doesn’t mean we lie down and die.We keep trying.God knows us inside and out.He knows we’re not perfect and he knows we’re weak.We
are not supposed to let sin get the best of us, and yes, that means after we’ve sinned and asked forgiveness are not
supposed to let it continue to drag us down.What would be the purpose of God’s
forgiveness then? And what are we saying about his forgiveness if we ask for it, get it, but then don’t accept it?
Every day is a battle between good and evil.We face choices all the time about how much good and evil we will allow into our lives.With good, we can never allow enough into our lives.With bad, there is
NO safe amount.
But each one is tempted when, by his own
evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is
full-grown, gives birth to death.
Don't be deceived, my dear brothers.
James 1:14-16
Unworthy
For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am
carnal, sold under sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what
I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it
is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells;
for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do,
I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer
I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good.
For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the
law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who
will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Romans 7: 14-25
I have never been able to understand why a man who gave up everything he had, endured many hardships, was tortured and
eventually murdered for sharing his faith with others, could write something like this. If one of the greatest missionaries
of all times considers himself "wretched", where does that leave the rest of us? Was he referring to when he persecuted Christians
himself, watching Stephen being stoned and giving his approval? I find it doubtful that he is referring to his past, although
only Paul knows. He did say in 2 Corinthians 5:17:
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new
creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
One of the purposes of the bible was to serve as a guideline for how we live our lives. How many of us can say
we follow it down to the last word? How many of us allow sin we feel "isn't as bad" as other sins, into our lives even though
the bible (especially Proverbs) speaks strongly against them? Things like anger, jealousy, selfishness, slander, gossip.
Each Christian has a different standard for themselves, and perhaps Paul's standard is what we should strive for? Even
though we don't see it coming, when we allow the "little stuff" into our lives it slowly drives a wedge between us and God
and makes us more susceptible to more serious sin.
This is not to say we live our lives lamenting about how terrible we are. We have to remember God created us and
loves us very much. We are to do our best with what we have.
If you have trouble sharing your faith with others because of possible rejection and ridicule, then prepare yourself
first in prayer, asking God to send you people who's hearts are open, and to make you aware of who they are.
If you spend more time on the internet, watching TV and movies than you do with your Savior, then it may be time to hit
the "off" button and open your bible. You might be surprised at the difference it makes with your frame of mind.
If you are struggling with willful sin and/or addiction and cannot fix it on your own, seek help from a pastor or counselor.
To those who by persistence in doing good seek
glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life. But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth
and follow evil their will be wrath and anger.
Romans 2:7-8
No one knows better than Jesus how difficult life on this earth can be. He set the ultimate standard in pure and
holy living. We will never be able to obtain that, because Jesus Christ is God and we are mere humans.
But it doesn't mean we stop trying.
Brokeness
That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses,
in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:10
Few of us, if any, would choose trials in our life. But while the devil uses them to try to beat us down, God uses
them to build us up. Difficulties usually come when we become a bit too self-sufficient and rely on ourselves, other
people and material things for our happiness. Some continue to fall away from God while others will miss the peace from
being close and right with Him.
I experience this when I get caught up with my own thing and my prayer and reading starts to diminish. I have proven
to myself over and over that nothing can fill that void inside but Jesus.
Parents enjoy their babies and toddlers and dread the teenage years because the child(ren) that once looked up to them,
depended on them, obeyed them and loved them with all their hearts turn into obnoxious, selfish, lippy and rebellious.
As kids grow older and mature they begin to realize how much their parents did for them. They couldn't give much as
young children but as adults start to give back a portion of what their folks gave them.
Jesus wants our faith to be like a child and will repeatedly bring us to this place until we fully put our love and trust
in Him. As we grow closer to Him we start to realize how great is His faithfulness and mercies for us. When we
realize how much He sacrificed for us, and how unworthy we really are, we are humbled and can only give back the one thing
He wants...us - our love, obedience, devotion and service.
Let's stop focusing on the negative in our life and what we don't have. Give thanks for what He's given us and
the hard times He's brought us through. And spend time with Him. It won't be long before the longing feeling in
your life starts to disappear and the void is filled with the peace that surpasses all understanding, the kind only HE can
give.
Self-Control
For this very reason, make every effort to add to your
faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance,
godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love.
2 Peter 1:5-7
At the beginning of this year, I made a list of goals I wished to obtain, and changes in myself I wanted to make.
Like most years, my motivation ran out within the first two weeks of January and I slipped into my comfortable, underacheiving
complacency.
I had vowed to read my bible every day, keep my apartment clean, eat healthier, save money and get into a regular exercise
routine.
The good news is, while I lost heart early this year, I have obtained some of those goals, and the ones I haven't, I
am working strongly towards. The only thing is, it's taken me until the end of September!
It is easy to think that you "can't" or you "will, but not right now". It seems it takes a conflict or crisis to
push us over the edge and decide to change. And a lot of times once the stormy skies clear we're right back to where
we were. I have had my share of bad times, becoming determined to change, and then gradually slipping back. It
can be as easy as devouring the Word of God when times are tough, then slowly putting the bible on the back burner by checking
email, phoning a friend, or doing anything else, instead.
In August, I reached a place where I realized I need God. It wasn't anything I could orchastrate. I went
through a time of such anxiety and depression that I knew I had to hang onto Him and never let go.
Then I looked around at all the stuff I had and never used. Clothes with tags hanging off, shoes I will probably
wear once in my life, piles of items I could no longer fit in my closet and drawers. It made me a little sick of myself.
I had enslaved myself to online shopping. Every morning over coffee I would visit my favorite sites and often buy without
considering that money was more needed for bills. I loved getting packages in the mail but the excitement wore off as
soon as the shipping boxes were in the garbage. And the credit card bill made me feel much worse.
For once, I really started to think about the future. Being self-employed I took it for granted that God has kept
me healthy and able to work. Had I been injured or sick I would have nothing to get by on, and persistant credit card
bills flowing in. I had trained myself to believe that I only had to work so much, only make a certain amount of money.
And yet month after month I was discouraged to find I had just enough to get by, or had to dip into my savings occasionally
to pay a bill or two.
I was lazy. I refused to work past a certain time of day, and would not take any less than two full days off.
Now for a lot of people, this is standard. But for a single, childless woman who doesn't do a whole lot when I'm sitting
around on a day off anyway, why not pick up a few more hours? I worked it out in my head that if I just took on four extra
clients per week, for the next four months, I could have my credit cards paid off. I also expanded my schedule to take
evening appointments which many people appreciated. The work flowed in, and I give all glory to God.
He has removed my taste for things I thought I could never give up - online shopping, reading true crime novels.
I've had little desire to do either. I no longer drag myself out of bed with little time to spare in the morning, and
rush off to work. I wake up at least a couple hours early so that I can spend some time with God.
I am excited about the changes He is making in me, and I feel victorious when I can come home from work, exhausted but
happy, cook myself a good supper, and NOT crave a glass of wine or two to go with it. I can sip my tea, wind down, and
have a good sleep. I can look forward to work, knowing each person who walks in the door gives me an opportunity to
help them, and that every one of them is necessary for me to pay the bills. I used to get tired and grumpy, hoping people
would cancel or not show up so I could go home. Now I anticipate every client coming.
I write this not as an instruction - because I'm still working towards my goals - but as an encouragement that whatever
your weakness: shopping, overspending, drinking, overeating, laziness, depression, that you can change. You just
need the will to do it and trust in God to help you through. You need to come to a place in your life where you are
so sickened by yourself, your habits, and your attitude that the feeling is actually a deterrant from slipping back into it.
Once you start accomplishing your goal(s) you will get a high that feels better and lasts longer than any high your former
bad habits gave you.
In many ways I feel similar to when I was learning to ride a bike as a child. There were times when I couldn't
hold the bike up without my Dad running beside me, grabbing the frame when I wobbled. There were many wipe-outs when
I ventured off on my own, before I was ready. But then the time came when my father, running beside me, let go and I
kept peddling. "I'm doing it! I'm actually doing it!" What a wonderful feeling.
You can do it. And even if you slip up you can always get back on the bike and start peddling again.
You can make ground again. And you can be rest assured that your Heavenly Father wants to see you change for the better,
and He will help you when you are weak.
If you read the verse at the top of this article, you will see a series of things we are to add to our faith:
goodness, knowledge, self-control, perseverance, Godliness, brotherly kindness, and love. Some of us don't get
by the goodness and knowledge part. We know what we are supposed to do, believe, and feel but can't seem to put it into
action. That's where self-control comes in, the will to say yes to positive change and no to things that can hurt us.
And once we've got there we have to persist. We have to continue to persue the healthy habits we've formed, and develop
more of them! After that, it says, comes Godliness (which most Christians want), brotherly kindness and love. So don't
get discouraged when you aren't able to become the person you want to be in a day, a week, a month, or even a year.
It is an ongoing journey, and you will get there, as long as you keep walking the path.
One More Reason
Be sober; be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about
like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.
1 Peter 5:8
Imagine having
an enemy that hated you so strongly, so much that they wanted nothing more than to see you suffer and die.They would make it their personal mission to watch your every move and exploit your mistakes and weaknesses.Nothing would bring them greater joy than if something went wrong in your life, especially
if they were responsible.
You do have
an enemy like that.So does every human on this earth.He hates even the unborn and newborn babies and it’s his victory to see millions of them die each
year.He loves to see stepparents and even parents abuse their own children.Rape, murder, incest, pedophilia, and many other disgusting things delight him.He mocks those who worship him and think they have a friend in him.He hates them just as much, too, and cannot wait to see their faces when they go to hell and realize how
wrong they were.
The best part
for him is, many people believe he doesn’t exist.They believe the Devil
was invented by religious organizations to “scare people straight”.A
lot of people believe in God and have read the Bible – which references Satan countless times – but still believe
he was an invention.People whine and lament, “If God is good why is there
so much suffering?” but rarely ponder, “If the Devil doesn’t exist how can there be so much evil in the
world?”How can criminals rape and murder little children, or blow away entire families, ones they barely know or don’t know at all? Do teenagers dress in black, murder
their families and worship vampires just for kicks? Can this all be attributed to mental illness, personality disorders
or is there a greater power at work?
There are
people who seem to coast through life.They have ups and downs but nothing really
major.They are indifferent to suffering because they’ve never really experienced
it.The concept of Satan, and maybe even God isn’t important.
Others struggle,
and it seems once they’ve overcome one difficulty in their life, another one is present.I think of those people as the wounded or sick, the ones lions prey on first.Some get sick of fighting, conclude their life is hopeless and resort to drugs, alcohol, cutting themselves, and suicide.
For most of
us, good and evil is an everyday battle.We are conscious of our own weaknesses,
and guess what? So is the Devil.That is why each of us face very individual
battles.We wonder if there is anyone out there going through the same thing
and usually, there is.We feel alone, ashamed, and afraid to talk to others because
we don’t know what they will think of us.
Do you ever
wonder why the same struggles keep popping up in front of you? For the young man struggling with homosexual feelings, it seems
everywhere he turns there is temptation – a gay supervisor at work who takes interest in him, a friend who suddenly
“comes out” and confesses his attraction for him, etc.
Or you have
the individual who deals with anger and rage and keeps being confronted by difficult people who seem to know how to push his
buttons?
Or the lonely
girl who can’t seem to find the right guy - everywhere she turns it seems the wrong guy is there, expressing interest
in her and telling her everything she wants to hear.And when she finally breaks
away there is another waiting.
The good news
is that we can use these negative situations to our advantages.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Philippians
4:13
No matter
what Oprah, Eckert Tolle, Neale Donald Walsch (or anyone else who endorses or writes a book with recycled, New Age and self-help
concepts) says, there is only one way.Many have tried to change
themselves, how they feel inside and what they are, but I know from experience that only Christ can make that change.And many Christians (including myself) struggle because they have not fully submitted
to God.They hang onto their own ways and understanding.Some may even feel or convince themselves they don’t need God.But for anyone who has turned to Christ and away from their past will testify it is the ONLY WAY.
The fact that
we face adversity everyday – whether it’s spiritual, physical, and emotional - is one more reason to live a pure
life.
Eliminate
all the garbage that is dragging you down and giving the Enemy ammunition.
Recognize the traps he sets out for you and identify them each time as that.
If
you cannot deal with what you’re going through on your own, and self-talk is just not doing it for you it may be time
to talk to someone who can help.
Sins, struggles,
weaknesses are worst when kept hidden and in the dark.Once you bring it out
into the light (and I’m not saying stand up at the front of your church and broadcast to everyone this Sunday) it eliminates
the shame and secrecy that the Devil is bonding you with.Of course you feel
embarrassed, sinful, and filthy and he wants to make sure you continue feeling that way.He uses it to keep you from reaching out to others because he knows once you do that it has broken a foothold he has
on you.
And you might
be very surprised.The mature Christian you confide in - whether it’s a
counselor, pastor, friend, and coworker - may have gone through similar struggles or know others who have experienced the
same.It can be very comforting to know that you’re not alone, and not
going crazy!
I’ve
said it before, but choose wisely.Just because someone says he or she is a Christian
does not mean they are the right ones to talk to.Christians have said damaging
things to others either because they are not in a healthy place themselves, they are stressed, proud, or simply didn’t
bother to hear a person out or try to understand.This results in lack of trust
for others and more secrecy.And you better believe the Devil also has a hand
in putting those in your way who you think may help you.
But there
is an old saying, “Don’t look for a Devil under every rock.”I
am not trying to say that the Devil is responsible for everything that goes wrong and that he should be blamed for everything.We still need to be wise and prudent about our decisions and accept responsibility.He is, however, more than happy to take credit for all of it.Don’t give him that recognition.
I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.
Matthew
10:16
Many charismatics
blame their all the actions on the Devil, spirits, and remove all responsibility from themselves when in fact they are sinning
willfully.
But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden his face from you,
so that he will not hear.
Isaiah
59:2
When it comes
right down to it, it is one way or the other: Believing in Jesus to lead us to God, or Satan.And no matter what ideas we come up with, what psuedo-spiritual books we read and embrace, what “seems”
right and fair to us, if we do not believe that Jesus is God’s son, and that He sent Him to die for ALL the sins of
the world - yours, mine, Hitler’s, Charles Manson’s – we all have the same chance, and the same choice to
make.
Last night
we were talking about hell and a question was asked, “How can a good man who is not a believer, who may even live a
better life than believers, go to hell simply because he hasn’t accepted Jesus? The same hell that Adolf Hilter is in
for killing millions of people?”
For my thoughts
are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.
As
the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Isaiah 55:8-9
The problem
we run into is we think we can understand God.Our understanding is a less than
microscopic fraction of God’s, if that! He created us, and has given each and every one of us an opportunity to find
out his purpose for our lives.He even gave us the bible, His word, to get to
know him.What stands in most people’s way, “good” or “bad”
is the original sin: PRIDE.
To believe
that an All Mighty God who gave us life does not have the right to tell us to believe in His son, who he sent to earth to
die for all the sinful people (and that includes you and me) and give them a chance to go to Heaven if they simply believe
in that, to insist we deserve Heaven without believing in His son, is arrogant and proud.
On a smaller
scale it would be like the child who disobeyed, disrespected, and took for granted everything his parents did for him.Then when he reaches 18, he disowns them, moves away and does as he pleases.Despite their efforts to help him and provide for them he takes advantage of them
and has nothing to do with them.And then in the end, when they die he expects
his inheritance.When his sibling, who has been obedient and kind all his life
inherits the entire estate, does the rebellious son really have a right to feel unjustified?
We all have our choices, and there is enough opportunity out there to investigate Christianity, if we really
wanted to.But most of us don’t.That is where faith comes in.I’ve talked to engineers who will
rip apart the bible and say this doesn’t make sense, and that doesn’t…they need everything broken down for
them so they can understand before they believe.But they won’t.
The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.
John 1:5
All through
the bible, God and Jesus are impressed with faith.Jesus healed people based
on them simply believing He is who He is.The thief on the cross simply acknowledged
Jesus had done no wrong and did not deserve to die with himself and the other thief, and Jesus promised him he would be with
Him in Heaven.I never took the time to think about the significance of that
passage before.Here Jesus was suffering, dying, most of the people were watching
and mocking, others were weeping, and He managed this short conversation with a criminal.And the writers of the bible (who, YES, God spoke through and gave them the words to say) included this.The point is simply this: believe in Christ and you will be saved.
Maybe you
blame God for a difficult or unfair life? Just have a look at organizations such as Compassion where children are living in poverty yet them and their families are still praising
God for the little they receive from Canada and the USA, for food, clothing, water and schooling. What do you consider difficult and unfair?
For most,
life is “unfair”, but it’s short, and time is running out.Christians
are even wasting their time away being Sunday Christians and not living the life they are supposed to, being terrible witnesses
for unbelievers and making them think, “How are they any different than me?”
I’ve
digressed from my original point that the Devil is real and out to destroy us.I’ve
listed off many of his personal tactics to divert us from Christ.In addition,
he uses false religions who all say they are the only way…why should Christianity be any different? He uses new
and improved “faiths” that seem to make a lot more sense and easier to live by, to attract non-believers and even
some weak Christians.He uses hypocrites and judgmental Christians to hurt those
who may truly be looking, turning them off of Christianity altogether.Don’t
let a bad Christian or a hypocritical organization deter you from seeking the truth, and don’t use them to justify not
investigating Christianity thus cheating you out of eternal life.
If you feel
you have covered all the bases and satisfied that what you believe is correct, then for you, I guess it is.My neighbors, an elderly couple passed away, one virtually after the other.Good people, but atheist their whole lives did not make even a deathbed confession, when they would have nothing to
lose.
Don’t
make yourself a “puzzle” religion, where you can put together the pieces from the bible, your own beliefs, and
teachings of men, not assembling the pieces you don’t want.It’s
one way or the other, and seeing what’s going on in this world and all the evil that’s happening is one more reason
to think very carefully about your eternal destination, why you are here, and how did you get here.
If
you don’t believe, you don’t believe it.It’s as simple as
that.
His Time
But seek ye first
the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:33
I have talked endlessly
through this website about spending time with God in order to restore and maintain peace inside.I’ve emphasized the importance of putting Him first.Yet
no one needs to take this advice more than myself.No matter how many times He’s
shown me how much I need him I always tend to drift away.It is easy to need
Him when I don’t have anyone else, but when things are going well He seems to be the last priority on my list.
I woke up
this morning feeling lower and more alone than I can ever remember feeling in my life.A few days ago I found out that someone from my past who had caused me a significant amount of pain – and who
had left town – was back.I thought I had dealt with it years ago but this
made me realize how strong and real my feelings about this still are, and how much bitterness, fear, and unforgiveness I still
harbored.
It was as if a
cloud of depression had come over me.I couldn’t stop crying and couldn’t
understand why I felt this way.I considered going back to bed, to sleep because
I didn’t think I could make it through the day.
I knew this was
a blatant attack from the Devil but for once I was strong.I grabbed my books,
a hot cup of coffee and went out on the deck knowing deep in my heart God would pound this out of me like He always does,
through His word and prayer.
About a month ago
when I was experiencing feeling of unforgiveness and bitterness towards others who I felt had “wronged” me, I
bought a few books including one called Total Forgiveness by R.T. Kendall.I
knew my anger towards others was wrong and weighing me down.I had never had
a greater urge than today to open it up.
I found myself
pouring over it, practically using up my hi-lighter for all the good points he was making.The best part was that he was writing based on his experience with unforgiveness towards others, so it wasn’t
like a writer giving pat answers and step-by-step text book self-help.It also
made me realize that there are people out there who have experienced hurts much worse in comparison to mine.There have been parents who’ve had to face their child’s murderer in court and decide between
hating them the rest of their lives or forgiving them.Robert Rulewas one of the few who offered his forgiveness to the Green River Killer, Gary Ridgeway, after Ridgeway killed his 16 year-old
daughter among many, many young women.Ridgeway broke down and turned away.Up until then many relatives of his victims told him to “rot in hell”.
I’ve never
been one to claim God speaks directly to me, and if He does it is so subtle I mistaken it for my own thoughts.But today I believe He spoke to me, because it was to His glory and my peace that I listen to Him.
Resorting to old
habits to find comfort in my distress, I went inside to get the phone and call a listening ear.But as soon as I opened my patio door, something was telling me…
This
is MY time.
God wasn’t
done with me yet.It wasn’t enough that I read half of a book and portions
of the Bible, and had finished crying my eyes out.He didn’t want me for
an hour.He wanted me most of, if not, all day.I could feel it and I knew it.
I wrote a prayer
to God forgiving everyone I had grudges against.I asked Him forgiveness for
not forgiving others as He does.I asked forgiveness for the things I had
done against others.After all, Jesus was near death and He could still say about
those who were crucifying him:
Father, forgive
them; for they know not what they do.
Luke 23:34
Have we been dealt
an injustice worse than Jesus? He was perfect and came to earth to die for the sins of everyone, even those who hate him and
curse him.He was beaten beyond recognition yet still loved and forgave each
person who had done this to Him.And He continues to do this for us who continuously
sin against Him.
He will turn
again, he will have compassion upon us; he will subdue our iniquities; and thou wilt cast all their sins into the depths of
the sea.
Micah 7:19
I burnt the prayer
in my fireplace.My grudges, anger, and resentment went up in smoke.
If only it was
that easy.The Devil likes conflict.He
likes hatred.He will turn up the heat in terms of causing more dissention.But you know what we often forget (I do)? God is on our side.Just because we can’t see Him standing in front of us, fighting in our defense doesn’t mean
He isn’t.We’re more inclined to take it on for ourselves first and
then come running to Him when we know we can’t fight anymore.
I will never
leave thee, nor forsake thee.
Hebrews 13:5
He will never leave
us.We leave Him, even if it’s temporary.No matter how many times we turn away, then come running back in desperation, He will never leave us.
I grew restless
being stuck around my apartment and decided it was a good time for some exercise.A
good run always manages to beat the bad feelings out of me.This time I had no
interest in listening to any of the secular music on my mp3 player.I skipped
by them until I found some praise and worship.Interestingly enough, when I’m
doing my own thing and not paying a whole lot of attention to God it is the opposite.I plug the player in and skip to the secularstuff.That
is a good indication that I’m slipping.
Today I truly felt
alone.Friends are on holidays, the phone isn’t ringing, no one is emailing.While I wondered how I would make it through the day I knew that with God’s
help, I would.Sometimes I wonder if some days God makes every person in my life
unavailable so that I will focus my attention on Him, and so I will be reminded just how much I need Him?
It shouldn’t
have to be that way.He should be first on my list.And gradually I’m learning that and making Him first, because I don’t want to feel like this
ever again.Yet if this is what it takes to make me a better and stronger Christian
than so be it.
It’s been
a day of emotional upheaval.It is hard letting go of hurt and resentment yet
at the same time completely necessary to live a full life.As R.T. Kendall says
in Total Forgiveness
Bitterness will manifest itself in many ways – losing your temper, high blood
pressure, irritability, sleeplessness, obsession with getting even, depression, isolation, a constant negative perspective
and generally feeling unwell.
See to it that
no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.
Hebrews
12:15
It was a gloomy
day – early August and it’s windy, cool, and cloudy.Yet when you’re
feeling close to God and living right, it doesn’t matter the weather or personal situation.No circumstances, no matter how positive and beneficial, can over shadow peace with God.
As a final note,
even though we are to put God before friends, boyfriends, husbands, etc., He gives us people to encourage and build us up.While we should never depend on a person for our happiness, a friend should add
to it – be there to confide in and talk with.It’s amazing how
much better you feel when you share another’s burdens, and know that what you’re going through isn’t foreign
to others.
And
the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Phillipians 4:7.
Is the World Really
Better This Way?
If
you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out
of the world. That is why the world hates you.
John 15:19
In June 2005, the 6th Circuit Court of Appeals in Cincinnati ordered Richland County Common Pleas Court
Judge James DeWeese to remove the Ten Commandments from his courtroom.
Since that 1962 case of Engel v. Vitale, the Supreme Court has issued a series of rulings that may result
in the elimination of organized observances of any religion from America's public schools. The latest and perhaps most telling
decision came on June 19, 2000 when the Court ruled 6-3 that pre-kickoff prayers at high school
football games violate the First Amendment's Establishment Clause, typically known as requiring the "separation of church
and state.". The decision is also expected to bring an end to the delivery of invocations at graduations and other ceremonies.
(Santa Fe Independent School District v. Doe)
Christianity has faced more opposition than perhaps any other faith or religion and will continue to.
We can take comfort in Jesus's words:
I have told you these things, so
that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.
John 16:33
Living as a
Christian and striving to be more like Christ is a challenge and even a frustration to even the strongest Christian.
We're constantly under fire, both by the world and the supernatural. As people stray from God and assert themselves
in their own beliefs, disobeying his laws and doing their own thing, I don't see a whole lot more happiness. In fact,
there is more abuse, murder, divorce, drugs, alcoholism, premarital and extramarital sex, unwanted pregnancies, abortion,
homosexuality, bisexuality and beastiality than ever before. And it's going to get worse.
How much different
would things be if the simple, common sense of the ten commandments were obeyed?
Open your eyes
and stop rationalizing that you don't have to obey an "old book written by men" (which in fact it was written by men
who God spoke to). I encourage you to read through this article and open your mind and heart.
The
Ten Commandments (Exodus 20:2-17 NKJV)
“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out
of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. You shall have no other gods before Me.
“You shall not make for yourself a carved image,
or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth;
you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers
on the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love
Me and keep My Commandments.
What is your god? What are you trying to fill that void in your life with? TV? Movies? Pornography? Alcohol? Drugs? Do
you indulge until you're sick of your addiction and sick of yourself?
Sex? Do you jump into bed with whoever seems interest in hopes of feeling wanted and needed? Do you get pregnant anticipating
that you will have someone who loves you, only to find it's not that easy to raise a child so you give him/her up to the system
and try again with the next baby?
Overeating? Overspending? Is the temporary satisfaction worth the emptiness you feel after?
“You shall not take the name of the Lord your
God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain.
“Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy.
“Honor your father and your mother, that your
days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God is giving you.
The children now love luxury; they have bad manners, contempt for authority; they show disrespect for elders and love chatter
in place of exercise. Children are now tyrants, not the servants of their households. They no longer rise when elders enter
the room. They contradict their parents, chatter before company, gobble up dainties at the table, cross their legs, and tyrannize
their teachers.
This quote could easily apply to modern day but was actually written by the great philosopher Socrates (469–399 B.C.)
If thousands of years ago kids were disrespectful and rebellious, how much worse are they now with all their rights?
Parents face legal charges if they dare spank their kids, an act of discipline that was more humiluating than painful,
and more effective than grounding. Parents march into principal's offices if an educator dares "mistreat" their children.
Kids are glued to the television and video games that promote cockiness, selfishness, and even violence. They carry
cell phones and expensive electronic devices that take priority over family time. Parents are trained to laugh it off
as "kids will be kids" but again I ask the question, "Is it getting any better?" Fifty years ago kids respected their parents
and dared not cross them. 50 years ago major offences in the schools included chewing gum and not completing homework.
Now they set up metal detectors to prevent children from bringing weapons into the school and killing each other!
Children learn easily how to manipulate and play the game. They accuse adults of abuse, and after ruining their lives
they casually admit they were lying with no retribution. They pit one parent against another especially in divorce cases,
to ensure they get the best deal.
They aren't "legally responsible" for what they do until they reach the age of 12, and for some it's as old as 18! The
worst part is that a lot of kids with this attitude have parents who couldn't care less about what they do. If we dared
throw a stick at a car or disrespect ANYONE, young or old when we were children, we could look forward to spanking, grounding,
or both.
What a joke.
“You shall not murder.
Many of us would never think twice about commiting such an act, yet we condone abortion and euthanasia. It was a
well known case that in 1993 Robert Latimer killed his daughter suffering with cerebral palsy. Defense aruged it was
a mercy killing. But where do we draw the line? How can WE decide whether someone is better off dead than alive, and
put them down like an animal?
Because abortion is legal, it means that a woman can conceive and do whatever she feels like to her body. She can
drink, smoke and do drugs. She can cause a fetus than many infertile couples would do anything to adopt to be delivered
with handicaps, anything from learning disabilities, FAS, to deformities. Yet the minute that child is out of the womb
it suddenly becomes a person. And then as any person with common sense, and any bleeding hearted liberal would hate
to admit, eventually the child goes almost directly into the system, supported by tax payers while the "lady" is allowed to
pump out as many more children as she likes.
Any normal, loving caring mother-to-be doesn't go near a cat's litter box, quits smoking or at least doesn't smoke during
the pregnancy and around the baby, and refrains from medication and alcohol even if it causes her pain and discomfort.
How can a doctor perform open heart surgery on a fetus yet another can abort, kill, destroy another child? Is a child's life really determined by whether or not the mother decides
to deliver him/her?
If a baby can be delivered, survive and be healthy 128 days after gestation (about 5 months premature) than how come this child can still be considered a "blob of tissue" and not a baby?
Many have argued that if a woman finds out her baby has Down's Syndrome, cerebral palsy, or other complications she is
justified in aborting that pregnancy. But this is a baby we're talking about, not an "inconvenience"!
One of my clients had the option of being tested early in her pregnancy to determine whether her baby had Down's Syndrome.
The doctor did explain that there was no guaranty the test was accurate, so if she did choose to abort she may be aborting
a healthy baby. She turned down the test, and said she would rather not know either way.
So where do we draw the line? A child with cancer is an inconvenience. A teenager who drinks, drives,
crashes his car and ends up a quadraplegic is an inconvenience. Still their parents fight for them, and give up everything
to give them the best quality of life possible. They don't have them euthanized because they are simply too much trouble.
And worse, babies that do survive the abortion process are left to die. So even if they make it out alive, they are
still not "human" if the mother makes the decision that they aren't. Rarely do we hear the aborted child's side of the
story, but it does happen seldomly.
Read Gianna Jesson's story. And yes, this baby did end up with cerebral palsy but is now running marathons. The doctors said she wasn't
supposed to be able to lift her head after birth.
Or Sarah Smith's story...she survived an abortion and was faced with many physical handicaps but grew to be a beautiful young woman.
If you search the internet for "aborted and survived" you will find countless other stories. Does a child's right
to live really depend on whether the mother wants the baby or not?
We live in a disposable world where we believe we should be immune to difficulties and trials. Suffering is for "third
world countries". Spouses who vow "for better or for worse" throw their partner who is struggling with MS into
a care home, divorce them, remarry and get on with their lives. Or go off and find a girl/boyfriend to meet their sexual
needs when their partner is physically unable to meet them anymore.
How long will it be before we resort to Hilter's tactics, euthanizing the sick, the unhealthy? How can people fight so
strongly against capital punishment, for unremorseful convicted criminals of heinous crimes - and I mean without a doubt,
with a confession and real evidence, not circumstatial - years to appeal, living off tax payer's money (not just a inconvenience
but a danger to society) and yet people don't think twice about aborting a baby?
“You shall not commit adultery.
Nowdays, we observe our neighbor or coworker as the scum of the earth if they run around on their spouse yet devour the
tabloids where Brad Pitt walked away from his wife and impregnated Angelina Jolie. We have reasons and justifications
why others and maybe we, ourselves do it. Accusing fingers point to the spouse who didn't fullfill needs and wants.
But you know what? It still doesn't make it right.
How many less broken homes, angry and confused children would their be if spouses didn't look for greener grass? If they
put the same energy into counseling/working things out with their spouse as they did meeting someone, hiding, sneaking around
and carrying on an affair for any given amount of time would things not be better? So many want their cake and eat it too.
Cosmopolitan magazine subscribers brag about their conquests and how they pulled the wool over their man's eyes. How
admirable. What a thing to be proud of.
Moses granted a certificate of divorce to couples who couldn't work it out. If you don't have the energy to make
it work with the person you once pledged "for better or for worse" with, than save him/her the greif of you running around
with someone, contracting a disease and basically making yourself out to be a dispicable person and ask for a divorce.
“You shall not steal.
Few of us don a mask and guns and walk into a bank to make off with thousands of dollars. But MANY of us steal.
It can be anything from not alerting the cashier that she overchanged us, to cheating on our taxes. We do it.
It's wrong, and it's especially disgusting for Christians who seem to justify that it's okay - after all, the government cheats
us!!
Stealing is stealing - taking something that is not ours. There isn't a lot of grey area here.
“You shall not bear false witness against your
neighbor.
Gossip. "I heard that she did...", "I heard that he said", "I heard that he/she is..."
Damaging, hurtful and uncalled for. Only when you hear about someone gossiping about you do you realize how horrible
it is. Then you have to look back and ask youself if you've ever done the same? If so, you don't have the right
to protest.
“You shall not covet your neighbor's house;
you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything
that is your neighbor's.“
Envy. If you're not happy with what you have you won't be happy with anything else, either. Much of this world
is built on greed and getting more, more, more. People who buy stocks rejoice when they skyrocket yet cry foul when
they crash. People blow money on lottery tickets, bingo and gambling only to find more often than not they lose.
When ANYTHING becomes our God, and it's not the Allmighty, One, we will not be happy. When we fill our lives
with anything that isn't the pure, Holy God, we will not find fullfillment. Ask yourself if things really are better
now? Is the world really getting better? We once hand standards and a clear view of what was considered normal. Now
men dress like women, open marriages, threesomes, group sex, sado-masochism, child pornography and even canibalism have corrupted what God created as a perfect gift - sexual fullfillment between a man and woman, brought together
by God and intended to stay together.
If by chance you are involved with one or more of the above, and feel no remorse, in fact, you enjoy your lifestyle, you
will probably never feel the need to seek Christ. God help you.
Are things really better? Is it better to dress in black with white face paint, writing poems about suicide than going
to a church and praying for comfort? Is it better to keep living your life with a well-to-do husband who screws around on
you, and stay because of the kids and bottomless bank account, rather than get down on your knees and reach out for the one
who died for your (and everyone's) sins? Do you want to keep giving your body away to men or women in hopes of finding happiness
or do you want to turn to God for peace?
Look at the facts. Look at the world. Is it really better this way? No? Than what are you going to do about
it?
Renewing
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their
strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31
When I first started working as a massage therapist I was under the impression that breaks only occured when a client
cancelled or no one was booked in. I tried to cram in as many people as I could in a day. I learned very quickly
that skipping meals and not resting caused me to feel worn out and weary. At the end of the work week I would come home,
sit on my couch and stare into space for what seemed like hours.
This was a switch from spending years as a paralegal, where the 10 and 3 o'clock coffee breaks were a must, and we needed
at least an hour for lunch. Instead of the mentally draining work of typing, paperwork and dealing with clients, my
work was now physically draining. I started to dread work until I realized I had to take care of myself too. There
will always be more and more clients to see, more money to be made, but we need to rest and recharge too.
After my first year when I had built up my clientele I decided that it was not only all right to start booking time off
to relax but it was needed to keep me going. How much easier it is to get through an hour or two when you know there
is a coffee or lunch waiting for you after. Not only that, but I started taking a long weekend off each month, giving
me something extra to look forward to.
We can easily become burned out with our jobs and even work at the church, making us too tired to spend time with God
and renew our spirit. What good is it if we organize fund raisers, run a kids club every week, are in charge of the
church potluck, etc. if it makes us too busy to actually spend time with God?
Many husbands become so caught up in making a good living to provide every need and want for their families that they
forget what means most to wives and children, and that is just him being there and spending time with them. A few years
ago we visited the Smithsonian in Washington D.C. and as we were leaving one of the museums I noticed a man in an expensive
polo shirt and pants crouched over his palm pilot, working away. An impatient wife stood by with two confused looking
children. I heard her say to them, "He does this every time." The husband, oblivious or ignoring her continued
to tap away at his device.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened,
and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28
God wants us to serve him, but a large part of serving him includes spending time with him. How else can we find
out what he wants from us if we don't ask and just do our own thing? When you start a new job do you just assume you know
what your boss wants and go to work without checking in with him? So many Christians wonder why their attempts to serve the
Lord are met with failure. They haven't questioned their motives or really prayed about what they should be doing.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I
am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Matthew 11:29-30
Sometimes it isn't just the outer things that weigh us down, but the inner things: depression, anxiety, demonic oppression,
heaviness, painful memories, anger, bitterness, pain. The more consumed we become with how we feel the more it will
become a part of us. We lament to God about how he is not helping us, delivering us, but sometimes (like the thorn in
Paul's side) he uses it to make us into the Christians he wants us to be. If we can get past ourselves and our feelings
we can see what God wants.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything,
by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Phillipians 4:6
When we're feeling terrible and wrapped up in ourselves we forget that in everything (even depression, anger,
frustration, heaviness) we are to supposed to pray. And not just about the things we are burdened with, but with the
things we have to be thankful for. It is amazing how your frame of mind can change when you know that the things you
deal with inside (as difficult as they are) are not something you are dying of, such as cancer, you're not throwing up every
day after being treated with chemo, that despite how you feel you still have a home, clothing, food, and probably money to
do whatever you want with...
Every time I go to Wendy's I see a very physically disabled man working - he cleans tables and sweeps floors. He
usually has a smile on his severely deformed face, but he laughs and jokes with staff. He will probably never have a
girlfriend, get married, have children. Depending on his disabililty he may not make it many years at all. Many
times I've wondered why God chose for this man to be like this, and how with all the blessings God has given me I still expect
more and complain about what I don't have?
If we are feeling that bogged down inside and unhappy despite all we have then its time to figure out why. And
if outside circumstances aren't cutting it for us then its a good clue that it's time to go to the source, God, and find out
why we are rotting inside. Instead of cramming time in with him around our schedules how about make time for him, above
everything else. Get up earlier when our minds are fresh. Charles Spurgeon (who also, by the way suffered with
severe oppression but still led the most sucessful church of his time) once said that starting your day without first spending
time with God is like going into battle without armor (my paraphrasing). Is it any wonder why we end up so turned up
side down by the end of the day?
If you don't feel like reading your bible or praying, that is probably the best indicator you should do it. If
TV, internet or anything else is more appealing at the time, take your bible and get away. Go to a quiet coffee shop,
for a walk, anywhere but somewhere that will distract you from him. Do it until time with Jesus IS your first priority,
and the things in the world pale in comparison.
I'm not trying to kid myself, or you. It is hard. It is hard to stay ahead in the daily battle. I have
not always come out ahead, in fact, most times I have lost. But what is important is we keep fighting, and keep looking
to our Master for what he wants us to do.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus, Look full in His wonderful face, And the things of earth will grow strangely
dim, In the light of His glory and grace.
Helen H. Lemmel, 1922
Something Else
Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at
hand. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be
made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ
Jesus.
Philipians 4:5-7
No one I know needs to put the following instructions into practice
more than I do. I know them, have known them as long as I can remember, and I write them. I have felt
and am feeling the consequenses of not putting it into action. Still I don't do it!
This morning I concluded I was not happy. Although life is going well, I have everything I need and even some things
I just want, there is still something missing.
Five years ago I rededicated my life to God after living almost 20 years as a professing Christian but with no real relationship
with Jesus. I can't remember a time where I felt more peace as when I was pouring over my bible with a newfound enthusiasm
for Christ. I cleaned out all the secular movies out of my house and got rid of all my CDs. I listened to strictly
Christian music, and read Christian books.
But like many, I realized that if you don't keep up with it, it doesn't last. Sometimes it takes something as little
as compromising and watching one bad show, to start the decline.
Shannon Blair Pogue wrote the famous poem:
Watch your thoughts, they become words. Watch your words, they become actions. Watch your actions, they become
habits. Watch your habits, they become character. Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.
There are several bible verses that warn us about the same. Something as small and maybe even unintentional such
as a thought can become your destiny! And it doesn't take much. Ask any sex addict if he regrets ever picking
up that porn magazine. Or maybe it was an R rated movie that made him crave more. How about a married woman who
went for coffee with a male coworker under the presumption they were just friends? She never thought she would form a bond
with him and develop an affair, yet the fact she was uncomfortable about telling her husband about the coffee date and that
she could discuss her mariage problems with this man and not her husband were red flags.
These are extreme examples, and my point is that the more of the world you let in, the less room there is for God.
Trying to fill the emptiness in your life with what the world has to offer is like watering a plant with holes in the pot.
The water will sustain the plant temporarily, but the dirt will also dry up a lot faster without something to plug the holes.
Many Christians have experienced seperation from God whether it was due to sin, or simply not spending enough time with
him and allowing the relationship to go stale. Often, these two things go hand-in-hand. I knew something was missing
when I wasn't living right. I felt the peace and assurance when I turned back to God. Yet even with all I know
and feel I still let myself slip and eventually slide right back into the pit. Falling asleep instead of saying prayers,
reading a novel instead of the bible, staying home to watch TV instead of going to church...all things I am guilty of.
So why do I, you, anyone allow ourselves to get to this state? Shouldn't the emptiness be enough to deter us? Maybe.
Some people learn the first time. Others need to be knocked down over and over and over. Some will eventually
get it, and live it - for good. Others never will.
God gives us a keen sense of conviction, one that can be so fine tuned that all it takes is a bad thought and we are
asking forgiveness. Like building up an alcohol tolerance, we can also build up a tolerance to conviction. So
something that would have ridden us with guilt a few years before, now doesn't seem "so bad".
We let it happen over and over again in the same way we keep eating junk food when we know we'll gain weight or get sick.
We keep drinking when we know it's becoming a problem. We don't exercise even though it's good for our health.
Good habits seem to be a lot harder develop than bad habits. That is in our nature.
However, if you can develop a good habit, the more you stick with it and maintain it, the harder it will be to break.
If you skip your exercise routine for a couple days or eat fast food, you will feel it. Your body won't feel good, and
you'll be back on track again to avoid that bad feeling.
I'm at the point where, when, I want to pray and nothing comes out. It is a chore. Not good. Is it
hopeless? Never!
When I started running I could not go for very long without having to stop and take breaks. Its important to start
off small and build up. People who make long lists of resolutions give them up because it's too much all at once.
You do a little at a time, and keep moving, gradually gaining ground. Write things down, keep records. I used
to keep an ongoing prayer list that I would look off of when I prayed for others so I wouldn't forget. This way I also
kept track of prayers God was answering. It is so easy to forget about all he does for us and for me this was an encouraging
reminder.
A large percentage of life is things we don't like doing. Unless you are one of the lucky ones who thoroughly enjoys
your job, most of us dread going to work and look forward to the weekend. Then the weekend comes and goes, and all the
stuff we wanted to get done sits untouched. Pay day comes and no sooner is the check in the bank, it's spoken for by
bills and payments. Even people blessed with a spouse and children bemoan the monotony of life. So what
can be done?
No material item will make you happy for long. Your spouse will disappoint you. Your kids will disobey you.
Your car will break down, you might lose your job. You may be unable to work for months or longer because of an injury
or sickness. You could lose your pet, your parent, your child!
Peace with God and security in him can make you unshakeable. If Horatio Spafford could write "It is well with my
soul" after losing all his children, I, you anyone can attain the same peace...and although Oprah thinks differently, it can
ONLY be obtained through Christ. Her fans are looking for "something else" and appeared to have found it in the book
she's promoting, Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth. They are so quick to accept and apply to their lives a book that
only a few years ago was unheard of. It's now predicted it will be the best selling book of all time. Why do they
welcome this book with open arms and reject the bible, a book that has been around thousands of years? Why are they always
looking for something else?
Today, you, me anyone, can start fresh. We can stop being lazy and go after what we really need in our lives.
We can pray now. We can read a verse, a passage, a book in our bible. We can give thanks to God for everything
he's given us and stop whining about what we don't have.
We can try "something else" because what we've been doing until now hasn't been working all that well!
Thanking God for what He Didn't Give You
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name
of the Lord be praised. Job 1:21
If there was anyone in history who had the right to complain and
say, "Why, God?" It was Job. He had lost all his children, his servants, his livestock and his health. Only his
wife and friends remained and insisted that he must have done something to deserve this. But he hadn't.
He was a righteous man, so righteous that God used him to demonstrate to Satan that no matter what he did to him, Job would
never turn his back on his God. So after all way said and done, Job admits that none of it was his anyway, and regardless,
God should be praised!
Loss. Rejection. Disappointment. We've all experienced some or all of this. Sometimes we find
out the reason, sometimes we don't. Sometimes there is no apparent reason for bad things to happen. So we have
a choice: either feel sorry for ourselves or accept it and move on.
I'm talking of course about things such as break-ups, losing jobs, etc. When tragedy strikes, such as the death
of a loved one, grieving and acceptance is a long, long process.
Looking back it is easy to see where the hand of God was working. We have such a limited view of things, whereas
God sees and knows everything. We cannot possibly know the reason why certain things happen, but we have to trust.
To illustrate how seemingly unfair and hurtful things happen, and how to accept, move on, mature, and trust God I will share
my personal experiences with this. I by no means consider myself hard done by and realize these troubles were very miniscule
in the bigger scheme of things. Hopefully it drives home the point, and also helps to remind me how God has worked in
my life and will continue.
I've discussed my past relationships that God's hand was not in. Probably the most devastating was the liar.
He was so good that even when I caught him in a lie he could convince me with his word games and sincere, sad eyes that there
had been a misunderstanding. Even when I found out he had a long term girlfriend while he was dating me, I was prepared
to forgive him. For whatever reason (possibly because he was never serious about me in the first place and this was
his out) he walked away on me. It was agonizing. Although I knew him a short time I thought he was ideal - he
was new in town and had sought out a bible study, where we met. He was attractive, had a good job, was kind and funny.
But he had a dark side that I couldn't, even when faced with many questions, see.
He came back into my life for two short interludes but would never give me more than just friends (thank God).
He strung me along until finally I saw the light and ended the friendship. I saw him for what he really was and what
he was doing to other girls, and out of anger stopped having anything to do with him.
It hurt the night I found out about the other girl. But how much more would it have hurt if I had been led on for
several years only to find out what kind of person he is? He managed to do this to a friend of mine who hung in 5
years in hope there would be something more. There never was.
I've had relationships where there was no obvious signs to how wrong they were. Thank God, he has always confined
me to a short amount of time to see these guys for who they are, usually a few weeks to a month, but no more.
However, in the case with my ex-fiancé, the warning signs were very clear and I chose to keep moving ahead. But
God never lifted the gnawing feeling inside. Some days were good, and I could ignore it, but I knew something was wrong.
He led me to believe he had become a Christian but he hadn't changed, and didn't like to talk about it. To him it was
like joining a club, and I was afraid of the truth. God used a pastor who singled us out to come for a coffee one night,
and he asked some very tough questions, finally bringing out an honest response in my ex that no one had been able to.
Many fights later he was able to fake it, and I asked few questions. But I knew. I knew it was wrong by how sick
I felt the morning after we got engaged. And that very morning he showed up at my apartment and provoked an argument
that essentially led to me getting angry enough to leave him for good!
Years later I was settled into what I thought was a good job. It wasn't bad pay, the hours were good and there
were benefits. My coworker and I had a personality clash - she is a perfectionist and I am laid back. She watched
my every move and hounded me over the stupidest things. She wasted valuable work time not only pointing out my mistake
but explaining in detail why I couldn't do it that way (something I had heard again and again - like the TPS reports
in Office Space). It was a small office and I had no training. My boss was always out so much of what I did was
from looking off of other files to see how they did it. I wasn't the perfect employee, but I did try. I balanced
typing letters and legal documents with answering phones, taking messages, running errands for clients, banking and deposits.
Whether it was my boss or coworker who initiated this, I don't know. But they put together a file three inches
thick with every letter containing typos, documents of things I had done wrong, going back to the very beginning of my employment
there. There had been zero communication, so you can imagine what a shock it was to have this dropped on my lap the
day before I left for holidays. My boss was going to put me on some sort of "probation" after I got back.
I spent the first few days of my holiday breaking down and unsure what to do. I was dreading going back to work.
After much thought, prayer and tears I decided to go back to school. When I returned to work a few weeks later, I told
my boss what I was going to do. I gave her a month notice, so I could train a new employee.
My boss and I left on good terms, and although my coworker sweetly told me "not to be a stranger and drop in sometime"
I held my head up high and walked out, relieved. I would never have gone back to school and bettered myself if it wasn't
for that incident. I was complacent in my work. Sometimes you need a kick to get moving...
At school I met a wonderful Christian girl and quickly became friends. For some reason I felt that slightly nauseated
feeling when I was around her, but I honestly thought it was because I was intimidated by how spiritual she was, and basically
felt inadequate. We hung out with two other girls and did stuff after class all the time. Somewhere during the
duration of our friendship I had offended her, and I'm still not sure what I did because she couldn't explain it. But
when I asked her about it, it escalated into her calling me manipulative, raising her voice, and getting so angry she shook!
My mouth dropped open because I couldn't believe what was happening. She couldn't even tell me what I had done.
But in her mind it had been significant, and I was bad news.
Because we had mutual friends this was very difficult. I went over it in my mind, trying to figure out what went
wrong but after talking to a few people I decided maybe there was a reason I felt ill around her. Maybe there was a
reason I was being forced out of this friendship, just like I was my job, and past relationships. Maybe there was something
I couldn't see.
It didn't take long before my friends saw it too. Her soft-spoken demeanor had turned into a hateful, confrontational
one. She cut down everyone behind their backs. She argued with teachers. Her large circle of friends dwindled
away to just one girl who had joined our class towards the end of the year, and she managed to mistreat her too!
Whether it was mental illness, I will never know for sure. But being a person who longs for love and acceptance,
and also a very open person too, I could have confided in her about all kinds of things and had it come back to bite me.
Instead of sitting alone in the class while all her friends laughed and joked with her, it was her baring a grudge against
every possible person, and me enjoying the rest of the school year. She never apologized, and never explained.
She even wrote a sweet message in my book that had me shaking my head. She had no idea how much damage was done, and
we comfortable to move on like nothing happened.
Those are the situations that while your pride is wounded, you are thanking God for getting that poisonous person out
of your life!
At first, it is hard to take. Pride is powerful and it takes a tremendous hit, leaving us wounded and weak.
We have to tell ourselves over and over until it's ingrained in our minds that there is a good reason why something or someone
is taken out of our lives, and not to question it. Who knows - sometimes it can be us who are unsafe, and God protects
the person we're having a relationship with from the grief of being with us? It is important not to always be pointing the
finger and acknowledging that we may not be as perfect as we think.
Writing is a great tool for learning. Memories can fade and it's easy to forget. When you write a list of
things God has done for you, even when you thought he was unfair at the time, you can go back and read it, and pound it in
your head so you don't doubt him anymore.
He will take care of you, you just have to believe him. He handles things behind the scene that you will never
know about. Let him guide you and acknowledge his blessings. And praise him for caring enough to protect you!
Erasing the Hard Drive
Therefore, having these promises, beloved, let
us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God. 2 Corinthians
7:1
I don't know a lot about computers, but
I have a working knowledge of them. It has always amazed me how similar the computer is to the human brain. It
can figure things out, store memories, etc. The computer is programmed by a technician, whereas our brains are programmed
by our upbringing, surroundings, experiences, and other people.
Computers and brains store a lot of junk
in them, stuff that eventually bogs it down and needs to be cleared out. Even when you delete a file on your computer and
clear the recycle bin, it can still remain somewhere in your hard drive. How many of us find the same thing -
bad memories we thought we had forgotten coming back to haunt us years later, and sins we've asked forgiveness for still hanging
over us?
When we store too much garbage inside
it will eventually render us ineffective, just like when a computer crashes. Dwelling on the past, holding grudges,
feeling guilt over sins we've asked God's forgiveness for will consume us. We need to wipe out our mental hard drive.
How do we do it? Unfortunately, it probably
won't happen over night. We need daily maintenance in order to get to the point where our memory is not full of sadness,
anger and guilt. We need to "defragment" - remove all the bad memories that have wedged themselves between the good
ones and replace the fragmented areas. We can't push things aside and not deal with them and not expect them to pop
up again in the future.
Depending on the type of pain you're experiencing,
you may need to seek help. Things like abuse are beyond understanding and most likely requires a professional to help
walk you through it.
If you struggle with willful and bondage
to sin you may want to have an accountability partner to help keep you on track. It is easy to keep falling into the
same pattern of behavior if there is no one to encourage you. On the same token, it's easier to develop good and positive
habits when there is someone with similar beliefs at your side, helping you along the way.
The devil's tool is secrecy - he uses
guilt and shame to keep us from talking to others because he knows that two or more Christians are much stronger than one,
especially if that one is weak. Sometimes he'll even use others we talk to, to discourage us and betray our trust, just
to deter us from talking to anyone about our problems again.
Lastly, do regular virus scans, and stay up to date on the things out there
that want to shut us down. If you struggle with lust, go through your mind and even your home and find things that might
be bonding you further. Is there an attractive coworker you think about in the wrong way? It's time to quarantine and
destroy those thoughts, replacing them with clean ones. Do you have easy access to porn on your computer? Do you
own the wrong kinds of books and magazines? Get rid of it, because while a little doesn't seem to hurt, look at how quickly
a tiny virus attacks a whole body!
Do you have patterns of behavior that always tend to lead you down the wrong
path? Do you go drinking with friends and end up doing things you regret? Do you keep going back to that ex boyfriend "just
to talk" and end of having sex with him? Knowing where it starts, the solution is simple - just don't do it. If you
know what will happen, and what has happened in the past, don't take that step!
I know these things because I have been there. I am there.
I write this as a reminder to myself to start living for God and not be bonded to my old ways.
God sent his only son, Jesus Christ, to die for the sins we could never
atone for. He did this so we could have access to him, the All Mighty God, through his son. Because evil (us)
and good (God) cannot exist side-by-side, Jesus acts as a mediator, a bridge, so that our sins can be forgiven, and have a
relationship with God.
But your iniquities have separated you from your
God; your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear. Isaiah 59:2
I don't want my sins to make God hide his face from me and
not hear. To me, there is nothing scarier than being separated from God. When people let us down, even hurt us,
and possessions just aren't enough to make us happy, he is all we have left, and all we need. He is (or should be) our
all in all.
Hard Knocks
And it came to pass, as he went to Jerusalem, that he passed
through the midst of Samaria and Galilee. And as he entered into a certain village, there met him ten men that were lepers,
which stood afar off: And they lifted up their voices, and said, Jesus, Master, have mercy on us.
And when he saw them, he said unto them, Go shew yourselves
unto the priests. And it came to pass, that, as they went, they were cleansed. And one of them, when he saw that he was healed,
turned back, and with a loud voice glorified God, And fell down on his face at his feet, giving him thanks: and he was a Samaritan.
And Jesus answering said, Were there not ten cleansed?
but where are the nine?
Have you ever went through a rough time in your life and wanted,
needed and craved God's mercy and peace? And when you finally received it do you act like the nine lepers, filled with confidence
and not giving a second thought to the One who rescued you? Or are you like the Samaritan who threw himself at Jesus'
feet?
I think most people are more like the nine than the one. We want to be independant and live our own lives, but
when something bad happens then we draw close to God. Some of us even blame him, as if to say that he should've
been there for us even though we weren't for him.
Misfortunes can be good reminders that we are not in control, and in almost every situation things could often have turned
out a lot worse than they did. A vehicle collision is inconvenient and troubling, but how much more if it caused serious
injury? As little kids we all had close calls where we could have been hurt badly, maybe even for life and pulled through.
Pride is the original sin, and few of us our above it. It hurts to get cut down a couple notches, but it's a whole
lot better than going through life arrogant, over confident, and straying from God. Many wealthy and sucessful people
have found that their possessions and accomplishments really mean nothing when they are struck with a terminal illness.
Bad things happen, and not just to the arrogant. Horatio Spafford lost his son in 1820, and only two years later
all four of his daughters. Instead of cursing God for taking away all his children so suddenly he was able to write
"It Is Well With My Soul".
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught
me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul.
It is well (it is well), with my soul (with my soul), It is
well, it is well with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come, Let this blest assurance control, That
Christ hath regarded my helpless estate, And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
Christ regards ALL of our helpless estates, and died for each and every one of us. Some of us have difficult lives,
some of us seem to coast right through. Some marry young, have children and grow old together, others enter their 30's
and 40's wondering if they will ever find anyone? Some lose children, some lose parents. Some lose their health.
It may seem like God doesn't care because he allows it to go on, but he has a plan and purpose for us and everything that
comes our way. If Horatio Spafford could trust God after the loss of his children and accept it, each and every one
of us are capable of making God our rock.
I looked up the word 'buffet' and found out it means a hard knock or blow, as in a fist. Some of us take
more knocks than others, but they are only that. Hard hits. But God's hand is always outstretched to lift us back
on our feet. We just have to take it.
I was told today that I worry too much, and that things have a way of working themselves out. He said I have to
learn to let troubles wash over me rather than hit me like a tidal wave. Very true.
What is your rock, and how firmly do you hang on before and after the storm?
After God’s
Own Heart
I’ve never read more
than a few chapters to a few pages of the Psalms at a time until today.This
morning I woke after a restless sleep filled with bizarre and disturbing dreams, with a feeling of darkness and heaviness
on me.Relieved I wasn’t scheduled to work until later, I curled up on
the couch with my bible.The Psalms seemed most appropriate today.
As I read through the chapters
I couldn’t believe how much David reminded me of myself.Sometimes he is
praising God.Other times he’s begging for God’s help.Often he’s doing both in the same chapter.Occasionally
he laments about injustice.But the thing I find most interesting about David
is that although he committed some terrible sins he was still considered to have “a perfect heart with the Lord his
God” (1 Kings 11:4 KJV).David made some big mistakes, but was sincere
in asking forgiveness and growing in a relationship with God.
David still had to
live with the consequences of his sins.The baby that was born as a result of
his adulterous affair with Bathsheba died (2 Samuel 12:18).He would also have
to live with the guilt of causing an innocent man’s death.
God does not set the rules
to hurt us; rather, he puts them there to protect us.He knows the consequences
of sin, the biggest being separation from him and warns us.If we disobey him
and genuinely ask forgiveness (meaning we are really sorry and will not continue to do what we did) he will forgive our sins
and allow us to start fresh, meaning he will not use our sins against us.
God’s forgiveness
is not a free ticket to sin.Some professing Christians claim they can do what
they want because God will always forgive them.A true Christian will not willingly
disobey God to get what he or she wants.A true Christian may screw up but they
are actually sorry and disgusted by what they did, and do not want to do it again.
There are also genuine
Christians that are in bondage to sin like pornography, sexual addiction, homosexuality…they ignored the early warning
signs and dug themselves in a little bit at a time, until they were so deep they could not climb out.They will need prayer and support from others because they can no longer handle it on their own.
Help,
LORD, for the godly man ceases!
For
the faithful disappear from among the sons of men.Psalms 12:1
I feel like this
more and more when I see friends who were once strong Christians turn away from their faith and live a sinful lifestyle.And I see it every day; people turning their backs on God to do their own thing.
The fool has said in his heart, “There is no God.”
They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none who does good.
The LORD looks down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there are any who understand, who seek God.They have all turned aside, they have together become corrupt; there is
none who does good, No, not one.Psalm 14:1-3
Few of us sincerely seek
God with our whole hearts.We get up in the morning and rush off to work without
preparing ourselves for the day with prayer and reading God’s word.We
stay busy all day and come home exhausted at night, sitting in front of the TV to “unwind” but really we’re
packing more junk into our heads.At bedtime we’re too tired to read the
bible and maybe attempt to pray but fall asleep partway through.Morning comes
and we start the whole cycle over.We may have a good day and get some reading
in prayer in, but if it’s not consistent it is no different than going on a diet one day and eating junk food the rest.
It isn’t until we
wake up feeling the way I did today, craving nothing but God’s word to bring comfort, that we have no choice but to
put everything else aside and reconnect with God.
We were never expected
to be perfect, but we are expected to do our best.We start to slip when we allow
little bits of the world into us.Instead of saying, “It’s not right”
we say, “its not that bad”.Do you notice your attitude and
maybe even language changing around certain people? Do you act differently? Would people you talk to at church be surprised
if they were to watch you interact at work? I’m sure at this point they would for me.
Sometimes the subtlest
things reflect our faith: being positive, honest, refraining from gossip, swearing and telling off color jokes, being cooperative
instead of argumentative.
LORD, who may abide in Your tabernacle? Who
may dwell in Your holy hill? He who walks uprightly, And
works righteousness, And speaks the truth in his heart; He
who does not backbite with his tongue, Nor does evil to his
neighbor, Nor does he take up a reproach against his friend; In
whose eyes a vile person is despised, But he honors those who fear
the LORD; He who swears to his own hurt and does not change; He
who does not put out his money at usury, Nor does he take
a bribe against the innocent.
He
who does these things shall never be moved.
Psalm 15
I want to walk upright
and work righteous.I want to see the red flags and steer away as soon as they
pop up.I want to be solid.I want
to never be moved.We may still have those times of darkness we cannot explain,
but the stronger we build our foundation on God, the harder it will be to break it!
Clean
I hear the Savior say, “Thy strength indeed is small; Child of weakness, watch and pray, Find
in me thine all in all.”
Jesus paid it all, all to Him I owe; Sin had left a crimson stain, He washed it white as
snow.
Jesus Paid It All - Alvina M. Hall, 1865
Nothing feels better than the feeling of being clean.After a long day of working outside we crave to come in, hit the shower, and scrub every last bit of dirt and grime
from our bodies.A messy home with stacks of dirty dishes and laundry makes us
feel drab and unmotivated while walking into a sparkling home with the smell of cleaners still in the air makes us feel exhilarated.
I write to you at a time where I feel like my inner domain is covered in filth, with garbage piling
up around my heart and soul.For the past few months I’ve felt possibly
more depressed than I’ve ever been, having my best friend and love of my life walk away.They say that time heals all wounds, which is true to some point.But
still a certain object or place will trigger a memory that is almost crippling to think about.
I tell you this not to gain sympathy, as I know others experience much harder losses such as death
of a loved one, critical illness, etc.I tell you this simply to tell somebody.If you asked my family or friends they would probably tell you that I’m
doing better than I ever have before, and this is what I have led them to believe.When
I’m around people I can put on a tremendous show – I can laugh hard, have fun and appear that I am enjoying my
life.But once I return to my empty apartment the feelings return.
I’ve felt sad, angry, resentful, bitter, and sometimes just numb.I walk around like a robot until I can no longer take the bottled up feelings and break down and cry.I’ve wished that I could reach deep inside of me and tear the hurt out.I’ve feared that it’s been so long that it’s actually taking root
and will be there for a long time, maybe even forever.I’ve wanted to hide
from everyone.I’ve wanted to go to sleep and never wake up.I’ve made bad choices to numb the pain.
And every day, whether I want to or not, I wake up, get up and get through the day.At times the only thing that has brought me comfort and kept me going is the knowledge that God loves me,
he chose me, and he wants what’s best for me.So no matter what happens,
if I keep my eyes on him everything will be okay.I may not be overflowing with
happiness and strong enough to take whatever life throws at me, but I will have him.
How much more, then, will
the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself unblemished to God, cleanse our consciences from acts
that lead to death,so that we may serve the living God!
Hebrews 9:14
Living a clean, pure life does not happen automatically.Like developing a good habit, it takes constant effort.It’s easier
to eat take-out and junk food than to plan and eat healthy meals, but if you don’t you will essentially become filled
with garbage.And that’s how our spiritual lives work as well.If we fill our lives with junk, eventually it will affect how we think, feel and even act.You will find, however, the longer you live right and harder you try to obey God, the more strength you
will gain.Maybe you’re like me and feel you’re stuck in a rut, and
anytime you make the slightest progress in climbing out you fall back in.If
you can overcome whatever it is causing you to fall, you will climb out of your rut and be back on the road to wholeness.
No matter what has happened and what you have done, it is not too late.Like the father of the prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32) he is waiting for you to come home.
Blessed
are they whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered.
Romans
4:7
Cast
all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you.
1
Peter 5:7
While sorrow,
sadness and loss is a part of life, it is not the part of life.Many Christians
act believe they have to be in a constant state of soberness, mourning for their spiritual shortcomings but that isn’t
so.While sin is no joke and we’re not to take it lightly, we’re
not to let it drag us down, either.God wants us to be effective for him, not
dwelling on sin in our lives that we have already asked forgiveness for, or allowing unconfessed sin to drag us deeper into
a pit.
If
we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9
He will make
us clean again.We just have to be willing to ask him, and be faithful to change
and live life to it’s fullest for him.
Old
Habits Die Hardest
We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin; the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the
evil one cannot harm him.
1 John 5:18
Many people
have a list of things they would like to do, minor or major improvements including anything from renovating a room in the
house to starting an exercise program.Still, many of us find a hard time accomplishing
what we set out to do because of a lack of motivation.It feels a lot better
to come home after work and sit on the couch tired than to start physical work.
In the same
way, our spiritual lives are always in need of remodeling, but we find ourselves falling back on the same old habits that
keep us in that rut.
Yesterday,
a client told me that she is at the point that if she doesn’t exercise, she will feel bad for a couple of days! She
needs the exercise to keep her feeling good and normal, and if she doesn’t do it she will fall back to a place she doesn’t
want to be.That is a good place to be in, especially spiritually.While there are no immediate consequences for going days without prayer or reading the bible, our spirits
start to deteriorate slowly.
So why is
it so hard to do something that will make us feel so good? No immediate result is one thing.I have given up on so many health regimes because it’s just too much work and takes too long.It’s easier to give up and start planning for the next idea, one that will hopefully be more effective.You will find a lot of people saying, “I have to get back into this, and I have
to get back into that”.By saying it, it somehow validates it in their
minds that they are actually doing something.
I think we
also set our goals too high so that when we cannot accomplish them right away we get frustrated and give up. We need to start off slow, and be consistent with everything we do – exercise, devotions, and hobbies.Unless something is our passion, it will be difficult to do.
Christ can
become a passion if we really want him to be.The folks that are driven to praise
God and when they talk about him, it pours out of their hearts didn’t get there overnight.Christians have a natural hatred for sin and crave what is good and right, even if they are not living
the way they’re supposed to be.Some new Christians report that before
they found Christ they knew something was wrong with how they were living.Their
friends seemed to enjoy life but they always felt something was missing.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
2 Corinthians 5:17
No matter
where you are at right now, if Christ has called you and you have him in your life, you have a fresh start! No matter what
you’ve done, you can choose to start living right.1 John 5:18 is a little
confusing in that anyone born of God does not continue to sin.You may
say, “I am a Christian yet I sin all the time!”The difference is
you are now aware of it, you confess it, and hopefully try to not repeat the same sin over again.
If you call
yourself a Christian yet live a sinful lifestyle, with no guilt or simply just keep confessing your sins to God as a free
ticket to sin, then you should truly consider where you stand.A true Christian
cannot disobey God and mock Christ by professing him, then rejecting his instructions.
Now here is
where the lines get blurred a bit – private sin.This is when a person
is basically trapped in a sinful lifestyle whether an illicit sexual relationship, pornography addiction, etc. and because
no one else knows about it they have no one to be accountable to.In fact, shame
keeps them from telling anyone and so they continue to live alone with their guilt. Few choose to get addicted to things that
wound our spirit, things that carry with them all kinds of consequences.We feel
we cannot stop, because it’s such an addicting habit.The Enemy is right
along with us, making sure we keep digging ourselves deeper using shame against us.“How could a good Christian do these things?” “You can’t tell anyone, they would judge you.”He loves to convince us that we are good for nothing so he can continue to tear us
down.
Like cockroaches
scattering when they are exposed to light, once your sin is out in the open whether with a trusted friend, family or pastor
much of the grip is loosened.You can start to get help and freedom from the
addictive behavior.And as much as I would like to say getting it off your chest
breaks the cycle for good and you’re free, the devil does not let go that easily.He uses our weaknesses against us, and will know precisely when you are most vulnerable.It’s usually in the quietness of our homes, when there is no one around to talk to that he strikes
again.We feel strong throughout the day but once we’re alone again we
are susceptible.And because we have already committed a certain sin it makes
it that much easier to do again.If there is no one around, and you feel the
tiniest bit tempted turn to God in prayer, don’t turn away.
Have you ever
felt a headache coming on but didn’t bother to take anything for it, because you thought you could handle it? Gradually
it turns into a booming headache, incapacitating you for the day and making you beyond the help of any pill.That is what will happen if you let temptation go untreated.“I
can handle it” are very famous last words.
In case you’re
wondering how I know these things is because I have been there and experienced it.Many
times I have written something like this, gone away feeling strong, and returned to my quiet house at night to be filled with
all kinds of temptations.I am half expecting it to happen tonight because it
has happened so many times before.What can I do? I can prepare myself now that
I know what to expect!
Why do we
sin? It’s easy, and it provides quick pleasure, something we don’t have to wait and work for.The catch is that it is temporary, and the guilt far outlasts whatever it is we did or are doing.That may be why people bury themselves in sin – once they quench the Holy Spirit
(meaning your conscience is numb, no longer bothered) they can go on doing whatever they want.And do not be deceived, if you keep turning your back on God and closing your eyes to what you know is right, there
may come a time where he doesn’t bother trying to bring you back.
There is one
more thing to keep in mind when starting (or starting fresh) in your Christian journey:
So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall! No temptation has seized you except
what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,
he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
1 Corinthians 10: 12-13
How many times
have you felt you’re at your strongest then fallen so hard? You’re left shaking your head wondering, what happened?
Just as I said with writing about Christ and then facing overwhelming temptation after, it seems like when we think we are
close to God that this is an opportune time for the devil to mess it up, and make fools of us.If we are not on our guard we will get side swiped.The second part of
that verse reminds us that God is faithful.He will not force us not to
give in to temptation, he will simply provide the way out and we have to take it.It
we keep focusing on what we want rather than what’s right, we most likely will fail.
I strongly
recommend the book, When Godly People Do Ungodly Things by Beth Moore.It provides detailed explanations as to how Christian people can
fall, and become engulfed in sin.It also talks about how to get out, and how
to make sure it doesn’t happen again.
God bless
you in your journey.I assure you that you are not alone!
Help
In the past couple weeks I have
been shown that everything I have written about on this site – experiences, lessons learned, advice, etc. hasn’t
been much more than just words and emotion.I’ve written assuredly about
how strong I thought that I had become over the past years and now realize how little there was to back it up.I didn’t realize how weak and helpless I was until I was really put to the test by being asked to
give up one of the most important things in my life.
Following that was a chain of
events that left me feeling violated, angry and bitter.I’ve always prided
myself on being a fairly positive person but after the last few weeks I’m wondering, what next?
It is so easy to say you trust
God, you want his will, and whatever happens will be for the best.But when you
find out what you want isn’t necessarily what he wants it forces you to choose between becoming completely dependant
on him or going your own way.
For weeks, each morning I have
woke up, anxious and dreading facing the day.Will I break down in front of people?
How will I make it through the day if I feel this terrible now? And I look forward to when I can come home from work and not
have to fake happiness or normalness anymore.I walk into an empty house, no
messages on the machine, no emails, and no calls other than the telltale 1-800 number of a telemarketer showing up on the
caller ID.
It’s as if God is saying,
“NOW that I have your attention and there are no other distractions, come to ME”.I’ve bounced between running to him; running away and then coming right back.I’ve been a crying mess and could do nothing but beg him to please help me, to do something because there was
absolutely nothing I could do.
Psalm 121 came to mind this
morning.I wrote it down on a little piece of paper and carried it with me throughout
the day.
I lift my eyes up to the hills – where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord,
maker of heaven and earth.Psalm 121:1-2
“Help” is a humbling
word because in order to need it, it means you are indeed helpless on your own.“Help” is the only thing I have been able to cry because I have nothing to offer to God, I cannot make
bargains or promises.All I can hope for is his mercy, and this verse confirms
that he that made the heavens and earth can and will help us.So that is all
I can hope for.
I can’t ask him to make
things turn out the way I want.All I can ask him for is strength to bring me
through this terrible time.I don’t claim to be innocent and undeserving
of the trials I face.I am not angry with God or pitying myself and crying “Poor
me”.I am responsible for the unwise choices that brought me to this point.That is the great thing about being a child of the All Mighty God.When we screw up he wants nothing more for us to come running back into his arms.
If you are hurting – maybe
you found out your husband is having an affair, you’re going through a break-up, a loved one is dying or has died, maybe
you have found out you have cancer or another life threatening illness…do not be angry at God and don’t run away.Separation from God causes significantly more grief than what you are feeling now.And if you really love him or loved him at one time it will catch up with you.
It may feel good after a failed
marriage to walk into a bar and have guys falling all over you, making you feel wanted again and easing the sting of rejection.But it is a mistake and has disastrous consequences.Your help does not come from drunken guys, dead-end relationships and parties. It
is a temporary means to an even more hurtful end, and I promise you the empty feeling in your gut from your behavior will
not go away – it will only get worse.
I was friends with a professing
Christian girl who, after a messy divorce started dating another guy and ended up pregnant with his son.Another, a pastor’s daughter went to the bar after she split up with her husband, met a guy, and
ended up pregnant as well.After the babies were born, the fathers were gone
and the girls were left raising a child on their own.
Nothing will interfere with
Christ’s love for you.Do not let anything come between you and your love
for him.
The Bondage Maker
Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word
planted in you, which can save you. James 1:21
Most of us have at least one
sin we struggle with and some have sufficiently more.It is not a sin to be tempted,
but it is to give into temptation.Usually we don’t plunge into temptation
with both feet.The Devil’s main objective is to draw us away from God
and essentially our salvation, so he takes advantage of this every chance he gets. When
you think about it, if you sought out to destroy one single person’s reputation, job, and relationships and spent days,
weeks, months and years trying to accomplish this, you could do a lot of damage.On
the other hand, if the person you had it in for was strong, honest, and full of integrity you would have a hard time bringing
them down and more than likely would be exposed.
In the same way, we cannot be
drawn away from Christ if we are strong, and we make a conscious effort to stay close to him.We may not see it coming right away, but once we start to waver and eventually doubt we open the door to the Devil
to gradually destroy us.
Behold,
the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear: But your iniquities
have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear. Isaiah 59:1-2
Do you ever feel so helpless in your sin that you expect God to just take
it away from you? The bad news is, he will not.As long as you continue to sin,
he will not heard your prayers.That includes all prayer, not just for freedom
from sin.Until you make a conscious effort to rid yourself of sin or a sinful
lifestyle he will not hear you.
I could make a list right now of sin in my life that is stunting my growth
in Christ, and drawing me closer and closer to the other side: anger, bitterness, lustful thoughts, disrespect, resentment,
self-righteousness, being judgmental, doubting, not trusting God, spending my time and money on mindless things rather than
to further his kingdom, and on and on.It is no wonder why my prayer feels like
it falls on deaf ears and goes unanswered.
Only when we’re ready to let go of the worldly stuff in our lives
can God really work in ours.It is our choice to keep trying to fill a void with
a hole in the bottom, or allow Christ to fill us completely.Take a look at your
life and how happy and content you are doing your own thing.If that makes you
feel more at peace than obeying Christ than that’s probably where you should be.But for those of us who know God and feel the emptiness and loneliness when we are apart from him, we know that whether
its sooner or later, there really isn’t anywhere else to go.
All Things
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:13
No sooner
did I write about peace and joy with serving God and having a right relationship with him (Loving Someone Through the Storm,
below) did a small, but significant misunderstanding turn my life up side down. The timing was immaculate, and I can
attribute it only to God reminding me that I am not as strong as I thought, and I am not allowing him to be in as much control
as I claim.
After the misunderstanding was
resolved, it was a good reminder to me how much I still need, and will always need God. God knows our weaknesses
and often keeps taking us back to a place to face them in order to strengthen us.
And we know that in all things God works
for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28
This verse is
one of my favorites because it reminds me that every time something bad has happened, God has allowed it to happen for a good
reason. We cry out, "Why?" - I know I did! God stays silent, long enough for us to forget about ourselves, trust him
and draw strength from him.
If you look back in your life at all the hard times, how you handled it and what came of them, it is probably the best
evidence that God truly is in control. Sometimes it's good to write it down, so when the next wave hits you can go back
and look at it and know, "God helped me through things before, he will do it again." Although it feels terrible, as
time passes you can look forward to what Christ is going to do in your life as a result of your trials.
The same does not go for self-inflicted trials, such as the consequences of drug abuse, crime, sexual sin, etc.
God gave us the bible not only to get to know him but as a warning. He loves us so much he does not want to see us hurt,
and that is why we have his rules. If we choose to disobey, we may not be doomed to eternal damnation, but things won't
be quite the same.
Some claim God's will is always done. It's not if someone is fighting against it and determined to go their
own way. And when all is said and done and we're reminded once again that we are failures and need him he can pick up
the pieces for us. I like the analogy of God being like a GPS. He has a particular destination in mind but
if we take a wrong turn or get lost and still want to know the way, he will rearrange the directions to help get us there.
Don't wait to be turned up side down in order for God to remind you how much you need him - pursue him now!
Loving Someone Through
the Storm
I will not give up this fight
I will not lay down and die I will not carry this heart of stone I may not be your place to run I may not
be your kingdom come I may stumble through this great unknown But I will be all that is true I will not give up
on you I was made to be with you alone Cause you and me, we're gonna see...the long way home
- Long Way Home, Bebo Norman
Who said love had to be easy? In most cases I don’t think we realize
half of how difficult it can be.On the outside couples are required to portray
a happy and loving marriage or relationship.But on the inside there are struggles
unknown to anyone else.
Look around you – listen to the hesitation in the voice of the girl
you ask, “so when are you going to tie the knot?” See the despondent looks you’re given when you
tell a friend how much you admire her husband and what a good guy he is, when really she wants to tell you, “If only
you knew”, but can’t.
If anyone knows, the wife knows…he doesn’t put a good face on
for her and doesn’t control his emotions because he knows she is stuck with him, and as a good Christian lady she would
never leave.To everyone else, he’s a great guy – the life of the
party, giving, caring and a strong Christian and huge contribution in the church.But
to her, he is a nightmare, a prison, someone she may wish she would have been better off never marrying.
What about relationships? Have you ever loved a man with your whole heart
only to be returned with the fact that he just doesn’t feel the same for you? He can call you up, spend time with you,
maybe even have a physical relationship with your or share moments where you think maybe he really wants to be with you –
and then he hits you with the whole “unsure” thing all over again.You
want to hate him because it would be easier than loving him and getting hurt…but you can’t do it.
Where do you turn? Can you walk away?
With married women, it’s not that easy.You made a commitment before God and are legally bound to this man who infuriates you more often than not.Maybe you even have kids binding you together.It doesn’t mean you are stuck and have to put up with his garbage the rest of your life.Sooner or later, you will need to seek help, a neutral party who can advise both of you, not just tell
one of you what you’re doing wrong.But in the meantime, where do you turn?
When all your efforts fail – you’ve suggested counselors for
him, suggested seeing a doctor about taking medication, talked with your partner at length, bombarded him with books and emailed
devotions and he doesn’t seem any better then you have one last thing to try.
Jesus said:
Take
my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke
is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:29-30
The bible talks about trust and faith in God
extensively.Why? Only when we fully put our trust in God will he work in our
lives.Sometimes we forget just how much God loves us.We become so wrapped up in our own little world, hoping and praying that God will change the man in our
life so that we can have that love, connection and relationship back.But God
wants us first to have that with HIM! He wants us to hand over all our cares and concerns and just concentrate on being with
him, knowing him.He can take of all the other stuff as long as we are willing
to let go.
Delight
yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Psalm
37:4
People take vacations to get away from their
problems back at home, to relax and get out of the day-to-day grind.We need
to take a vacation from our worries, a permanent one so that we can be the kinds of Christians God intended to.We may always have struggles, but once we firmly know in our hearts that Jesus will
handle them for us according to his pure and perfect will then they become a lot lighter.
To
stand by someone during the hard times and set aside your needs so that theirs can be met takes an unconditional love so strong
it could only be generated by God.
This is the kind of love he has for us, only
astronomically more.We keep his gifts to ourselves, we don’t stick up
for our faith, pass up an opportunity to witness to others, betray him in our thought life, thinking hateful, lustful or bitter
thoughts. And although the bible encourages us to spend time with him we rush
through our devotions (or don’t do them at all).We take his love for granted,
yet he is still there.
So if we are not putting him first how can we
expect him to fix our situations? And if the only time we run to him is during the hard times we are put through, by the man
in our life or other, can we really expect him to respond rapidly to our requests?
Psalm 37:4 says delight yourself in the
Lord…that means you are so happy to have him in your life, and be saved by grace that all your other cares are minimal.If you delight in Jesus the trials you face may still be there, but you will have
someone much bigger taking care of it for you.
The danger of handling it alone is that you
are making yourself vulnerable to temptation and eventually, sin.The devil loves
to prey on the weak, because they are most susceptible to sin.
If you are growing weary from standing by a man who just can’t
seem to snap out of his darkness, and your joy is not in the Lord, you will probably experience temptation like never
before.
You may be inclined to medicate by drinking
to numb the pain, or taking sleep medication just to get through the night.If
your habits are changing from occasional to very often it may be time to talk to someone you can be accountable to.Temptation is always easier to give into when it is done in secret.Confide in someone and stop the cycle before you develop an addiction thus, developing a problem much bigger than the
one you were trying to cover.
It is also not uncommon for a girl in a troubled
relationship to meet a man to be her shoulder to cry on.Ladies, while you may
be more inclined to seek the comfort of another man when you’re not getting it at home, this is often the first step
to infidelity.A man has no business befriending a woman who is having problems
with her husband or boyfriend.The safest place to be is either with a woman,
or another couple you trust.
And while the friendship ploy may not work,
there may be other subtle signs of temptation, ones you don’t realize right away but when they grip you they are a lot
harder to get away from.It may be a flirty co-worker who makes you feel good
and wanted again.You might find yourself going out of your way to be around
him.It may be a client, a customer, or a patient who you develop somewhat of
a bond with and find yourself wanting a bit more.There is an unmistakable pattern
to watch for once you have met someone.
Step 1: Flirting. It
may appear innocent and playful, but any man who compliments your looks beyond "that's a nice dress" or "you look nice today"
and borders on the suggestive "that skirt makes your legs look longer" they are usually throwing out the bait to see if you're
biting.
Step 2: Joking. If you are
receptive to compliments (and maybe return them) he will often make a suggestion in the form of a joke, especially in a work
place because he cannot just come out and ask if you will sleep with him. If you turn him down or are offended he can
always pretend he was making a joke. But unless he's the person who makes those jokes to everyone, often it is the test,
and a safe one for him.
Step 3: Jokes become serious.
Once he's established that you're attracted to him, he will start to work on getting you to act on what you say. Flirty
emails will turn into blatant requests to get together. Even if you do try to hold him off by telling him you're involved,
by now you have no credibility. If you continue with the flirting, emails etc. he will continue to press you.
Now is your chance to break it off before you get labled as a huge tease, or dive even deeper into it. All it takes
is a simple email, I'm sorry, I shouldn't be doing this because I'm involved with someone. I can't write to you
anymore.
Step 4: Words become actions.
If you continue to live in secret and don't cut it off, or can't cut it off because you've developed a connection and enjoy
the attention, you will find yourself sharing a kiss which will lead to making out and eventually sleeping together.
You may think it doesn't matter, it's just once. You may even justify it because your partner wasn't there for you.
But what you are doing, and maybe did is WRONG. And even if you think you're in love with this person and want to leave
your husband for him, remember there is no greener grass. And the fact he would lure a woman from her husband speaks
to his character - he has no integrity, is selfish, manipulative and will probably do it to you in the future.
Let me switch gears a bit and talk about something
a little more positive, such as what God wants us to be as Christians. A child is a perfect example.They don’t worry about food orclothes, they don’t
worry about how they are going to get to their friend’s birthday, or that a gift will be bought and wrapped for them.They know their parents are going to be there to pick them up for school, or waiting
for them when they get home.
If your husband won’t change you have
two options: leave him, or keep praying.And if you have the kind of unconditional
love mentioned early you will not be able to leave him.
What if you’re not married? Again, two
options: leave him, or keep praying.And while you are praying carefully consider
the nature of his problems.Do you foresee it causing problems in your marriage?
Will it affect his ability to work, and raise children? Is he incredibly selfish, and if this is the case it probably will
not work.He will put himself before everything and you will probably be wishing
you got out when you had the chance.Even the most fun and attractive person
can turn into a burden when they are wrapped up in themselves, stubbornly refusing to get help and expecting you to keep waiting
on them.
Many relationships have been healed but the
one factor that needs to exist is that the troubled partner must be willing to seek help for himself.If not, it doesn’t matter how long you pray it will not change until his heart is changed.
If you are going through this right now, or
maybe you are the troubled partner, my heart goes out to you.I know what
kind of struggle it can be.Please seek help for yourself, and put yourself in
Jesus’ arms – if you have struggled a long time you probably know that nothing else can ease the pain.No drugs, alcohol or any person in your life can help you.God
can, and will if you let him.
Refuge from the Storm
Who told us we’d
be rescued? What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares? We’re asking why this happens To
us who have died to live? It’s unfair. This is what it means to
be held. How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life And you survive. This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was When everything fell we’d be held.
Held – Natalie
Grant
Many of us have been depressed, anxious or both
at some time in their life.Sometimes it has to do with the circumstances around
us; other times there is no particular reason – we feel it inside and nothing seems to snap us out of it.This is particularly difficult because when you can’t put your finger on what is causing you so much
anguish it is that much harder to find a solution.And others don’t understand,
either.Whether they say so or not, if there is nothing apparent going on to
cause you this heartache you should be able to get over it.
I’m not going to spend a lot of time discussing
depression and anxiety, as I don’t have a full understanding of it.I’m
not even going to spend a lot of time discussing pain, because there are so many kinds, and so many circumstances that cause
us pain.What I am going to talk about is what we can do to take refuge from
the storm.And I say take refuge because for most of us, our lives will
never be trouble free and the storm won’t blow over until we die.But there
are things we can do to shelter ourselves from the beating rain and howling winds.
Let
your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your
hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:5-7
The above verse may seem like a simple, easier-said-than
done solution to a problem that has seemed so big it plagues you by day and keeps you awake late at night.We were never promised it would be easy.In fact, Jesus said:
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take
heart! I have overcome the world. John 16:33
There are many ways we can turn,
but only one way leads to true joy – maybe not in this life, but certainly the one after it.We can get angry with God for allowing us to go through such things or we can allow him to use this time
in our life to draw us closer to him and make us stronger.We can prolong the
agony by medicating with pills, alcohol or other drugs and addictions or we can face our troubles each day – the sooner
we face them the sooner we can deal.We can depend on a friend, partner or spouse
to carry us through or we can cast all our cares upon the Lord and he will sustain us (Psalm 55:22).
If you are a Christian, but
have been going through a dark time in your life lately, or maybe a series of dark times that never seem to let up perhaps
it’s time to examine why God hasn’t rescued you.
Philippians 4:5 instruct us
not to be anxious about anything.Do you have circumstances in your life beyond
your control that grips you with fear? Are you required to make changes or decisions that you don’t think you can do,
either out of doubt in your abilities, or fear of change? Are you more comfortable to hide in your own world rather than branch
out and try something new? If you cannot get past the anxiety part it is little wonder why God has yet to bring you some relief
and comfort.He is waiting on you to take the first step and say, “I trust
you, God.”If you are yet to do that, don’t be surprised that you
are stuck in your rut.He will allow you to keep coming back to this place until
you are prepared to take him at his word.
Some people would truly rather
wallow in their own misery and lean on God to miraculously change them then they would to do anything on their own.But, it’s all here in this verse, in God’s word.
In everything, through prayer
and petition, and thanksgiving do you present your requests to God? Present is emphasized because so often we try to
demand or persuade God, when really we should be handing our situations over and leaving them with him.Are your prayers centered only on your own needs, begging for a reprieve? And do you pray in thanksgiving
for everything? Do you thank God for the good times and the bad? I suspect very few thank him for either, ironically.During the good times we don’t need him as much and forget about giving him
the glory, like the lepers who Jesus healed and ran off without thanking him.Do
you pray for others, and if so, how much compared to your prayers for yourself? Do you not think there is no one else out
there who has needs and is hurting?
A useful exercise for me a couple
years ago was writing a list of things I was thankful for, including situations that didn’t work out how I hoped.A woman who is nearing 30 and still unmarried may become depressed and preoccupied
with that fact; however, there are many, many women who have been married and lived to regret it.There are single moms, abandoned by the baby’s father or devastated by divorce.There are women in unhappy relationships that would much rather be single than spend another day with this
man.When you really sit down, think about it, and write it out the possibilities
for thanksgiving are endless.Look around at those confined to a wheelchair because
of a stupid driving mistake – or worse, confined to a wheelchair because of someone else’s driving mistake!
Do you only run to God when
you’re hurting? If so, it is little wonder why he is slow to simply grant each fair-weather Christian their wish and
allow them to go on.How much time do you really spend with him? And if its very
seldom then it is not unlike expecting a big favor from an acquaintance you rarely bother with.
But
he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the
more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
This is a common blow-off verse that Christians
use on other Christians when they are struggling.It is the types of verse that
you cannot appreciate fully until you have been through the fire and emerged on the other side, knowing God has never, and
will never forsake you.God promises that his grace is sufficient, and we have
to believe that for ourselves before it can fully take effect.
As an aside, sometimes really
sharing with others can ease the pain and pent up frustration.Often the person
we confide in can relate to what we’re going through and assure us they understand and we are not alone.A few weeks ago I confided in a close friend about struggles I had been determined to take to my grave.And to my surprise, this person could relate completely and shared similar struggles!
It took a huge weight off me now that these things we talked about were out of that shadows and into the light – no
longer hidden away and eating at me.
God does not push us into ruts
and keep his foot on our heads when we try to climb out, but it’s easy to think that way.It takes the onus off of us to do anything about it.God wants
us to have joy, but joy is one of those things that just happens to us – we have to choose it.We have to choose that no matter how upset and twisted we are feeling, it is NOT God’s will we feel
like this and it’s time to do something about it, starting with our relationship with him.He cannot use us when we are broken, and a mess.Our brokenness
can do two things: going through these difficulties is what it takes us re-evaluating our closeness to Christ, really getting
to know him, and working through our difficulties with his strength, not ours.Unfortunately, there are those who allow the difficulties to consume them, never seeking joy, and never getting into
the word enough to start on the path to healing.
I encourage you to visit the
following link and read about how Charles Spurgeon, who although he struggled with depression he was one of the most truth-driven, bible believing, soul winning pastors of
all time.
Are you going to seek refuge,
or stand out shivering in the rain?
Liar, Liar
What a man desires is unfailing love; better to be poor than a liar. Proverbs 19:22
In the past few years and especially
the past few months I've noticed a rare breed of people who are pathological liars. The Random House Unabridged Dictionary
defines pathological as "caused by or evidencing a mentally disturbed condition". No one is immune to it - including
Christians.
The reason I am writing this
is because pathological liars have affected me several times in my life, and I want to communicate to others who have been
or are affected by this strange condition.You probably can’t understand
how these people can say the things they do, when truth and logic are so apparent.
How can a person tell blatant
lies and actually get angry or defensive if they are questioned? I did a Google search online and was pleasantly surprised
to come up with a lot of to-the-point information on this subject.
Wikipedia puts it best:
A pathological liar is someone who often embellishes his or her stories in a way that he or she believes will impress people. It may be that
a pathological liar is different from a normal liar in that a pathological liar believes the lie he or she is telling to be
true—at least in public—and is "playing" the role. He or she sometimes is seen to have a serious mental problem
that needs to be rectified.
It is not clear, however, that this is the case.
It could also be that pathological liars know precisely what they are doing. Making up stories and at the same time believing
them is known as confabulation. The term "pathological liar" is not an official clinical diagnosis however psychiatrists may agree that pathological lying
is often the result of a mental disorder or low self-esteem.
Even though pathological lying is not recognized
as a clinical disorder, legal court cases often require that you prove that the defendant is aware that he or she is lying.
This proof is most important in cases of slander and/or liability. Pathological liars often actually convince themselves that
they are telling the truth, which in turn can alter polygraph tests and other questioning.
When caught in a lie, pathological liars tend
to become hostile or try to disregard the fact they lied; often playing it off as a joke.[1]
A
wicked man listens to evil lips; a liar pays attention to a malicious tongue.Proverbs
17:4
So how can you tell if someone is a pathological liar and not just
someone who stretches the truth once in a while or tells a lie to cover themselves?
The following comments
basically reflect a pathological liar who has the characteristics of histrionic personality disorder.
Some characteristics:
1. Exaggerates things
that are ridiculous.
2. One-upping. Whatever
you do, this person can do it better. You will never top them in their own mind, because they have a concerted need to be
better than everyone else. This also applies to being right. If you try to confront an individual like this, no matter how
lovingly and well-intentioned you might be - this will probably not be effective. It's threatening their fantasy of themselves,
so they would rather argue with you and bring out the sharp knives than admit that there's anything wrong with them.
3. They "construct"
a reality around themselves. They don't value the truth, especially if they don't see it as hurting anyone. If you call them
on a lie and they are backed into a corner, they will act very defensively and say ugly things (most likely but depends on
personality), but they may eventually start to act like, "Well, what's the difference? You're making a big deal out of nothing!"
(again, to refocus the conversation to your wrongdoing instead of theirs).
4. Because these
people don't value honesty, a lot of times they will not value loyalty. So watch what you tell them. They will not only tell
others, but they will embellish to make you look worse. Their loyalty is fleeting, and because they are insecure people, they
will find solace in confiding to whomever is in their favor at the moment.
5. They may be somewhat
of a hypochondriac. This can come in especially useful when caught in a lie, for example, they can claim that they have been
sick, or that there's some mysteriously "illness" that has them all stressed out. It's another excuse tool for their behavior.
6. Obviously, they
will contradict what they say. This will become very clear over time. They usually aren't smart enough to keep track of so
many lies (who would be?).
Here are some ways
to tell someone is a pathological liar contributed by another FAQ Farmer:
They lie about even the smallest things. For example, saying "I brushed
my teeth today," when they didn't.
They add exaggerations to every sentence.
They change their story all the time.
They act very defensively when you question their statements.
They believe what they say is true, when everyone else knows it isn't.
Here's an alternate
"checklist":
üLies when it is very easy to tell the truth.
üLies to get sympathy, to look better, to save their butt,
etc.
üFools people at first but once they get to know him,
no one believes anything they ever say.
üMay have a personality disorder.
üExtremely manipulative.
üHas been caught in lies repeatedly.
üNever fesses up to the lies.
üIs a legend in their own mind.
Here are more opinions
and other input from FAQ Farmers:
I have found a few differences in pathological liar and a "slime ball"
liar. Pathological liars cannot tell that they are lying they actually believe the lie as soon as it comes out of their mouth.
They lie about unimportant things that don't really matter to anyone. This can be caused by mental defect but isn't always.
Slime-ball liars lie about things that make them look better or embellish to get attention. They also lie to keep their butts
out of trouble and to get what they want.
Here are things to ask yourself: How could this many things happen
to one person? Would believe these stories if someone else told you? Think back to the beginning: you had red flags and alarms
going off in you head. Learn to trust your instincts.
It is very hard to tell when one is a pathological liar. Some people
just are liars and lie-to-lie because they can and they don't care about getting caught and aware that you know they have
lied. These people care not about lying; it's no big deal. It's like "ok, so what? I lied". The pathological liar on the other
hand, IS aware that they are lying BUT will go to extremes to make you believe that they are truthful. They appear to believe
their own lies BUT in truth, they know their lies are just that, lies. But because their efforts are constantly backing up
their lies, it appears to us that they actually believe their lies, when we eventually do find out about them and then we
tend to feel sorry for these people. Then they have an excuse, "I am sick, I don't know why I lie, I believed what I was saying
etc." The only truth was the fact that they don't know why they lie. Other than that it's crap. It is true that most of them
have an extremely low sense of self worth and are continuously trying to make themselves feel better about THEMSELVES and
this is one reason they lie. It is about them but the lies are not always set up with the purpose to hurt some one else; it's
that these people feel so low about themselves they need to create ANYTHING different from the ugly reality they feel about
themselves so they lie about even the most tiniest little thing. The people closest to them get sucked into these lies, which
sometimes start as something very trivial and then turn into something that can turn everyone involved worlds upside down
and inside out.
Unmasking the pathological liar is an easier task when the pathological
liar is no more than a casual acquaintance to the "un-masker." Close relationships provide camouflage for the pathological
liar, and intimacy provides a heavily fortressed breeding ground.
Other indicators:
1)Rage attacks after they realize you're questioning their lies. 2) Distraction techniques,
e.g. hanging up the phone when you catch them in lie, playing word games, or even just running out of the room. After using
the distraction technique, or rage attack, or sometimes both, they will pretend that nothing ever happened. They re-write
history, so it never did happen in their minds. Normal people do it too, but these people take it to the extreme. [2]
His mouth is full of cursing and
deceit and fraud: under his tongue is mischief and vanity.Psalm 10:7
I would like to add to this list that the pathological liar often puts
the ball in the court of the person they are lying to, by saying that their answers are clear to them and they cannot understand
why they aren’t communicating properly? I’ve heard that one a couple of times!
Although the articles referenced here are not written by professionals,
I chose them because they contain normal, easy to understand information and no psychobabble.As I read through the examples I felt light bulbs going on above my head as I thought back to people I know who have
behaved like this and now I finally understand where they’re coming from.If
it is truly a personality disorder, telling a pathological liar to face facts and tell the truth would be like telling someone
who suffers from depression to cheer up.
So what can you do if a pathological liar is affecting your life or
someone else’s life? According to this, you have few options – face them with the truth, back off, and hope they
clue in. You can present the evidence to them but if they won’t accept it you can’t force them.Mindsets are a dangerous thing, like the anorexic who is convinced she is fat at 89 lbs.The pathological liars I know find themselves alone eventually, when no one believes what they say any
longer.Hopefully some day they will realize they have a problem, not unlike
other harmful addictions, and seek help.If not, they will eventually self destruct.
How serious is telling lies? Besides being one of the 10 Commandments
the bible says:
He that worketh deceit shall not
dwell within my house: he that telleth lies shall not tarry in my sight.Psalm
101:7
Lastly, even if you’re not in the pathological liar category,
take care that you stay honest and true.Most people can see through lies.Police make a study of it and can detect whether the person they are questioning is
being truthful simply by his gestures.Honesty and integrity will take you further
than you may know.A good name may even get you out of binds where you are falsely
accused or defamed.
A good name is to be chosen rather
than great riches,Loving favor rather than silver and gold. Proverbs 22:1
If you are a Christian,
and depending on how long you’ve been one, you have probably encountered at least one person you have witnessed to who’s
asked the question, or similar variations of it: Why do I have to be a Christian to go to Heaven?
People like the idea of
Heaven after they die, but despite the fact that Heaven was introduced in the Bible they don’t want to follow the rest
of the teachings.They pick and chose what they want to follow but unfortunately,
being a ‘good person’ alone is not enough to get you into Heaven.It
brings up the question that how exactly is a good person defined? What if you’re brought up in a terrible home and don’t
know any better than to lie, cheat and steal? Where do you draw the line? What if you’re born to a tribe in black Africa
who spear their enemies and have no law?
Our human nature is sinful.We struggle with selfishness, bad thoughts, evil desires.On the outside we have on our best face, but would never want anyone to know our true selves inside.God, on the other hand, is perfect.Good
and evil cannot mix, much like oil and water and that is why we cannot have direct access to God.However, he sent his son Jesus to suffer and die to pay for all of our sins, a price none of us could pay.When Jesus was resurrected and returned to Heaven, he became the mediator between
God, and us so that through Jesus we could have a relationship with God.
It is difficult to grasp
that God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit are one, and that God could send his son (which essentially is part of God) to earth in
human form.We like everything to be logical and refuse to believe in anything
we cannot understand.But with hundreds of years of study into the supernatural
world, no one has come close to fully understanding it, and I don’t believe we were intended to.The most simplistic explanation of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit being one is the example of an egg.On it’s own a shell is not an egg.A
yolk is not an egg.A white is not an egg.But the three put together make an egg.
A scientist can tell us
the world is billions of years old…that there are billions of galaxies out there…the size of the stars, and approximately
how many there are out there.We take it at face value even though we have never
seen it.But for some they can live in a world where each season, climate, food
chain, etc. operates in a natural steady pattern and still question whether God created it.The human body is incredible and complex – it knows how to sense and react to danger, far before we even realize
it! When we are sick or injured, other areas of body know to compensate for it.Our
body stores away extra nutrients, water and blood in reserves in case we need it.With
each system functioning so perfectly, we still think we could have evolved and lived on partially formed (evolved) organs?
What no one has ever been
able to explain to me is how someone can believe in God but not the Bible, which is essentially where the whole concept of
God is explained.They create their ideals about God and the afterlife, and put
their faith in short-lived man-made religions and ideas – anything to avoid becoming the dreaded Christian.They will use every excuse in the book as to why they won’t become a Christian.“There is too many hypocritical Christians” is one of my favorites.Since when do you put your eternity at stake because of a bunch of people doing a terrible job? If your
supervisors at work are incompetent morons do switch careers? No. Switch jobs, maybe...but you do the best you
can with what you have.
The fact is, unless you
feel God tugging at your heart, you probably won’t ever need him.Many
people turn to Christ during a crisis in their life.Some stay strong and others
fall away once the stormy skies clear.Fortunately, God knows our hearts.He knows who’s trying hard and who’s using it as a crutch.He sees the phonies at church who are praising Jesus on Sunday then cheating on their spouse the next day.That is for him to judge.
Many will say to me on that
day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will
tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!' Matthew 7:22-23
So does a loving God have
the right to deny ‘good people’ access to Heaven? He sure does! He provides everyone with an opportunity to know
the truth and follow him and few accept it.If you want to pick and choose what
you want from the Bible and ignore the whole key to salvation – Jesus Christ, than don’t expect to be walking
through the gates of Heaven when you die.
So why do Christians try
so hard to ‘save’ you? It’s not for personal gain.We get nothing
out of it.We don’t want to see you going to Hell.And whether you believe you’re going there or not, that’s up to you.Our hearts ache for you, they really do.No true Christian
has ever regretted becoming a Christian and only those who sign on for the wrong reasons are the ones who fall away and become
hypocrites.For most people who follow Christ, it is the best thing that has
ever happened to them.
Take a look at our world.The Hollywood gossip magazines are filled with empty shells of people who turn to
drugs, sex and the most outrageous lifestyles, for what – to fill some empty void? And how come so many end up having
drug overdoses and committing suicide.They have all the money they need…is
choking to death on your own vomit all that the entire world has to offer?
Look around at the most
perverted members of our society – men putting on make-up, wearing vinyl dresses and high heels and demanding to be
accepted…women making out with and groping other women in public while drunk men urge them onward, take their photos
and post them all over the internet…child pornography…drug addicts injecting and inhaling household chemicals
into their system, turning themselves into a violent, scabby mess, and the drug dealers who happily take their money.
Is being apart from God
really the better way? And have you ever asked yourself, what comes after this? Some ideals you made up in your head? Is that
what you want, or do you want to believe in a Bible, God-breathed and irrefutable for hundreds of years?
I realize if I were to
list a thousand reasons why you should give Christ a chance you wouldn’t buy any of them if your heart wasn’t
in the right place.That is where we, as Christians have to learn to let go.We have to accept that there are those out there that even in the depths of despair
or on their deathbed will not accept Christ as their Savior.
Sometimes we put all we
have into it only to yield no results.
Sometimes God even uses
those instances to show us that we aren’t in control.
Sometimes when we back
off does something happen in that person’s life that turns them around, and we had nothing to do with it! It’s
a good reminder that if someone is going to change, it is God who pushes the buttons.Our only responsibility is to get the word out there; the good news of the gospel and the unbelievers can do with it
as they may.In addition, it is also up to us to be a living example, to back
up what we say with our actions.We will never be perfect, but if we want people
wondering why we are different than the rest of the world we better be giving them a good reason to wonder.
If you are reading this
as an unbeliever, do you KNOW where you’re going when you die? Maybe you have ideas of where you’re going, but
do you want to risk being wrong? Do you ever wonder why some people give up their lives to be missionaries, in ministry, even
giving up the fun of a worldly life to follow God? Do you wonder what it is they have?
If you even have an inkling
to investigate this further, I encourage you to check it out.I strongly discourage
going to church for your answers, unless you can find someone there who you can talk one-on-one with.Churches today tend to be geared towards the attendees, which are all mostly saved, anyway.
Everything this world
offers, whether it’s normal things like a husband and kids, to abnormal like multiple sex partners (men AND women),
illicit drugs, partying, etc. CAN BE TAKEN AWAY.Jesus can never be taken away
from you.He is the only one who can make and keep this promise:
Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.Hebrews 13:5
Let go of your empty life. Real peace and joy are out there, and they don't come with a price tag.
More
in Control by Being Out of Control
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what
you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important
than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds
them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Matthew 6:25-26
I have never felt as secure with my life and future as
when I realized how futile so many of my efforts to control it were.It took
a long time to finally allow God to take control.Knowing it in the back of your
mind is only part of the battle.So many of us know it but still try to help
God along.
Do you ever wonder why just when your life is going exactly
the way you want it, something big happens to change it?
The most positive changes in my life have been a result
God presenting the opportunity, and me forcing myself to step out of my comfort zone and take it! The reason it was such a
fight for me is because what God had for me required me to overcome my weaknesses first, and not just laziness – feelings
of fear, inadequacy, uncertainty.How much more we appreciate his gifts when
we have to work for them! He uses these opportunities to form us into the people he wants us to be.The biggest blessings usually come after a sacrifice of our human nature.
A couple of years ago a large mill shut down, taking with
it several hundred jobs.Up until it’s closing, there was the perception
that once you were hired on there, you were set for life: high pay, good benefits, and for most, fairly comfortable work.While some really enjoyed their work, many workers I met were complacent about their
job and found no fulfillment in it.They were unionized so there were simple
tasks that the average worker couldn’t do for himself such as change a light bulb – a special department had to
be called in for that.
Several people said our city would shut down without the
mill.But instead, many of the workers opened their own small businesses ranging
from computer repair to iron works.Several said the closing was the best thing
that happened to them, because at least they were doing something they wanted, not just sitting comfortably and drawing a
pay check.
And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that
in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 2 Corinthians 9:8
The biggest change in my life so far has been my career.In high school I wanted to become a massage therapist but never took the schooling.It was too much money to invest in something I was unsure of.Years later I was at an office job which although I enjoyed the work there was a large personality conflict
between myself and the other secretary, who happened to be my boss’s right hand woman.As a result I was basically pushed out.I was not perfect, and not a victim,
and had made my share of mistakes.It hurt tremendously, but it got me thinking
quick about what path I wanted to take next.
A year before that I had found a newspaper ad for a massage
course that could be taken by correspondence.It was designed for adult students
who couldn’t quit their jobs but wanted a career change.At the time I
had considered it, but again, didn’t want to spend the money for something I was unsure of.Now that my job was in jeopardy, I decided to take the step.
Although everyone was very encouraging, I still had that
fear and uncertainty rooted deeply in me.When my textbooks arrived I felt almost
sick, looking at the overwhelming amount of information I would have to learn.
God was with me throughout the course.He provided me with so many blessings that made taking it just that much easier including Christian friends
who were a huge support and a lot of fun.It made those monthly trips so much
more enjoyable.My feelings of inadequacy plagued me all the way through, and
no one could understand how I dreaded going away for the weekend.But because
it was difficult, I tried so much harder.Even when I didn’t think I was
doing enough homework, enough practice massages, enough studying I still managed to do well.And before I knew it, the two years was over and I was about to start on my own.
How can God use something like massage therapy, you may
be asking? I don’t know.I have my ideas, and I’m sure I will see
why he brought me to this point, in the future.All I know is that he opened
the doors every step of the way and continues to with new clients and opportunities.This job allows me to fulfill my desire to help people deal with stress, chronic pain and conditions rather than sitting
at a desk behind a mountain of paperwork.It has been the most rewarding work
I have done so far.
I don’t know what my future holds, and honestly right
now I feel like I’m feeling my way through the dark.The only difference
is now I am holding my Heavenly Father’s hand tightly as he guides me, giving me glimpses of what he has for me as he
sees fit.Most of us find that controlling our own future is like being stuck
in the mud and spinning our wheels – we don’t get anywhere, in fact many of us get deeper into our ruts! We have
to take our foot off the gas and allow God to push us out.After that it’s
time to scoot over and let him drive.
In the World But Not Of It
Due to several references in this article, I have included
links to my sources. Simply click on the underlined word to direct you to a web page in a new window.
I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you
were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of
my mouth.
Revelation 3:15-16
If you have been a Christian for a long time you have probably
seen the transition in churches – hymnals replaced with power point slides of Christian contemporary lyrics, biblical
sermons replaced with sermons containing little scripture and a lot of anecdotes, and an increase in committees, boards, disagreements
and church splits.The pastor who once looked to the bible and prayer for his
inspiration is no match for themed sermons such as the Purpose Driven series, Five Love Languages, etc. to hold people’s
interests.
You have also probably noticed the steady decline in Christian
standards – whereas once it was a given that a Christian believes and follows the bible, now many Christians try to
custom fit their faith to their preferences.The recent gay marriage issue has
even caused splits or members to leave evangelical churches because the church has decided to condone homosexuality rather
than take a stand.
Many Christians have made the argument that the old church was
dull, boring and we need to modernize it if we’re going to bring people in.The
thing they don’t realize is, it’s not the fun and exciting church that brings and holds people there, it is their
relationship with Christ and how that church is helping them to grow.Otherwise,
the churches would be overflowing with attendees.
According to
the ARIS survey, in the United States, 76.5% of adults identified themselves as Christians during early 2001. [1][1][1]This number is dropping almost one percentage point per year. There has also been a drop in the percentage of American
adults who attend religious services regularly. It has gone from 49% in 1991 to 36% in 1996. Reduction in attendance is a
worldwide phenomenon among industrialized countries. The US is believed to have the highest attendance rates; Canada has about
20%; Australia, England and the rest of Europe are 10% or less. The general trend is downwards as societies become more secular.
My brother is a hunting enthusiast who enjoys pouring
over maps, calculating numbers I have no idea what they are for, and doing a lot of things that I don't understand and don't
have a desire to. Does his interests need to conform to me in order to draw my attention? No! I'm either interested
or I'm not...the same is for Christianity. If your heart's desire is not to read the bible, obey Jesus and change your
life than no seminar, retreat, or church is going to change it.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be
transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing
and perfect will.
Romans 12:2
Pastors such as Charles Spurgeon (1834-1892) didn’t need any frills to attract his 6000-person congregation
each Sunday.Over a hundred years after his death his sermons are still popular
amongst Christians seeking the truth.He preached from the heart and did not
need a four-point sermon with stories and illustrations.Is it little wonder
why a few Christians doubt the sincerity of their pastor when he preaches from supposed Christian books or may even download his sermons rather than (as you have probably heard him pray before the sermon
for) "the words God would have him speak"?
If you were of the world, the world would love its own.
Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. John 15:19
As society changes and accepts things that were once considered wrong, Christians are
gradually changing too. I'm not saying we have to be legalists, as this is wrong in itself and turns a lot of people
off, but if we claim to be Christians we should follow the rulebook, in the same way we do at our jobs.
A police officer is expected to have a high moral standard
for himself and his conduct. How long do you think he would be considered a police officer if he rationalized taking
bribes (because he wasn't getting paid enough) beat up criminals (because they probably won't get jail time anyway) destroyed
evidence to protect friends and fellow officers, and on and on?
That is exactly what Christians are doing! They like the wholesome, Christian
reputation. They like the warm church, friends, and being part of committees. But they don't like the accountability
and conviction! Churches such as the popular Crystal Cathedral have a huge congregation, as many as 10,000. Many are
no doubt drawn to the positive, feel-good preaching of Robert Schuller Sr. Schuller was interviewed by Mike Horton on
the White Horse Inn radio show in 1992 and asked some very hard questions, some of which he could not answer, stammered through,
and even got defensive. I listened to clips from the original recording (which has since been pulled from
the internet). Click here to check out for yourself what one of the most powerful mega-church pastors believes.
And my speech and my preaching were not with
persuasive words of humanwisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith should not be
in the wisdom of men but in the power of God. 1 Corinthians 2:4-5
For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom
knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe.
1 Corinthians 1:21
Does the omnipotent God need to conform to what we want
and prefer? Do we have the right to revise a God-breathed book to what is politically correct and less offensive? If
we claim to be a Christian, does that entitle us to make exceptions to what we believe and limits to how we follow Christ?
A person's reasons for being a Christian is what makes
the difference between the little old lady who spends most time alone in prayer and is barely noticed by her church and
the big mouthed elder who everyone admires for his tailored prayers during church each week. The widow doesn't
care who sees her, she lives for Jesus. The other lives for himself and how good he looks to others.
A person's devotion to Christ is what makes the difference between the
Christian martyrs suffering for their faith, Christians like Horatio Spafford who after losing his four daughters in a shipwreck wrote the hymn, "It is Well
With My Soul", missionaries like Hudson Taylor who lost several children, his wives, and his own health but continued to build
his ministry in China and the Christians who when faced with trial such as the loss of a job, child, spouse, etc. turn their
backs on God. People have fallen so far from true, pure Christianity that most Christian's lifestyles and conduct are
not unlike secular ones.
Eternity is astronomically longer than our short blip
of a life here on earth. Which one are you going to live for?
[1]American Religious Identification Survey (ARIS)," Graduate Center of the City University of New York
Discovering Timothy
I've read through the New Testament at least once,
and many of the books written by Paul several times. Sometimes I have just been going through the motions and the words
haven't sunk in. Last week as I was reading through 2 Timothy, several of Paul's words jumped out and although they
were written thousands of years ago, they can easily be applied to what's going on today.
"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but
a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline." 2 Timothy 1:7
Phobias, irrational fears such as a fear of flying
or heights will prevent a person from exploring the world and cause them to miss out on exciting opportunities. They
will live their life in fear unless they choose to face it and conquer it.
In the same way timidity, fear and a lack of power
will hold us back from opportunities as well. A fear of commitment, failure or of being hurt could prevent a person
from developing friendships, marrying, and cause him to grow old alone all because fear over ruled his desire to be with someone
and he was too afraid to take the step.
This past week I was getting my hair done. My
stylist was asking me about school (I just finished a massage therapy course). She told me she would be willing to trade
haircuts for treatments for her carpal tunnel syndrome. I was flooded with doubts about my abilities and fear that I
couldn't do it. I started to change the subject without committing to anything. I realized what I was doing and
no matter how scared I was I knew I had to jump in before it's too late. She then mentioned the owner of the shop might
want someone to work out of her esthetics room doing massage, as several clients had been asking for massages and the salon
didn't offer them yet.
Again fear crept up, as I didn't want to commit to anything.
It was so easy just working out of my house on my own terms. But as I got up to leave and saw the owner flipping through
a magazine on the couch, I took the plunge and asked if she was looking for anyone. She said she had an ad in the paper!
So right then and there we set something up. And my stylist and I agreed I would work on her in exchange for trims.
As I got back to work I was full of uncertainty but excitement.It is going to be a good opportunity, one I would have missed if I had given into
the spirit of timidity.
“Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will
become more and more ungodly.”2 Timothy 2:16
This verse needs no explanation.How much time do we spend airing our opinions, criticizing others, and being negative compared to spending time with
God? How much more do we know about celebrity’s lives, what they are doing and who they are dating, marrying or divorcing
compared to what we know about the bible? Is it any wonder why godless chatter makes us more ungodly?
“Everyone who confesses the name of the Lord must turn away
from wickedness.”2 Timothy 2:19
This is a great verse for a country that will buy anything
someone wearing the Christian badge is selling.This is also applicable to someone
claiming to be a Christian but living in sin or wickedness as described here.Christianity
is not for the liberal or those wanting to live a double life.When you sign
on, you are a representative for Christ.You can’t claim to live for Christ
and do what he teaches against any more than you could be a police officer yet take bribes, abuse your authority, and steal.You may get away with it for a while, but once you’re found out you are done!
And not looked upon too highly, I might add.
But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money,
boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without
self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God—having
a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.2 Timothy
3:1-6
Isn’t it interesting how although this was written thousands of years ago are so true to today? Ladies, this
next one is for us.Paul continues:
They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins
and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth. Just as Jannes and Jambres
opposed Moses, so also these men oppose the truth—men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are
rejected. But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone. 2 Timothy
3:6-8
The list of desires that can draw us away from God is endless, and many of these things are also very subtle.The desire for love, for instance, which ties into treacherous men “worming
their way into the homes of weak willed women”.We want so badly to be
loved and accepted we are willing to sacrifice our convictions for it.After
a while we lose sight of God because the desire to be wanted and needed overpowers it.When we realize it isn’t real we have a choice to make: run back to God or keep running further, looking for
the answers.Some of those “answers” may lie in feminism, psychology,
self-help, Yoga, Wicca, liberalism, and yes – lesbianism.Lonely women
who have been trampled by the wrong guys all their life are prone to forming bonds with other women, bonds that may make them
believe that only a woman can love them the way they need to be loved.
Being “loaded down with sin” will assuredly keep you from God because God and sin cannot exist together.That is why he sent Jesus, his son to die for our sins so that we could have a relationship
with him.If you go on with your life doing what you want to do then you will
also have to accept the consequences.But if you need to lift the weight of the
“load of sin” on you and are overridden with conviction that you just want Christ to come into your heart and
take away the pain, then make that step.To some it comes easier than others
– many have to take a beating before they finally come to their knees before God.Others never will and will carry on doing what they will.
If you are one of those people who have realized you can’t do it on your own, that you are making a mess of
your life and that you need Jesus, then tell him now! I am not going to type the “sinner’s prayer” because
you will say what comes to your heart.To many the “sinner’s prayer”
is simply a pledge that they say out loud and believe they are now saved.If
you have more questions, please talk to a Christian you can trust – a pastor at the local church, a neighbor, anyone
you might know.You can also check out www.gotquestions.org where you can browse
questions and answers and/or submit your own and a real person will respond to you.
Christianity is not a religion – it’s a way of life.You don't
follow God to earn points with him; rather, you do it to please him and to benefit your own life because like most of us,
you know the consequences that doing things your own way and living in sin bring.
Who’s In Charge?
Do
not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; for like the grass they will soon wither, like green
plants they will soon die away.
Trust
in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you
the desires of your heart.
Commit
your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice
of your cause like the noonday sun.
Be
still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their
wicked schemes.
Refrain
from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. For evil men will be cut off, but those who
hope in the LORD will inherit the land. A little while, and the wicked will be no more; though you look for them, they
will not be found.
But
the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.
Psalm
37:1-11
This
passage contains very good advice for the Christian life, but also some very real Christian thoughts. Do you 'fret about
evil men'? All around us the evil seem to be flourishing - scandal within the churches, churches with man-made doctrine
preaching love and acceptance rather than repentance and salvation having people come in droves while smaller churches
struggle, and many other things. Christians may wonder why they try so hard to obey God when those who are blatantly
disobeying him seem to be so blessed.
A
woman waiting for a good husband while her friends are meeting men, shacking up and getting married is all too familiar with
what it's like to wait on the Lord, much to her frustration. The couple who have been trying for a baby for years may
wonder exactly where God is when all around them others are getting pregnant - especially those who don't even want their
child! An employee who is good and honest continually gets passed over for promotions while his selfish, scheming co-workers
keep moving up the ladder.
It
would be so easy to go and join them. Some Christians get frustrated trying to do it God's way and end up doing so.
But for those who don't there is good news, which can be found towards the end of the passage.
We
have it in our minds that as Christians we are supposed to be blessed and flourish in this lifetime, but that isn't always
the case. Our lives are a brief period where we have an opportunity to serve God. Each person has their own blessings
and their own trials, some it seems have more trials than not! We would like to think we could do a much better job of managing
our lives if we were in charge of our future, but because our understanding is so limited we would end up making a mess, not
unlike taking on a home renovations project if we knew nothing about painting and carpentry.
There are many incredible stories
of Christian journeys - the trials they face and the struggles they have trying to serve God, but one that comes to mind is
the story of Hudson Taylor which I strongly encourage you to take the time to read to gain a better
understanding of how, despite uncertainties and pain in your life God always has a better plan waiting to unfold - one you
may or may not see in your lifetime. That may be either an exciting statement or a discouraging one, depending
on who you are here to serve.
Home
With the Father
I
used to baby sit for three little boys while their mom attended classes and their dad was out of town working.The two older boys were often out of control, disrespectful and disobedient.The house was always a disaster.Even at the age of 10 and
8 they outweighed me so there was no way I could get them to do what they didn’t want to do.I would often bring my younger brother who they were closer in age with to play with, but in reality he
was my bodyguard.
To
my surprise one evening when I arrived (without my brother), the house was tidy and the kids were calm and polite.They showed me where the food I was to prepare for supper was and even helped clear the table and wash
dishes! They went to bed on time.I was taken aback at how they had changed.
The
answer came about 9 pm.Their dad walked in.He had been back home from work on the road.
I
confirmed later with their mother as to the change in behavior.She told me they
always act up when they aren’t around their dad.
How
many of us also act up when we aren’t around out Heavenly Father? I had to evaluate myself over the past few weeks as
to why I seemed to be growing more irritable, impatient and angry.I had not
been spending enough time with God.Prayer before bed used to be my favorite
thing to do, but little by little that time dwindled away to where I would muster a few prayers at most and drift off to sleep.I used to read every morning, which got replaced with checking email and other nonessential
things.Many Christians have reported morning being a crucial time to start right,
as it will set the tone for the rest of your day.This is especially true for
me.It is no wonder why I feel exhausted when I walk into work first thing if
the hour before was spent busying my mind with pointless thoughts and activities.I
even neglected church, attending every third or fourth week rather than every week as I once had.At one time I couldn’t bring myself to skip church without a reason.Now I was having a hard time making myself go!
When
you are at home with your Father – meaning in fellowship with him, you are at rest and able to clean out the clutter
that has been blocking you from him.It is easy to fall away because it is so
gradual and starts simply with skipping church or not making time for prayer or reading.The first time is the hardest, after that it just gets easier and thus you transform into a restless, empty child.
Are
you on your way down the slope? Maybe it is so subtle you didn’t even realize it until now.Maybe you have replaced your bible reading with Christian books.While reading some Christian books are not a bad thing, reading only Christian books is.
I
stumbled upon this verse this morning and it is so true, especially in the churches today:
For
Christ did not send me to baptize, but to preach the gospel – not with words of human wisdom, lest the cross of Christ
be emptied of its power.
1
Corinthians 1:17
Any
church that preaches love and acceptance over conviction and repentance is contrary to the bible.While love and acceptance are a part of Christianity, conviction and repentance is essential because we
are all sinners saved by grace and should never feel that we deserve the love and mercy God gives us!
Unlike
the boy’s father who chose to leave home, our Father is waiting there at home for us.We just have to come to him.
Poisonous People: To Love, or Not to Love
Almost two years ago when I started my course, I met a fellow
Christian who appeared to be a beautiful, soft-spoken girl who had a rough go in life.We became friends; mostly because of the faith we shared and spent a lot of time together.Early in our friendship I sensed an apprehension about being with her, but thought that it was because
I was intimidated at what I perceived as her profound faith and close relationship with Jesus – after all, she talked
openly about how Christ had come into her life and all the things he was doing for her, even said grace very openly before
eating lunch with her eyes close, head leaned back to the sky, and hands folded neatly in front of her – things I wasn’t
doing.As time went on, she became standoffish towards me, and was hesitant to
go out and do anything like we used to unless our mutual friends came along.Finally,
I confronted her and asked if there was anything I had done.She presented me
with a laundry list of bizarre ways I had wronged her.In her mind I was manipulative
although she couldn’t explain why, and when I caught her in a lie she became even more irrational, raising her voice
and accusing me of things I cannot explain (and she couldn’t either).I
walked away with my mouth open, unable to believe what had happened just did.I
sorted through my mind any way she could possibly be justified in saying these things but could come up with nothing.
We haven’t spoken since.It is awkward being in class together, and we act as if the other does not exist.At first I wondered if I should somehow try to make this right but concluded it would be impossible, after all, when
your beliefs are based on feeling or strange things that are going on in your own head, you’re not going to listen to
logic.Over the past year and a half I have watched as her calm, sweet demeanor
has turned harsh and ugly when confronted with things she doesn’t agree with.A mutual friend of ours gravitated quickly away from her and possibly dislikes her more than I do.I have watched the circle of friends she used to sit with at lunch diminish to one person who is new to
the class and doesn’t know her well enough yet.
While working at a hotel years ago, police officers would often
visit the restaurant for coffee.One time, late at night over coffee, a 20-year
veteran opened his heart about his self-absorbed, bitter adoptive mother who always wished he would become a lawyer or a doctor
(something she could be proud of).Although he rose to the ranks of staff
sergeant and continued to earn degrees on his spare time, she could never utter the words – “I’m proud of
you”, or, “I love you”.She would call the station insistently
so that her needs, whatever they were, could be met.He talked excitedly about
another diploma he would be receiving, so he could show it to her.I asked, “Do
you think it will really make a difference?” He admitted that it wouldn’t, but he just had to do it.
Someone close to me used to date a girl.Although she was a professing Christian, she consistently put everyone down, especially other females.She had never dated and had no female friends.She resented her controlling, critical, over-spiritual, chronically ill mother, but at the same time, she would take
her side if it came down to it.And she had irrational explanations as to why
it was okay for her to verbally abuse others.Others and myself thought her behavior
was due to constant exposure to her crazy mother and that with a little time with a loving family she would turn around and
see what normal life is like.Not so.After
pulling some strings to help this girl get away from her mother, find a new place to live, and get a job, she turned around
and went back, again, for bizarre, irrational reasons that will never make sense to anyone but her.This time no one chased her.
I have someone in my life very special to me – he has a
big heart and loves to help others in need.He befriended a guy from his church
that appeared to be friendly, genuine and fun to be around. Over time he learned his friend suffered with depression; however,
eventually this guys’ true colors worked their way out.His wife expressed
frustration towards him for the way he acts and how hard he is to deal with.As
they’ve gotten to know each other and got comfortable with each other, the guy has proceeded to unleash his mood swings
and anger on him for reasons only he may know, even though he has been kind and supportive to him during rough times.He has stormed out in the middle of a conversation if something was said that he didn’t
like.When friendly inquires have been made about how things are going or how
he’s been feeling he’s responded with short, angry comments, and vulgarity sometimes.
All of these examples, with the exception officer’s mother
who is not religious, leave you wondering why these professing Christians would act like this?
We cannot answer for them or explain their behavior.Essentially they will answer to God as to how they have conducted themselves on this earth, and for the
persons they have turned away from the gospel by enforcing the crazy, hypocritical Christian concept.
What are we to do?
Love one another as I have loved you.John 13:34
This is not to say we need to be buddies with them, but to love
them.After all, we have done far more despicable things to Christ in our lifetimes
and he continues to love and forgive us.
Pray for them.Pray
that God will open their eyes to what they are doing, and that they will get help.Pray
that they will be aware of how they are mistreating others and undermining the faith.
If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.
Romans 12:18
That
doesn’t mean continually throwing yourself into the line of fire.It can
mean offering to make peace, and if not accepted, you have done your part.Pray
for these people, no matter how difficult it is.In fact, we are commanded to
love and pray for our enemies more so than our friends.It is easy to pray for
the ones we like, but not the ones who have hurt us.And although we cannot go
up to them and announce we have forgiven them, in our hearts we must.
I find myself getting a little smug, even a little excited when
I see my fellow student argue with the teacher and see other students exchanging glances as if to think, “There she
goes again”.But as Christians, to wish evil on our enemies makes us no
better than them.
Do not gloat when your enemy falls; when he stumbles do not let your heart rejoice, or the LORD will see and
disapprove and turn his wrath away from him.Proverbs 24:17-18
Above all that, there’s nothing more we can do.I honestly don’t believe that God wants us to expose ourselves to cruel, self-righteous people, especially
if they are professing Christians.Try if you might to confront them that their
behavior is a poor witness to Christianity – because their minds are not well they won’t accept it.But you’re still welcome to try.
You have faith; I have deeds. Show me your faith without
deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.James 2:18
You can’t praise Jesus out of one side of your mouth and
cut others down through the other side.We are not called to scrutinize where
each person stands with God; however, I don’t think we are to patronize professing Christians if they do not show their
faith.It is easy to talk a good talk but a lot harder to prove it.
Crazy, irrational people exist – Christian and not.It is hard for levelheaded people to accept this; after all we expect others to be
as level headed and logical.Exposure to such personalities teaches us that this
is not so, and to be aware.So many of us get sucked in because we want so desperately
to help, understand and love.Once these people’s behavior takes a toll
on our mental health, and especially our faith, I believe it’s time to move on.
My massage therapist made the need for “firing friends” clearer to me.Despite the history you might have with them, and been through things with them, if they are dragging you
down with their selfishness and bitterness, it is time to cut them loose for your own good.
This, I honestly believe – even though someone has had a
difficult life, or may be going through a difficult time it does not give them an excuse to mistreat others, especially
the ones that love them.Why would someone turn on someone else who cared for
him or her? Maybe because they know they will always be there for them.They
can put on a show for strangers, but unleash on loved ones.This is wrong and
it won’t stop until they see that their punching bag may not always be there for them.
What if the “crazy” in your life is not someone you
can just “cut loose”? What if they are a parent that depends on you, or a sibling that you are forced to see at
family functions? Christians love to quote numerous passages in the New Testament where we are commanded to honor our father
quote verses from the New Testament commanding us to honor our father and mother; however, does honor mean we make ourselves
susceptible to their selfishness, bitterness, and unkind words? And before you feel sorry for them, remember these people
are on their best behavior when in the company of strangers, so they know exactly what they are doing and know who they can
push to the limit.
Honor (according to the Random House Unabridged Dictionary) is
defined as “honesty, fairness, integrity or beliefs in ones actions”, a source of credit or distinction”,
“high respect, merit”.While we are to respect our parents for the
position they hold, we are not (especially as adults) commanded to cater to them if they are harsh and irrational.Some might argue that with non-believing parents we should continue to interact with them, no matter what
duress it puts us under, in order to share the gospel.Well, I have news…if
you’ve witnessed to them before and been met with stubbornness, unwillingness, and overall disdain for your faith you
have done your job.To keep pushing it on them will push them further away.You are not in charge of your parent’s eternity.It is up to God to tug at their heart when the time is right – they are not going to be talked into it.They may just fall into the category below:
I urge
you, brothers, to watch out for those who cause divisions and put obstacles in your way that are contrary to the teaching
you have learned. Keep away from them. Romans 16:17
Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this
is right. Ephesians 6:1
At a risk of sounding liberal, I learned a short
time ago that not every verse in the bible applies to every person all the time.The bible is a general guideline for how we live our lives.Many Christians
love to quote Jeremiah 29:11 because it contains happy promises (that God made to Jeremiah, no one else) and apply it to themselves.However, they omit the bad verses, such as the ones pertaining to taking slaves, stoning
for adultery, etc.I’m not saying it is right to do these things, just
that if you’re going to believe the good, you have to accept the bad, too.But
I digress.
My point about children obeying their parents is
that this may not necessarily refer to adult children as well.As kids, we don’t
know better and need to do what our parents say no matter if it makes sense to us or not, within reason.I believe that’s why that is there.Where they not
every verse of the bible applies to every person all of the time comes in, is what if a parent is abusing their child?
Is the child still required to honor their decision to keep it a secret and keep beating them? What about verbal abuse? If
a parent makes their child to feel worthless all their life are they to honor that because their parent knows best? These
biblical guideless are general and assuming the family is part of a healthy, normal family, which as we see now there are
more dysfunctional families than ever.So at the same time we use the bible for
it’s principals, we also have to use common sense.
This
is where we learn just how important our faith is – when it causes us to turn our backs on bitter people because they
are crushing our spirit and embrace faithfulness and goodness.There comes
a time when we have to accept the fact that we aren’t going to save or change anyone, and give up complete responsibility
to the one who is in charge.
With Friends Like These…
The people
in our lives (aside from those closest to us - parents, siblings, boyfriend or husband) are made up of friends, enemies, acquaintances,
and strangers.The last three types of people I listed are pretty cut and dry;
however, the first type – friends, carries with it several sub-categories, one of which I would like to focus on in
this article.Recent events and observations have inspired me to attempt to explain
the flaky people in our lives that we try to continue friendships with.
The first
type is the good friend.They are fun to be with, fairly dependable, and their
positive traits far outweigh the negative.Some friends you can tell everything
to, others you are selective with what you say but for the most part, good friends = good.
Secondly,
you have the fair weather friend.They are the kind you love to hang out with
but you can never depend on them unless it works 100% for them.Or there is nothing
better for them to do.If they weren’t so fun to be with, you wouldn’t
hang in there after they dogged you two or more times.But after a while this
gets very old, and eventually you’re longing for the more sedate friendships who don’t cancel more plans than
not and are there when you need them.
Finally, there is the split personality friend.They start off as your good friend.They
are engaging and fun to hang out with.You open up and put a lot of trust in
them in hopes your friendship can become something really special, maybe even rival those old high school buddies you never
lose touch with.
Then one day you get a taste of moodiness.They snap at you unexpectedly and although taken aback, you rationalize that maybe
they had a bad day.In no time they bounce back to their fun selves and you’re
back on track.
Gradually, certain things about them start to annoy you.At one time you enjoyed long conversations with this person and hung on their every
word…now you find yourself zoning out and maybe even praying for the end of the conversation, or for a chance to get
a word in, and you don’t know why.Listen for a moment to what they are
talking about…the smart money says it’s all about them.Experiment
a little and throw in your two cents.Or try to change the subject.Watch how they do not hear what you just said, or express disgust that you are not absolutely fascinated
in their story.
The friend who is wrapped up in themselves,
especially if they are already not quite right in the head will grow to resent you.For some twisted reason, when things are not all right in their world they will take it out on whoever is closest to
them at the time. A normal friend is happy for you when things are going good
but the split-personality type will be filled with disdain and mean-spirited towards you if you dare get better marks in college,
get a boyfriend, a promotion, or have a happy marriage (see below for quick reference).
What cracks them? What causes a person to
sabotage a good friendship? I may not be able to dig into each individual’s head, but by asking these general questions
it might confirm that it is they, not you.Do they have a history of abandonment
by friends, boyfriends, and husbands? Do they have a bad relationship with their parents? And the key factor, do they deny
responsibility in the breakdown of the majority of their relationships?
Why do I always end up with these people?
You may ask.One reason could be that you know a lot of people, and the strange
ones tend to stand out like a sore thumb.Or, your personality may attract a
certain type of person and allow them to worm their way into your life.If you’re
open, kind, and long-suffering you’re more likely a target for the split personality, rather than someone who has a
low threshold for mind games and moodiness.If the flaky friend does latch on
to a no-nonsense friend, they don’t last long and learn they need someone more understanding.
Does this stuff actually go on in their head?
Are they thinking, hmm, this person won’t put up with my junk, I better find someone more forgiving and understanding.No, I don’t believe this is what goes on but I do believe that somehow in
their strange little world they believe they are doing no wrong and cannot understand how they constantly repel others.
Most of us, moody or not, can control it
and at least try to put on our best face for people we care about.Where people
get a permit to mistreat those closest to them, I do not know.But I’m
sure they have some way to rationalize it.
I am here to encourage you that if you don’t
like it, you don’t need to take it!One of my best friends said once that
we have so little time in a day, why not spend it with people that really matter? Why spread yourself thin for people that
you feel like you’re walking on eggshells for? Friends you email a dozen times with absolutely no response, forget them.Delete their email and save the room on your address book for someone else.Acquaintances and friends who promise to call, or you call and never hear a word back, they no longer exist.If in all good conscience you are being a good friend and treating others how you
want to be treated there is no reason to put up with people like this.If this
person or people realize what they lost in a friend like you, they will come back.But
don’t waste your time chasing them.
The only thing “friends” like
this seem to understand is strength.So you need to walk away and quit patronizing
them.Only when they see people getting fed up with them will they start to wonder,
maybe it IS me?At least we hope.Some may never realize it, depending on how wrapped up in themselves, or how far out in left field they are.
Maybe you’re reading this and it’s
sounding familiar to you, not because you have had friends like this, but because you have been this friend.If so, you have a choice – keep doing what you’re doing and pushing people away, or face your
problem and find a solution.
Life is too short – you wouldn’t
keep working a dead end job if you had the opportunity to work at a good one.In
the same way, why would you stick with a dead-end friendship? So how do you weed out the baddies without being woven into
a pseudo friendship and wasting time and energy? There is no foolproof plan, but the following may help:
Quick Reference: Five Red Flags of a Flaky Friend
When you first meet, you think:
What an amazing person!
This person has had such a tough time in life.I wonder why others can’t see how wonderful they are? (The “others” have seen the true
colors, that’s why the they don’t stick around for long…
I’m
going to be a GREAT friend to this person.
They explode into spontaneous, uncalled for bursts of anger.
They have nothing but negative things to say about others.
They have little or no friends other than you.
They
seem irritated when the conversation doesn’t revolve around them, or when they aren’t the center of attention.
If you have
experienced one or more of these things in someone new, you may be in the company of a flaky friend.Save yourself the grief and set boundaries early.If that
doesn’t work, save your time and energy and get out! It is well worth it in the long run, since no one looks back at
a friendship like that and says, “I’m sure glad that happened.It
was a real learning experience.”No, they say, “I wish I would have
listened to my gut.”Consider yourself warned and go appreciate the good
friends out there!
The Christian Carnival (revised)
As I've gotten older, I have observed several disturbing trends in the Christian "faith". God has always instructed
us to dig into his word; however, I see little digging and more speculating on what being a Christian is all about.
At the same time, people can and do study the bible thoroughly and reinterpret God's word to fit their preference. There
are hundreds of different bible translations surely anyone of any lifestyle can find a version to fit them.
There are a few simple rules you can follow to limit the amount of crazies that come into your life. Because
they are often very sneaky in getting you wrapped up with them, and you're better safe, than sorry.
Listen. Listen to the things they say about themselves and others. Do they try to convince
you how wonderful they are? Do they cut everyone else down? Listen to what others say about them. Does everyone have
a similar opinion? Has this person despite how wonderful they say they are, have a history of mistreating others for no logical
reason?
Watch. Watch, preferably from a distance. See if this person's actions back up who they
say they are. Watch how they interact with others. Do they patronize other people and pour the flattery on thick?
Look out, this is step one in tangling others into their messed up little world.
Wait. Most of us have friends that have been around forever but does the person in question
have friends who tend to drop like flies and maybe replaced with new ones, until it dwindles away to one or none? This
type will always refuse to take responsibility. It was always someone else, never them! They will often be a self-professed
loner and explain that no one understand them, rather than, "I like being alone a lot." People talk, so in no time you
will hear it through the grapevine what a nut this person is, and usually not from only one source.
Keeping all that in mind, I’ve made a more detailed list of the top “Christian” Circus acts in no
particular order, written partly out of humor but with the exception of the Cult Leader, are based on real people that are
known to me and others close to me. Unfortunately, some of the people you encounter will fit into more than one of the
following categories.
Circus Act 1: The Cult leader
Definition:
An individual appearing to be Christian however manipulates others into following his teachings, which over time deviate from
the bible.
How to spot them: They usually have a following, which believes that their church is the only right one in the world.The things the cult leader’s church stand for usually have seeds of truth from the bible, but overall
contradict what the bible says (having multiple wives, hating the sinner, not the sin, etc.) Check out the Westboro Baptist Church home page for an example of twisted biblical teachings.
Why are they dangerous? This is self-explanatory.Good, decent people, Christians or not, can
and have gotten sucked into these cults.Why? The leader is an expert at brainwashing
and can usually get people in so deep, they cannot get out.Needless to say it
is very dangerous to trust in the teachings of a man and his complicated instructions on how to be "more spiritual" than the
other Christians...the ones that don't follow his teachings, rather than the pure and simple teachings of Jesus in the bible.
When Jesus’ teachings are over elaborated on, we run a strong risk of not only being wrong but also leading others
astray. It is not uncommon for even a pastor to be taken at his word - the bible says to test everything.
Circus Act 2: Drugs for Jesus
Definition:
A good friend introduced me to this concept, and it is funny but a little sad too because these kinds of people exist.The drug addict/alcoholic/ex-con who got saved, with a twist.They traded in one addiction for another, and are just as twisted with their Christian faith as they were
with drugs and whatnot.
How to spot them:They are an authority on the bible, but only follow the bible teachings
they want, much like the cult leader (for example, they won’t work for a living but they will take hand-outs from the
church).They don’t like instruction, correction, but insist on becoming
some sort of leader in the church, whether it’s hosting a bible study or teaching Sunday school.Many of them believe they have an inside track with God and that he speaks to them directly.
Why are they dangerous? It’s great when anyone who has lived a rough life gets saved, but not when they refuse to take responsibility
for anything in their life and insist on judging others.Credibility is important
in a church, which is why we have stable Christian women teaching children rather than someone fresh out of jail, no matter
how well he talks the talk.
Circus Act 3: The Freak Show
Definition:
A crazy, ultra-spiritual person, plain and simple.You might find them in a cult,
but they are also living among us in evangelical churches.And it’s not
the crazy type that is “on fire for God”; rather, they use God to justify their crazy and irrational actions,
which can be anything from mean-spirited to completely bizarre, including hearing God talking to them directly (usually a
voice in their head or a strong feeling they believe is brought on them by God) usually commending them for how wonderful
they are, or promising them great things, judging and convicting others of their sins (when they have more than their share
to worry about), seeing demons, and more. Now there are people out there that God talks to, and people who actually
do see demons. But the difference between these people and the freak shows are the genuine people are not told by God
how great they are, rather, what they need to change in their life to be better. As for the demon seers, these are people
who have had experience dealing with the spiritual world and people oppressed with demons. The demons they testify to
seeing are nothing to be taken lightly, not something you could happen to see sitting in someone's living room and be able
to walk away. No, if any of us really saw what came from hell we would be screaming out the door. But the spirit
world is so unknown to us, we dare not tamper or try to understand it. We are, after all, to meditate on whatever
is pure, noble, and good.
How to spot them:They are usually very engaging at first.They need to be, to get people close to them.They tell you their life
story and how hard done by they are, and you feel sorry for them and wonder how this could happen to such a sweet person.Once the true colors come out, people get away fast.
Female freak shows usually have few if any, female friends.They look down on other, even normal woman and use derogatory terms for them.
They are rarely involved with anyone romantically because
“no one is good enough for them”.If they have had romantic relationships,
usually it has ended bad and is 100% the fault of the guy.Accusations such as
he were abusive, unfaithful, or obsessive are made.
The number one giveaway of the female freak show that is
a professing Christian is that she demonstrates none of the fruits of the spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness and
kindness.She is easily angered and irrational.And everyone else is always WRONG. If she is a professing Christian yet looks down on almost everyone and has
no problem saying it, look out. I have met several people who demonstrated this right off the bat - had nothing good
to say about anyone...and in time as I realized what they were all about, I was somehow added to their list!
Men can be freak shows and demonstrate some of the characteristics of the female freak show.They both take a page out of the Drugs for Jesus circus act and become an authority on spiritual matters.They justify mistreating others because they are solid with God, and he talks directly
to them. They judge and feel it's their duty to convict others of sin, while they have their own wacky stuff going on.
Watch out for those whose lives are totally messed up, yet they still insist on being a spiritual authority. It is almost
like it's easier to deal with other people's problems than face the storm inside.
Why are they dangerous?They draw you in quickly and win your sympathy and love, and then they
turn on you like a rattlesnake.They betray your trust and although you have
done nothing to them, in their mind you are just another person who has wronged them.They have irrational reasons why you are a horrible person and have no logic or common sense at all, you cannot argue
or convince them otherwise so don't waste your breath.They are also a very brutal
witness for Christianity.
Circus Act 4: The Legalist
Definition:
Someone who interprets and makes laws for themselves based on what they read in the bible.They usually look down on others who claim to be Christians yet don’t obey these laws.Some of them include going to movie theaters, drinking alcohol, smoking and can even become as extreme
as interpreting God ordained eating habits based on traditions in the Old Testament.
How to spot them:It’s not so much what they do, but what they say.A legalist will look down on Christians who do things they are against, or imply that other Christians
aren’t as holy as them.
Why are they dangerous?For the most part, they’re harmless to other Christians.However, they are famous for turning off non-believers to Christianity.I don't believe the bible is a textbook for living. Many Christians believe everything in the bible is significant,
however, part of the Old Testament is simply a historical record. We fool ourselves into thinking we can figure God
out, when really, his ways are so much higher, unexplainably more. A popular trend especially in the charismatic churches
is the 'name it and claim it' way of thinking about verses in the bible - that we can chose a verse we like and claim it as
a promise to us from God when really, many of the verses in the bible were spoken to one man at a time. How can we tell
the paraplegic with cancer that God has plans for him, plans for hope and plans for a future? They aren't likely going to
have a future, unless they receive a divine healing from God. The only absolute is that they are going to
Heaven!
Jesus did make a promise of our future on earth, and that is "in this world you will have trouble - but take heart,
I have overcome the world!" We should not be deceived to expect a prosperous future in this life. As
Christians we must expect the opposite and live for the rewards that come after.
It is human nature to assign a reason to everything. For every ache and pain, we try to find some cause, and
for every bad time and trial we try to figure that out too. You have heard the saying "looking for a devil under every
rock..." well, that is not uncommon for some. A bad day or feeling ill might constitute a spiritual attack. While
it can be possible, why give the devil the credit? The demonic realm is another that we will never be able to understand fully,
so if we don't know for sure we shouldn't say. The bible says whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is pure
meditate on these things. We have limited understanding and therefore should accept the simple truths.
Circus Act 5: The Hypocrite
Definition:
Hypocrites make up the majority of the Circus Act.They go hand-in-hand with
the legalist, only they do they do exactly what they preach against.
How to spot them:They make a point of telling you how good they are, and judging others.They are very direct on the things they are against and that they don’t do.Usually you will hear about or see them contradict their faith sooner or later, and
over and over.
Why are they dangerous? Christians are to represent Christ.Because Christianity is not something
you can be talked into, most often it is what people see that attracts them, rather than what they hear.And when they have Christians telling them how bad they are, yet the Christians go ahead and do the very
thing they are judging others for, it reflects very bad on Christians.A big
mouth gets a lot of attention, especially negative attention.Voltaire, a nineteenth
century atheistic philosopher once said, “I will believe in the Redeemer when Christians act redeemed.”
People like this grow to believe they are favored by God and therefore justify judging and mistreating others.
They feel it is their right because they are more righteous than others. Or they will pray to God for forgiveness after,
yet not ask forgiveness from the person they offended. And the next day they go right back to it
The bible says judge not lest you be judged. The same measure you judge others with will be used on you.
As Christians, we are still supposed to be accountable to each other and how we are living because we are all ambassadors
for Christ. However, should a fellow Christian be living in sin we are not to address it in a way of gossip, slander,
self-righteousness, and/or criticism. And we should also be sure we are living our lives right - if we aren't living
right, it's like trying to remove the speck in your brother's eye when there is a plank in your own.
Pastors, Christian entertainers etc. who fall into sin are often patronized by saying that they were under the devil's
attack. Still, a high percentage of them that haven't fallen into a sinful lifestyle and still have an
effective ministry aren't being attacked, at least not to the point where they give in to prostitutes, drugs, alcohol or porn.
Why isn't the devil attacking Billy Graham like he attacked Jimmy Swaggart? We all face temptation; it's how we deal
with it that makes the difference. If we give in we have no one to blame but ourselves.
But somehow, the hypocritical Christian thinks they are exempt from this, and usually instability, refusal to accept
logic, and in extreme cases mental problems play a huge part in these beliefs. But this is almost a guarantee:
the Christian who carries on this way will more than likely be humbled, often involving a sin or sins they judged others for.
I have seen it happen over and over in hypocritical Christians - some come out of it aware of their ways and change.
Others refuse to accept it and keep going down the same old downward spiral.
Circus Act 6: Jekyl and Hyde
Definition: The
model Christian and servant in the church, and a nightmare at home.
How to spot them:Almost impossible to spot, unless someone tells you, you are related
or living with them.
Why are they dangerous? Much like the hypocrite, they put on a great face in the public eye. They love to be admired by others and this
desire presses them on. But at home, with their spouse and/or children, it's a different story. The same accolades
they get from the public don't come from the family and therefore they don't bother to be the husband or wife they are supposed
to be. This can range from simply not doing their spousal duties to actually becoming abusive.
I know a couple who tirelessly serve the poor and needy. I was convinced that they were the most loving and generous
couple in the world. I was half right. The wife came to us and explained that the man we see rushing around every
day helping others also comes home, gets drunk and mistreats her. How alone she must feel when the public is praising
this man for what a great Christian he is, and she comes home to him, passed out at five in the afternoon?
Conclusion
There is a battle between good and evil going on, and the temptation we face is evidence of it. However, in any
situation no matter how bad it is, the difference is how it is handled. Do we throw up our hands and say it's hopeless
or do we put our trust in God and allow him to work it out?
You have probably heard the illustration of how bank employees are trained to tell the difference between real and
counterfeit bills. Instead of studying the fake ones, they study the authentic ones and thus, gain a clear understanding
of what is true. In the same way, God gives us several simple truths that we are to believe. Half-baked theories,
even if they are somewhat true can cause us to get side tracked from the truth.
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Romans 12:9
Yes, a dark time in our life may feel like the devil's attack. It may even be the devil's attack. But
through it all I don't believe we are to give the devil any credit. If we lament that the devil is attacking us and
conclude it is because of how effective we are for God and that he wants to take us out, he has won. The truth is, the
devil would like to see us all fall, no matter who or what we are. To insinuate that he has specifically targeted us
because of our effectiveness as a Christian is pride and arrogance.
When Horatio Spafford lost his four daughters in a shipwreck did he cry out that it was the devil's attack because
he's such a good Christian? No, he wrote the well-known hymn, It Is Well With My Soul, accepting both the good and bad that
God allows. We are all supposed to keep running the race, trusting that whatever God allows is to make us a stronger
person.
It seems like an overwhelming job to clean up the mess that people have made of Christianity. However we can
still do our part every day, showing people a true picture of Christianity, not necessarily by our words but our actions.
Stay accountable to God and others. Continue to check in with God and ask him to weigh your heart - and remove anything
that may be hindering you from being an effective witness for him. We will never solve the world's problems and
turn people into what we think they should be, but we can start on ourselves, allowing God to turn us into the Christian he
would like us to be.
ret God's word to fit
their preference. There are hundreds of different bible translations surely anyone of any lifestyle can find a version
to fit them.
There are a few simple rules you can follow to limit the amount of crazies that come into your life. Because
they are often very sneaky in getting you wrapped up with them, and you're better safe, than sorry.
Listen. Listen to the things they say about themselves and others. Do they try to convince you how wonderful they are?
Do they cut everyone else down? Listen to what others say about them. Does everyone have a similar opinion? Has this
person despite how wonderful they say they are, have a history of mistreating others for no logical reason?
Watch. Watch, preferably from a distance. See if this person's actions back up who they say they are. Watch how
they interact with others. Do they patronize other people and pour the flattery on thick? Look out, this is step one
in tangling others into their messed up little world.
Wait. Most of us have friends that have been around forever but does the person in question have friends who tend to
drop like flies and maybe replaced with new ones, until it dwindles away to one or none? This type will always refuse to take
responsibility. It was always someone else, never them! They will often be a self-professed loner and explain that no
one understand them, rather than, "I like being alone a lot." People talk, so in no time you will hear it through the
grapevine what a nut this person is, and usually not from only one source.
Keeping all that in mind, I’ve made a more detailed list of the top “Christian” Circus acts in no
particular order, written partly out of humor but with the exception of the Cult Leader, are based on real people that are
known to me and others close to me. Unfortunately, some of the people you encounter will fit into more than one of the
following categories.
Circus
Act 1: The Cult leader
Definition:
An individual appearing to be Christian however manipulates others into following his teachings, which over time deviate from
the bible.
How to spot them: They usually have a following, which believes that their church is the only right one in the world.The things the cult leader’s church stand for usually have seeds of truth from the bible, but overall
contradict what the bible says (having multiple wives, hating the sinner, not the sin, etc.) Check out the Westboro Baptist Church home page for an example of twisted biblical teachings.
Why are they dangerous? This is self-explanatory.Good, decent people, Christians or not, can
and have gotten sucked into these cults.Why? The leader is an expert at brainwashing
and can usually get people in so deep, they cannot get out.Needless to say it
is very dangerous to trust in the teachings of a man and his complicated instructions on how to be "more spiritual" than the
other Christians...the ones that don't follow his teachings, rather than the pure and simple teachings of Jesus in the bible.
When Jesus’ teachings are over elaborated on, we run a strong risk of not only being wrong but also leading others
astray. It is not uncommon for even a pastor to be taken at his word - the bible says to test everything.
Circus Act 2: Drugs for Jesus
Definition:
A good friend introduced me to this concept, and it is funny but a little sad too because these kinds of people exist.The drug addict/alcoholic/ex-con who got saved, with a twist.They traded in one addiction for another, and are just as twisted with their Christian faith as they were
with drugs and whatnot.
How to spot them:They are an authority on the bible, but only follow the bible teachings
they want, much like the cult leader (for example, they won’t work for a living but they will take hand-outs from the
church).They don’t like instruction, correction, but insist on becoming
some sort of leader in the church, whether it’s hosting a bible study or teaching Sunday school.Many of them believe they have an inside track with God and that he speaks to them directly.
Why are they dangerous? It’s great when anyone who has lived a rough life gets saved, but not when they refuse to take responsibility
for anything in their life and insist on judging others.Credibility is important
in a church, which is why we have stable Christian women teaching children rather than someone fresh out of jail, no matter
how well he talks the talk.
Circus Act 3: The Freak Show
Definition:
A crazy, ultra-spiritual person, plain and simple.You might find them in a cult,
but they are also living among us in evangelical churches.And it’s not
the crazy type that is “on fire for God”; rather, they use God to justify their crazy and irrational actions,
which can be anything from mean-spirited to completely bizarre, including hearing God talking to them directly (usually a
voice in their head or a strong feeling they believe is brought on them by God) usually commending them for how wonderful
they are, or promising them great things, judging and convicting others of their sins (when they have more than their share
to worry about), seeing demons, and more. Now there are people out there that God talks to, and people who actually
do see demons. But the difference between these people and the freak shows are the genuine people are not told by God
how great they are, rather, what they need to change in their life to be better. As for the demon seers, these are people
who have had experience dealing with the spiritual world and people oppressed with demons. The demons they testify to
seeing are nothing to be taken lightly, not something you could happen to see sitting in someone's living room and be able
to walk away. No, if any of us really saw what came from hell we would be screaming out the door. But the spirit
world is so unknown to us, we dare not tamper or try to understand it. We are, after all, to meditate on whatever
is pure, noble, and good.
How to spot them:They are usually very engaging at first.They need to be, to get people close to them.They tell you their life
story and how hard done by they are, and you feel sorry for them and wonder how this could happen to such a sweet person.Once the true colors come out, people get away fast.
Female freak shows usually have few if any, female friends.They look down on other, even normal woman and use derogatory terms for them.
They are rarely involved with anyone romantically because
“no one is good enough for them”.If they have had romantic relationships,
usually it has ended bad and is 100% the fault of the guy.Accusations such as
he were abusive, unfaithful, or obsessive are made.
The number one giveaway of the female freak show that is
a professing Christian is that she demonstrates none of the fruits of the spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness and
kindness.She is easily angered and irrational.And everyone else is always WRONG. If she is a professing Christian yet looks down on almost everyone and has
no problem saying it, look out. I have met several people who demonstrated this right off the bat - had nothing good
to say about anyone...and in time as I realized what they were all about, I was somehow added to their list!
Men can be freak shows and demonstrate some of the characteristics of the female freak show.They both take a page out of the Drugs for Jesus circus act and become an authority on spiritual matters.They justify mistreating others because they are solid with God, and he talks directly
to them. They judge and feel it's their duty to convict others of sin, while they have their own wacky stuff going on.
Watch out for those whose lives are totally messed up, yet they still insist on being a spiritual authority. It is almost
like it's easier to deal with other people's problems than face the storm inside.
Why are they dangerous?They draw you in quickly and win your sympathy and love, and then they
turn on you like a rattlesnake.They betray your trust and although you have
done nothing to them, in their mind you are just another person who has wronged them.They have irrational reasons why you are a horrible person and have no logic or common sense at all, you cannot argue
or convince them otherwise so don't waste your breath.They are also a very brutal
witness for Christianity.
Circus Act 4: The Legalist
Definition:
Someone who interprets and makes laws for themselves based on what they read in the bible.They usually look down on others who claim to be Christians yet don’t obey these laws.Some of them include going to movie theaters, drinking alcohol, smoking and can even become as extreme
as interpreting God ordained eating habits based on traditions in the Old Testament.
How to spot them:It’s not so much what they do, but what they say.A legalist will look down on Christians who do things they are against, or imply that other Christians
aren’t as holy as them.
Why are they dangerous?For the most part, they’re harmless to other Christians.However, they are famous for turning off non-believers to Christianity.I don't believe the bible is a textbook for living. Many Christians believe everything in the bible is significant,
however, part of the Old Testament is simply a historical record. We fool ourselves into thinking we can figure God
out, when really, his ways are so much higher, unexplainably more. A popular trend especially in the charismatic churches
is the 'name it and claim it' way of thinking about verses in the bible - that we can chose a verse we like and claim it as
a promise to us from God when really, many of the verses in the bible were spoken to one man at a time. How can we tell
the paraplegic with cancer that God has plans for him, plans for hope and plans for a future? They aren't likely going to
have a future, unless they receive a divine healing from God. The only absolute is that they are going to
Heaven!
Jesus did make a promise of our future on earth, and that is "in this world you will have trouble - but take heart,
I have overcome the world!" We should not be deceived to expect a prosperous future in this life. As
Christians we must expect the opposite and live for the rewards that come after.
It is human nature to assign a reason to everything. For every ache and pain, we try to find some cause, and
for every bad time and trial we try to figure that out too. You have heard the saying "looking for a devil under every
rock..." well, that is not uncommon for some. A bad day or feeling ill might constitute a spiritual attack. While
it can be possible, why give the devil the credit? The demonic realm is another that we will never be able to understand fully,
so if we don't know for sure we shouldn't say. The bible says whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is pure
meditate on these things. We have limited understanding and therefore should accept the simple truths.
Circus Act 5: The Hypocrite
Definition:
Hypocrites make up the majority of the Circus Act.They go hand-in-hand with
the legalist, only they do they do exactly what they preach against.
How to spot them:They make a point of telling you how good they are, and judging others.They are very direct on the things they are against and that they don’t do.Usually you will hear about or see them contradict their faith sooner or later, and
over and over.
Why are they dangerous? Christians are to represent Christ.Because Christianity is not something
you can be talked into, most often it is what people see that attracts them, rather than what they hear.And when they have Christians telling them how bad they are, yet the Christians go ahead and do the very
thing they are judging others for, it reflects very bad on Christians.A big
mouth gets a lot of attention, especially negative attention.Voltaire, a nineteenth
century atheistic philosopher once said, “I will believe in the Redeemer when Christians act redeemed.”
People like this grow to believe they are favored by God and therefore justify judging and mistreating others.
They feel it is their right because they are more righteous than others. Or they will pray to God for forgiveness after,
yet not ask forgiveness from the person they offended. And the next day they go right back to it
The bible says judge not lest you be judged. The same measure you judge others with will be used on you.
As Christians, we are still supposed to be accountable to each other and how we are living because we are all ambassadors
for Christ. However, should a fellow Christian be living in sin we are not to address it in a way of gossip, slander,
self-righteousness, and/or criticism. And we should also be sure we are living our lives right - if we aren't living
right, it's like trying to remove the speck in your brother's eye when there is a plank in your own.
Pastors, Christian entertainers etc. who fall into sin are often patronized by saying that they were under the devil's
attack. Still, a high percentage of them that haven't fallen into a sinful lifestyle and still have an
effective ministry aren't being attacked, at least not to the point where they give in to prostitutes, drugs, alcohol or porn.
Why isn't the devil attacking Billy Graham like he attacked Jimmy Swaggart? We all face temptation; it's how we deal
with it that makes the difference. If we give in we have no one to blame but ourselves.
But somehow, the hypocritical Christian thinks they are exempt from this, and usually instability, refusal to accept
logic, and in extreme cases mental problems play a huge part in these beliefs. But this is almost a guarantee:
the Christian who carries on this way will more than likely be humbled, often involving a sin or sins they judged others for.
I have seen it happen over and over in hypocritical Christians - some come out of it aware of their ways and change.
Others refuse to accept it and keep going down the same old downward spiral.
Circus Act 6: Jekyl and Hyde
Definition: The
model Christian and servant in the church, and a nightmare at home.
How to spot them:Almost impossible to spot, unless someone tells you, you are related
or living with them.
Why are they dangerous? Much like the hypocrite, they put on a great face in the public eye. They love to be admired by others and this
desire presses them on. But at home, with their spouse and/or children, it's a different story. The same accolades
they get from the public don't come from the family and therefore they don't bother to be the husband or wife they are supposed
to be. This can range from simply not doing their spousal duties to actually becoming abusive.
I know a couple who tirelessly serve the poor and needy. I was convinced that they were the most loving and generous
couple in the world. I was half right. The wife came to us and explained that the man we see rushing around every
day helping others also comes home, gets drunk and mistreats her. How alone she must feel when the public is praising
this man for what a great Christian he is, and she comes home to him, passed out at five in the afternoon?
Conclusion
There is a battle between good and evil going on, and the temptation we face is evidence of it. However, in any
situation no matter how bad it is, the difference is how it is handled. Do we throw up our hands and say it's hopeless
or do we put our trust in God and allow him to work it out?
You have probably heard the illustration of how bank employees are trained to tell the difference between real and
counterfeit bills. Instead of studying the fake ones, they study the authentic ones and thus, gain a clear understanding
of what is true. In the same way, God gives us several simple truths that we are to believe. Half-baked theories,
even if they are somewhat true can cause us to get side tracked from the truth.
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Romans 12:9
Yes, a dark time in our life may feel like the devil's attack. It may even be the devil's attack. But
through it all I don't believe we are to give the devil any credit. If we lament that the devil is attacking us and
conclude it is because of how effective we are for God and that he wants to take us out, he has won. The truth is, the
devil would like to see us all fall, no matter who or what we are. To insinuate that he has specifically targeted us
because of our effectiveness as a Christian is pride and arrogance.
When Horatio Spafford lost his four daughters in a shipwreck did he cry out that it was the devil's attack because
he's such a good Christian? No, he wrote the well-known hymn, It Is Well With My Soul, accepting both the good and bad that
God allows. We are all supposed to keep running the race, trusting that whatever God allows is to make us a stronger
person.
It seems like an overwhelming job to clean up the mess that people have made of Christianity. However we can
still do our part every day, showing people a true picture of Christianity, not necessarily by our words but our actions.
Stay accountable to God and others. Continue to check in with God and ask him to weigh your heart - and remove anything
that may be hindering you from being an effective witness for him. We will never solve the world's problems and
turn people into what we think they should be, but we can start on ourselves, allowing God to turn us into the Christian he
would like us to be.
What
are Cosmo Girls Made of?
What are Cosmo Girls Made Of? Every month a new Cosmopolitan magazine arrives in the mail, and sits on the table in
the coffee room at the office. Everyone takes turns flipping through the glossy, advertisement-ridden pages. Every month it's
the same: a tall skinny girl with big hair, low riding pants and cleavage enhancing top, greeting you on the cover and enticing
you to open the magazine and find out how you can be more like her. If the picture isn't enough, the cover stories are there
to coax you that Cosmopolitan will enhance your life. The articles are a repetitive series focusing on how to enhance your
performance and pleasure in bed, how to improve your looks and sense of fashion, and how to become successful at work. As
I turn the pages of this magazine, I discover sameness about all the articles and columns that I find nauseating. It has driven
me to compose a list of what Cosmo Girls are really made of.
The looks of the girls on the cover are a prerequisite if you want to get ahead sexually, and successfully in life.
Low cut tops and short skirts are not trashy, they are sexy, liberating, and should be worn to snag the man of your dreams,
or get a raise at work. Cosmo girls have cushy office jobs in marketing or consulting. They have all the time in the world
for a two-hour lunch, or a work out to keep their Cosmo Girl body in shape during the day. Office affairs are not only condoned,
but also encouraged, if it is a means of getting what you want. Stepping on faces to get to the top, backstabbing and snitching
are also sure-fire ways of gaining prestige to the Cosmo Girl. The Cosmo Girl has a collection of ex-flings, ex-boyfriends,
and ex-fiancés, all of which she had wild, memorable sex with and can write in to brag about it. Some of these men she cheated
on, and some cheated on her. Both parties have a chance to write in and brag about it in the Confessions column. I've read
a paragraph about a girl that went on vacation with her lover, and had sex on the beach with the scuba diving instructor
she met that day. When she returned to the hotel her boyfriend reported to her how he just watched a couple have sex on the
beach. She laughed at the fact that it was she and her hot date, and her boyfriend, who supposedly she is dedicated to, had
no idea. This is how a Cosmo Girl treats her man.
There is little or no mention of love, unless it includes a write
up about a hot sexual experience. The Cosmo Girl is trained to put up walls and look out for number one. The Cosmo Girl trusts
no one, and no one trusts her. Of course there are lengthy articles about how to please your partner in bed, but who specifically,
and how many of them? These articles give little or no mention to marriage; rather, they are directed to you and your lover.
After all a Cosmo Girl would never lower herself to commit to a man. That would rob her of her wild multi-partnered sex life
and the Independence that makes her the Cosmo Girl she is.
Does the Cosmo Girl have children? If she didn't chose to abort the pregnancy that may
hinder her career and sex life, she might. If she has the baby, she will not depend on the father to support her and the child.
With her marketing job, she doesn't need a man and can do it on her own. In an age where unwanted pregnancies, sexual promiscuity,
STD's, and divorce run rampant, Cosmopolitan does very little to protect it's readers. Instead it tells you to do what you
want, and then helps you deal with the consequences. I've seen the perky ads with attractive couples that appear to be in
love that resemble a Hallmark Card. When you read a little further it's actually an ad for treatment of Herpes. What is the
first thing that comes to a Cosmo Girl's mind when she sees this? "If I have sex, I may get Herpes. But according to this,
it's all right. I can cross that bridge when I come to it." Then there's birth control ads that announce, "The first Birth
Control pill that clears your skin!" What a concept! Not only can you screw around and not get pregnant, you can fight skin
problems too!
Cosmo Girls live in a fast paced world, drive beautiful cars, and breeze through lovers. While they
zip back and forth, they miss the "Honorary Cosmo Girls" who are struggling through life. These are the ones who read Cosmo
religiously, and bought what it was selling. These are the girls with low self esteems who jumped into bed with whoever was
drunk enough at the club, because Cosmo persisted that it is normal to explore your sexuality. Cosmo criticizes girls with
standards, who wish to save themselves for the man they truly love. The honorary Cosmo Girl ended up pregnant and couldn't
quite close the deal with the marketing job. Instead, she finds herself waitressing at a truck stop, or folding curtains at
Wal-Mart just to make ends meet. Since she couldn't depend on the father to help out if she wanted, she relies on welfare.
Money she earns is not spent on massages, manicures, or BMW car payments. Rather it's spent on diapers, and gassing up the
beat up car to take her baby to day care. She lives in constant loneliness and isolation, that it drives her to seek attention
and affection in the very way that got her into this mess. She turns to clubs and drinking, to find her some sort of happiness
in this empty life.
The girls at work comment on the last few pages in Cosmopolitan magazine. We entitle it the "Not
Good Enough" section. If you managed to get through the sexually explicit articles, scantily clad women in ads, and fashion
section showing clothes you will never afford, and manage to still have self esteem, this it the part that will break you.
Four to six full-paged ads introduce revolutionary products you can take to enhance your breasts, lose weight, and increase
your sex drive. Another page shows a beautiful girl and a price list for breast augmentation, liposuction, and face-lifts.
The last pages of Cosmo shove psychics, telephone sex, naughty lingerie and sex products down your throat. If you're too ugly
to get a date, you can still enjoy yourself with a meaningless sexual conversation, and a contraption guaranteed to bring
you sexual fulfillment. If a Cosmo Girl is fulfilled, why must she jump from partner to partner? If the most memorable moments
with her lover or lovers was a wild sexual experience, why is she no longer with them? If sex makes up the majority of
Cosmopolitan Magazine, then why isn't a glorious lover enough to hold it all together? What else do we need men for if we
earn our on money, buy things for ourselves, and raise our children? According to Cosmo, an exciting sex partner is a gold
mine. In the last fifty years things have gotten substantially worse. At one time, couples loved each other, stayed together,
and money was a means, not an issue. Wives took care of their husbands, and husbands provided for their wives. Children were
raised in strong, God-fearing homes, and grew up with the same work ethic and principles of their parents. There were much
fewer unwanted pregnancies, divorce, and abortion was unheard of. I would like someone to explain to me how much better our
world is because of magazines like the one I've repeatedly described. The more liberal minded we become, and the more we condone,
the worse things become. I singled out Cosmo because it is above and beyond all feminist and sex-centered women's magazines.
I can give credit to some women's magazines for emphasizing marriage and family life, but unfortunately cannot do that for
Cosmo. So what is a Cosmo Girl made of? She is made of selfishness, an unbridled sex drive, and no morals to be seen. She
feels no remorse for those she hurts, as long as it helps her achieve her self-seeking goals. She is driven by success and
power over the alleged weaker sex with her beautiful body, her revealing clothes, and her lack of sexual inhibition. As for
the honorary Cosmo robots, they are driven only by shelling out five bucks every month to find out what they should really
act, look, and are like.
Mind
Your Own Business
Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told
you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.
1 Thessalonians
4: 11-12
Ah, nothing like the feeling of the sting when you find out someone has gossiped about you, or the knife twisting in
your back from someone you thought was a friend, shared things with and did stuff for.Followed by the hurt is the defensive reaction – how could they say something like that? How could they be so
two faced?
And then reality hits.Nasty things that you’ve said about others
come back and hit you in the face, one after the other.And there are many, because
you are around you more than anyone and know exactly what’s going on inside, and what comes creeping up outside.Few of your judgments, criticisms and outright insults have leaked out to the person
they are about but you know full well that people would be shocked if they knew what you really thought.
And are you really thinking? Or are you spewing out venom to cover up your own insecurities?
They say (and I don’t know who ‘they’ is, so please don’t ask) that the very characteristics
you despise in others are actually characteristics that you have too.This is
true to an extent but not a rule of thumb, because it is possible to hate cheats, liars, etc. and not be one yourself.It is a lot easier to see fault in others than see it in yourself.That’s why when someone burns you it’s a great opportunity to examine yourself.
Most of the time, the things people say about you are exaggerated, if true at all.But it’s a good opportunity to take their observations to someone you trust.You will be able to tell by the reaction whether it’s something to be concerned about or not.Either you’ll get a flat out, “No, that’s ridiculous – you’re not like that
at all” OR “Well, sometimes you tend to be a little (fill in the blanks).”
Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses. Proverbs 27:6
It also gives you an awesome chance to start cleaning up your track record.You’ve experienced firsthand what it feels like to overhear someone’s mean spirited comments.If you have ever insulted anyone behind their back or talked about them in a way that you wouldn’t
want them overhearing you really don’t have a leg to stand on – you can’t really be upset with them because
you have done it yourself.Instead, you can make a point of saying only things
you would want others hearing, and in time your gossip free reputation will proceed your backstabbing one.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whohave been called according
to his purpose. Romans 8:28
Even if someone says something that in one hundred percent not true, evil, and malicious, you can still allow it to
strengthen you and come out the bigger person.It is easy (and sometimes thought
of as satisfying) to retaliate but if you read through the gospels you will see no one was falsely accused more, and more
horrible things said about Jesus.Many times he remained quiet, because he knew
the truth, and so do you.
Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"
says the Lord. Romans 12:19
My father always told me, “Don’t worry what people say, as long as your conscience is clear.”There is also an old saying, “Consider the source.”When a notorious gossip or just a bitter or mean-spirited person’s gums are flapping, you usually
take it with a grain of salt – and stay away because they know if that person is saying such things to you, chances
are they will backstab you too!
People love conflict and controversy.Why else would millions of people
buy entertainment magazines and visit celebrity gossip web pages to find out what’s going on in some stranger’s
life?Why would they want to find out what’s going on with Brad and Angelina
instead of spending the time on a good book or exercise? Maybe it makes us feel better to know that beautiful people with
loads of money can still have problems, and a lot of them! If our lives are that boring and unfulfilled it’s time to
do something to change it.None of us are above it, whether we sneak a peek once
in a while or pour over them for an hour.There is only one way to lose your
taste for that stuff, or at least keep it dormant – stay away!
There will always be someone prettier, thinner, funnier, smarter, someone who has a lot more than you.But there are also a lot who have significantly less.And
until we thank God for what we have and be content with it, nothing else will fill that hole.
A Little Won't Hurt
So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall! 13No temptation has
seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But
when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
1 Corinthians 10:12-13
Many Christians, especially the ones who have been Christians a while are under the misconception that they can tinker
with sin and not get hurt. Often, new Christians make radical changes in their life only to drift back little by little
through the years, so that although they weren't where they were before they were Christians, they also are not as pure as
when they made the initial decision to follow Christ.
Any sin separates us from God, no matter how big or small it seems to us. The consequences might not happen overnight,
but if we keep going down the path, allowing just a little bit all the time we will eventually get there.
A married, Christian lady does not wake up one morning and decide to cheat on her husband. The devil knows our
weaknesses and preys on them, so that when he sees the married woman growing bored and dissatisfied in her married life, he
brings along a man who she likes, admires, who makes her feel desired. Initially, the woman knows spending time with
a man other than her husband is wrong, however, the devil is clever and will do whatever he can to get his foot in the door.
Casual chats in the office may turn to getting a cup of coffee together, then lunch. The more time spent talking and
connecting, the farther it will go.
In the same way the devil knows our weakness, God knows them even more. Unlike the devil, he does not want us
to fall. That's why Christianity seems so radical - most big sins start out small and that's why we are warned to stay
away from all of them!
One Christian's struggles will differ from another. The recovering alcoholic will not touch even one drink while
another Christian will see nothing wrong with having a glass of wine once in a while. A girl who struggles with lust
and desires to be wanted and needed will have to stay away from male friendships, no matter how platonic they seem to be.
While other Christian gals may be able to carry on friendships with the opposite sex, the girl with the struggles should form
close relationships with female friends so she isn't tempted to fill her void with the wrong attention.
So where does temptation come from in the first place? It is not a sin to be tempted, even Jesus was tempted.
It's what you do with it that makes the difference. You can see it for what it is, and walk away, or you can entertain
it and maybe start to dabble with it.
Christians face the most temptation when dealing with a weakness or struggle that is common to them. A compulsive
gambler doesn't feel the same pull towards alcohol or drugs that he does to gambling, unless he is an alcoholic or drug addict
too! A woman who is happy in her marriage is not as susceptible to be unfaithful to her husband as a woman who is bored or
feels emotionally unfulfilled with her husband. But the happy married woman could have different struggles - she could
be materialistic and a compulsive shopper? Walking through the mall and seeing the big sale signs might do the same thing
for her as a compliment from another man does for the unhappy married woman.
A relationship with Jesus is designed to fill all of our needs. So that when we are filled, we have no room for
temptation and no desire for anything else. When we are lacking emotional fulfillment with Jesus, it will reflect on
the rest of our life and we will go to outside sources to fill it. Once we use something to temporarily fill our void,
we are allowing sin to drive a larger wedge between Jesus and us.
"It won't hurt to miss church this once." Can turn into week after week of having something else to do, and
maybe justified with "I'll read my bible today instead."
"It won't hurt to go to the bar with my single friends just this once." Can turn into drink after drink and compromising
situations.
"I'll pray/read my bible tomorrow because I'm too tired tonight." Can turn into putting it off continuously, so
that even when you do finally sit down to read or pray, the connection is missing and it is a lot harder to get back on track.
Still Waters
I struggle with a problem that is common to most people: worry.It doesn’t
matter that I know worry accomplishes nothing, and that it is even considered a sin because it is not trusting God.We like to be in control of our lives and when we can’t control things our only option is to worry.
Trust in the LORD with all
your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3: 5-6
Sounds pretty simple, doesn’t
it? It is.But it doesn’t require sitting there waiting for God to miraculously
change you.It requires trusting in God, and leaning not on our own understanding.That means if we understand something bad is going to happen, instead of dwelling
on it and working ourselves into a frenzy, we simply trust that God will handle it according to His will.
The Lord has taught me many
times how my worry produces nothing but stress and anxiety.To my embarrassment,
a lot of times I have anticipated something terrible happening or is going to happen, only to find out that I was worrying
myself sick for nothing! It has taken a lot of practice and a lot of reminding myself that God is in charge, and He’s
taken care of me before.
Although I discussed worry
in my introduction, that isn’t my intended topic.It is a much more positive
one.It is what God can do for you when you have nothing else to lean on but
Him.I would like to share a personal experience to help drive my point home.
This past weekend I wrote
a final exam for a course I have been taking this past year.It has been a lot
of hard work, money and time invested.The exam determined whether I was prepared
to move on to the second year, and thus complete my training for my much-anticipated career.
To my pleasant surprise,
this time I felt like I actually had a bit of a grip on things.A year ago and
maybe as little as a few months ago I may have been a complete wreck, but deep down inside there was a calm, much like a stormy
sea with waves crashing on the outside, but just below the surface are still, calm waters.Even my body plotted against me.The morning before the exam I felt my
usual symptoms of anxiety: nausea, headaches, no appetite.But somehow, my heart
wasn’t buying it.Somehow I knew I would be okay.
I kept waiting for the peace
to wear off.That’s how unsure of myself I can be! After I wrote the exam
the doubt really started to set in.I looked through my books and found things
that I had written in the exam that were wrong.I started to slip back into my
old ways as I planned for my future and how things would change if I blew this exam.I was leaning on my own understanding.I believe God opened the doors
for me to make a career change a year ago and take this course.I had worked
hard throughout the year.Why did I doubt His ability to carry out what He started?
It was encouraging that
in the midst of waiting for my exam marks and thinking about what I had did wrong, that peace was still there, deep down,
even though my own untrusting human nature was threatening to bury it in doubt.
Had I packed my things,
canceled plans with fellow students for an after-exam dinner, and then a wind up at my instructor’s house, and just
drove home stewing in worry as I had contemplated doing, I would have set myself up for a greater defeat than failing my exam.I got ready, held my head up, and joined my classmates.Complete relief came not long after, when my instructor called my cell phone to let me know that I had
passed!
And the peace of God, which
transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7
I love that verse.It tells me I’m human, I’m normal, and my understanding is not God’s
at all.He sees the big picture, and He understands that I cannot see it.That is why we have His word, to give us promises that if we only put our hand in
His and trust Him, he will reward us with His peace (and what could be better?), so no matter what our mind rationalizes to
us, God’s peace will guard us and keep up safe for adversity, be it from parents, friends, even ourselves.We just have to let Him.
I have allowed a circumstance
in my life to cause me doubt, fear, a feeling of hopelessness, desperation, and nights of crying myself to sleep.Even when the storm is raging, and the rain is pouring I still haven’t lost sight of why I am in
the place that I am, and the reason far outweighs my understanding.
I believe God put me here.I believe that He that began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it.And I believe that if I walk away based on my own understanding, I will be missing
out on the blessing He wants to give, if only I trust in Him.
Knowing that, and experiencing
things like I experienced this past weekend have given me new hope and joy despite the circumstance I’m in.Jesus said, “In this world you will have trouble, but take heart, I have overcome the world.”
(John 16:33)When we have nothing of the world to cling to: promises and encouragement
from others, “ideal” circumstances, easy lives…we need Him more than ever.He is the only one who can sustain us, and the only one who can bring us peace, despite whatever is going on.
It breaks my heart to see
people walking around, talking and smiling like everything is okay, and to wonder if they are only pretending like I pretend?
Their lives may be a mess and in the public eye they hide it.And does anyone
seem to notice or care? When you ask an old acquaintance how her husband is doing, and she tears up and says they are separating,
do you care to listen, and do you care to pray?
It is little wonder that
when people’s circumstances disappoint them, or they come to the end of their resources they run to God.But He shouldn’t be a last resort.We should keep in
check with Him now and work on building our trust in Him, so that when we do come to the end of our rope, the peace that only
He can give will be there!
A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. Proverbs 18:24
Proverbs is full of wisdom.Although it was written thousands of years
ago we can still read through it today and be able to relate to what is said.My
first exposure to the book of Proverbs was as a young child when my father would remind my mother that a nagging wife was
like a constant dripping!
I’m constantly learning new things, both from meditating on God’s word and interacting with people.This week I learned a couple of times what it means to be a friend who sticks closer
than a brother.
As Christians, we are to be thankful to God for everything He has given us.We
are to be positive and uplifting to others.But what happens when someone comes
to us hurting and confides in us? Do we remind them that although their situation is troubling it could be a lot worse? I
used to think so.
I had the opportunity to read through the book of Job.The majority of
the book is made up of a conversation between Job and his three friends.The
friends are convinced there is something wrong with Job and he brought the entire calamity on himself, while Job is pleading
with them to simply listen.
Friends don’t always have the answers.We like to help and fix problems
but sometimes we can’t.And when someone is hurting they may not want us
to try.
A despairing man should have the devotion of his friends, even though he forsakes the fear of the Almighty. Job 6:14
I have been guilty many times of trying to convince a hurting friend to look on the bright side, or find solutions
to their problems.It is only when I am upset and hurting and confides in someone
that I realize how futile that is.Sometimes you just need someone to listen.
Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Romans 12:15
Now there are exceptions, like if someone actually asks you for advice.If
you’re not sure you can ask, “Do you want advice or do you just want me to listen?” That is the best way
to find out if they just need a sounding board or something more.
Then you have those who will talk your ear off and never get anywhere, or ask for advice and never take it, and keep
coming back to you with the same problem! Those are the times to use discretion.There
are people who complain for the sake of complaining and will prey on whoever will listen and sympathize.When all is said and done you have only fed their habit and burned yourself out.
Words are easy.Everyone has opinions and almost everyone is more than
willing to share them.A good friend will take the time to listen, without interruptions
or thinking about what they want to say next before their hurting friend is even done talking!
The next time someone comes to us troubled, let’s treat them how we would like to be treated if we were in their
shoes!
Travel Lightly
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened,
and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find
rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11: 28-30
For the first few years of my adult life
I found, despite all I had learned about trusting in Jesus, having joy during hard times, and not worrying about things, I
still felt heavy and was not experiencing the freedom in Jesus I wanted.I held
on to my worry, anxiety and disbelief more than I held on to the promises God had made me.Because I was carrying so much baggage there was little room for God to work.I knew about giving my cares and concerns to God, but I had a lot of trouble doing it.On days I felt strong and confident it was easy to say that it was all in the Lord’s hands.But mornings when I would wake up feeling hopeless, and nights when I was feeling so lonely it made my
heart ache, I quickly tried to grab back all those things I had handed over to God.
I heard a good analogy once where holding
on to our burdens is much like trying to mail a letter, but refusing to let go of it once we get it to the mailbox.We will never receive our response unless we drop it in the mailbox, walk away, and wait.
The bible says that we must put God first
and only then the blessings will come (Matthew 6:33).We get wrapped up in our
troubles and wonder why God isn’t delivering us from our pain, when the answer is right there! It would not be in the
bible and would not be evident in Christian’s lives if it was impossible to cast all your cares upon God!
It is a lot easier said than done.Significant, positive changes in a person’s life are rarely instant, none that
I know of aside from when you first give your life to Christ.It takes commitment
to God and an ongoing dependency on Him in order for the effects to take place. There are many things in our lives that can
get in the way of our joy.The size of the problem that overwhelms us determines
how deep our faith is.
What is keeping you from having joy, and
experiencing the kind of relationship with Jesus you need?
Worry: Although it seems to be a natural thing it is actually doubting God, something that prevents us from having
a fulfilling relationship with Him. Worrying is refusing to give up control,
even though by worrying we cannot control anything.The only thing we are controlling
is that our circumstances likely will not be changed the more we insist on hanging on;
Independence: refusing to hand over the reins to God until we have explored and tried every option on our own.We find this only produces one disappointment after another when we realize that it
is out of our control;
Disappointment.We decide what we deserve and when we don’t get
it we become discouraged with God for not giving it to us; and
Resentment: resenting others for having more than you, and/or resenting God for not giving it to you.
This past week has been the darkest I can remember since before I first
started really living for God.Each day I woke up with sadness, loneliness, guilt,
bitterness and resentment and it continued to build up throughout the day so that by afternoon I was a mess.I felt so worn out I didn’t bother much with really digging into the Word like I should have.My prayers were short with not a lot of feeling, until I was at my worst and prayed
that God would just take it away.Because He wasn’t taking it away I came
to the conclusion that He was allowing it for a reason and I had to ride it out.Not
until yesterday did I realize it was actually a combined effort of the enemy and myself.Whether it was the enemy resurrecting bad memories and feelings and letting my worry and anxiety about them take over,
or whether it was me generating the feelings myself and the enemy throwing as much junk at me possible to keep the ball rolling,
I don’t know.All I knew was that it was a roller coaster, where feeling
good and normal was minimal to nil, and feeling bad was almost constant throughout the week.
Since
I had been taking such big steps towards dependence on God and dying to myself in the months before, I should have known better
than to give into that garbage.I made the mistake of believing it was God’s
way of cleansing me from the past, but now I see that isn’t true because He already HAS cleansed me, long ago when I
asked forgiveness.
I
missed the peace I had felt for a few months and the strength I had each day to get up and do the mundane and thank God that
I’m walking, talking and breathing because He knows what we need.The enemy
(and our own selfish human nature) has a way of convincing us we deserve better.It
makes us discontent with the blessings we already have and maybe a little resentful of God for not giving us more.Suddenly, everything in our lives looks a whole lot worse than it is.Have you ever been tempted to give up your schooling or career, turn your back on your loved ones (because they don’t
make you feel loved enough), move away and start fresh in some new city? Well, that’s how I felt.Irrational thoughts like that cause us to do irrational things, suicide being the most extreme.When we’re feeling our worst it is NEVER a time to make hasty decisions: walk out of a job, end a
relationship, end our life.
The
devil is out to steal our joy, and here is an example of how easy it is.I am
naturally slim and to some this may seem like a blessing.But I have heard skinny
jokes all through my late teens and twenties and I’ve gotten really sick of it.While most think it’s a compliment it’s really no different than telling someone they are overweight.You are pointing out something about someone that is different from the norm, and
anything different isn’t usually good.
Ever
wonder why the devil plays on specific insecurities for each person? It’s because it WORKS! The girl who has a cute
button nose isn’t tormented that it is too big.The devil fights dirty,
he sees a weak spot, a chink in the armor, and that is exactly where he’ll hit.A Victoria’s Secret magazine will come in the mail, and while on a good day I’m excited and flip through
it looking at all the pretty clothes (and laugh at the pretty tacky ones) a bad day will have me take one look at the voluptuous
model on the cover and feel like the most ugly person on earth.
Easy
solution? Throw the catalogues in the garbage when they get here.But it runs
deeper than that.There are still the magazines full of beautiful people staring
at me at the Wal-Mart check-out and gas station, the beautiful girls who will cross my path and have me comparing myself to
them, the little jokes that will touch a nerve…the ONLY solution is to believe what God says about you, not what the
world says about you.
Utter
dependence and devotion to God would solve a lot of problems.Our circumstances
would no longer control our emotions.We would not worry about tomorrow because
we would believe that God is in control and “in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been
called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28
Isn’t
that awesome? Not only will God work all things in our life for the good, but also He, the All Mighty God and Creator of the
Universe called US according to His purpose.If you love God and ever doubt your
significance, remember that He is using you for His purpose!
For
we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance to do.Ephesians 2:10
This
week, God’s rescue team for me included my daily devotion books (even though I was tired and I skimmed through them
each morning and night, I still got the message) and two of the closest people to me.I had been keeping my feelings bottled up and couldn’t put words to how I was feeling and why.I led myself to believe it was God doing it when really, as my boyfriend summed it up, “It sounds
like you haven’t forgiven yourself.”
God
does not want us to feel bad, and we should not be fooled as I was.The things
I thought God was “working out” in me were things I had already asked forgiveness for, and forgiven others for.It became evident to me that my sadness was once again my own doing (with a little
help from the devil) and that God was waiting for the light to go on in me.
Once
I realized what my torment was from I could feel the knot in my stomach instantly loosen and the heaviness start to lift.My boyfriend told me “We all make mistakes, but they happen and they’re
done.Tomorrow is a new day.”
It
is as simple as that.No amount of worry or guilt (the guilt was dripping off
of me) can change the past.And when we cling to the past, as if to punish ourselves
because there is no way God could let us off that easy, we are in a sense thumbing our nose at what He did for us on the cross.He cannot forgive us unless we forgive others, and unless we forgive ourselves.
Guilt,
shame, doubt etc. have a way of worming themselves into our lives at a crucial point in time and attempt (usually successfully)
to steal our joy, even if it’s for a short time.Guilt about mistakes in
past relationships surfaces when a couple gets engaged or shortly before they are to get married.We may interpret it as God helping us deal with something before we take a big step, but guilt, shame and
doubt are NOT God’s tools (I stress the word not) and are most certain the devil’s handiwork.
I
had stumbled upon the following verse this morning, and hadn’t planned to use it in this writing, but I see how it fits
in now.
Godly
sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves not regret.But
worldly sorrow brings death.See what this godly sorrow has produced in you:
what earnestness, what eagerness to clean yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern.What readiness to see justice done.2 Corinthians 7:10
If
you are overridden with guilt over things you have already asked forgiveness for you are not experiencing godly sorrow.Godly sorrow leaves not regret.
If
you have asked God forgiveness for things you have done, only to continue to do them with no eagerness to clean yourself,
no indignation, no alarm, and no longing or concern, you are not experiencing godly sorrow.
If
you have committed a sin that causes you throw yourself at God’s feet and ask for forgiveness, and causes you repulsion
at the thought of committing that sin again, you have godly sorrow.You can be
confident to walk away and not look back.If you do try and look back to punish
yourself more by thinking of it, remember:
We
know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin.The one who was born of
God keeps Him safe and the evil one cannot harm him.1 John 5:18
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; the old has
gone, the new has come!
2
Corinthians 5:17
Therefore,
since we have been justified through faith we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.Romans 5:1
Knowing
who you are in Christ is important.If any belief about yourself or your circumstances
says any different than what He says, it is crucial to send that to the recycle bin and hit empty.Keeping it in your inbox where you can analyze it and think about it will only cause false doubt and send
you into the downward spiral I was in.
To the praise of His glorious grace which He has freely given in the one He loves,
in Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that
He lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding.Ephesians 2:6-8
What
beautiful words.They are there to heal the broken and remind us what God wants
to give.Not pain, guilt and suffering.He wants to lavish (not just give, or grant) His grace on us!
Are
we going to drop our heavy baggage we’ve been carrying around accept it?